(This picture was sent to me by client right after the session. She says this is whatr she saw during her regression)
Client Kavya (name changed) (referred to as K henceforth) Age 24 years old Female
Hypnotisability Score: 9/10 | Eye Roll Score: 1/4
Dominant Sense VAK: 8/5/2
Pain Level Before 9 & Pain Level After 1
Therapist: T Client: C
Theme: To understand what’s between the client and her school friend Karan and to explore the emptiness (in body) that she senses in her day to day life.
Session 1
History Kavya is a 24-year-old young girl. She is the eldest daughter and has two siblings. She had a crush on Karan during her school days. K and Karan were good friends. Eventually, Karan moved out of the city and they lost touch. K fondly remembered Karan initially and eventually forgot. After several years she happened to bump into him through social media. K spoke to him; however, Karan initially did not recognize her, but after K reminded him about their school days, he was okay. They chatted for a few days and eventually stopped as K felt Karan wasn’t interested in her. K was fine with that and she moved on. However, K visits his profile once in a while. Later K started seeing others through dating apps and realized she was only interested in men who looked similar to Karan. All these guys either did not revert to her or ghosted her after a meeting or after a few conversations. People ghosting her without proper closure was haunting her. She felt this was bothering her. That’s when she approached me for a PLR. She also feels an emptiness inside her, something in her is missing. K’s exact words were “I am not crazy for Karan, but I don’t understand why I am feeling empty and why I am being attracted to similar men, and then why all of them are ghosting me”. She sees this as a pattern and wants to understand the underlying dynamics.
Session 2 Dave Elman, Progressive relaxation, Ball of light, staircase, Garden
Happy memories and closures.
Session 3 Dave Elman, Progressive relaxation, Ball of light, staircase, Garden
Cliff, reframing, and PLR
Disclaimer: The session might seem confusing in the beginning, please bear with me. In the first lifetime, K saw herself as a Pleiadian starseed, but she was not aware of this term, so she described herself as a mermaid, starseed. only after a day of her PLR she did her research and told me that she was Pleiadean starseed and also send the above picture which is used for this case.
T: What comes to your awareness?
C: I don’t have any shape… like a snowball. I see a ball of light. It feels like I’m in an orgy (I heard that way). This person (Karan) is also attached to me like an orgy like we are spinning together.
T: Try to look down and see your feet.
C: There are no feet.
T: What about Karan?
C: It feels like we are joined together. It feels like we are the same. I also see others similarly but with different light colours. (after the session K told me, she saw her parents, siblings, and me as star seeds around her)
T: No one around you has a physical form?
C: No……
T: Is it ok for you to move ahead?
C: Yes.
T: I’ll count 3 to 1. On the count of 1, go back to the significant memory of a lifetime when you had a physical form 3…2….1……
T: What comes to your awareness?
C: They are beating me. (she seems to be in distress)
T: Aaah… Easy… breath….relax. All this happened in the past, relaaxxxx… inhale… relaaaxx…
T: What made them beat you?
C: I’m being punished.
T: You are being beaten and punished…. What makes them punish you?
C: I killed a lot of people. It was not my intention. It just happened. I can feel my lower body hurting a lot, even my whole body.
T: I understand you are being punished for something you did not intend to do. Your lower body and whole body are hurting. All this happened in the past; we are revisiting the experience. You don’t have to feel this pain again. Breathe. Relaaxxx.
Let’s take some breaths here and allow your lower body and whole body to relax… (we did 3 breaths and K was ok)
T: What happened after you were punished?
C: I was sent back to earth.
T: You were sent back to earth. What made them, send you to Earth?
C: I’m told that I involve myself too much. I love too much. It was a punishment they told me. Karan won’t remember me until I repent for whatever I’ve done. But I’m just angry. I lost my child. I lost my partner. I met them after a long time.
T: How did you lose them?
C: They were killed.
T: How were they killed?
C: Yeah, because of me. I was pregnant. My husband was trying to save me.
T: And then how were they killed?
C: They were killed by the humans who were trying to capture me.
T: Your husband was also a mermaid? (I asked this, because she said maybe I am a mermaid in the beginning)
C: Yeah.
T: How did you lose your husband?
C: He crossed the barrier to save me. But they just killed him with an arrow. And then later stabbed his body. No one came to save us because they wanted to protect themselves and the other starseeds.
T: How does all this make you feel?
C: Very sad, very angry. It felt like I was longing for this for so long. This was supposed to be a happy place.
T: How did you land in the situation?
C: Yeah. There was a sea, like a portal, which connected the starseeds to the earth. And I would go and come back. And this one time, people followed me there. And from there, they just caught my tail. I was scared. And ultimately, they came here, but I couldn’t cross the barrier because I was in a troublesome situation. Evil could come from that side, but no one could enter from this side. He tried to come and save me. But instead, he died. And then they tried to stab me, they stabbed my leg. And I just couldn’t move, I was holding on. Because of that, there was a huge tsunami that came on earth. And a lot of people died.
T: What is it that you have carried from that lifetime to this lifetime?
C: loneliness and grief
T: What do you need to experience to let go of this loneliness and grief?
C: It’s like I’ve been missing for more than a thousand years or something.
When I came back to earth, it had been so long, but I was never able to reunite with him. He died all the time. I was left behind……
T: I will count three to one. On the count of one, move to the next significant memory.
3…2…1 What comes to your awareness?
Lifetime 2
C: On earth. I am alone. Like I can feel my skin burning and I am angry.
T: What is it that’s making you angry?
C: I’ve lost a lot of things. There’s this old woman in front of me. She’s crying and saying something to me that I’m unable to hear clearly. It feels like she’s cursing me.
T: Maybe you could look into the eyes of this woman. Are you aware of her?
C: She’s an old woman. Seems like someone’s mother.
T: On the count of one, maybe you could get a clear impression of this woman and her words…
3…. 2…. 1…
C: She’s telling me the way you have killed so many families, so many babies, so many children. It will all get back to you. And I’m just saying, that I already lost everything, there’s nothing more to lose. And then, as soon as she’s done saying, I just kill her.
C: I’m still not satisfied. I just moved on to another home.
T: What made you kill many people and children?
C: Seems like I lost my wife. And after that, I just started conquering one place of land to the other.
T: And how did it make you feel when you conquered places and places?
C: Just some satisfaction. But it was not making me happy.
T: What are you doing in this lifetime? What is your profession?
C: I was a king. I was never happy, even in my childhood. I was always punished by my father, even my mother because I had to shoulder this responsibility.
T: And how did all this make you feel?
C: Very sad, very lonely. I was like a puppet.
T: How did you lose your wife?
C: I lost my wife in childbirth, even the child died
C: I was not there. I was called for something. So I couldn’t see her for the last time
T: Are you aware of, when the killings and the conquering of land started?
C: Yeah, it was probably one or two months later, after she died.
T: I will count three to one. On the count of one, go to the next significant memory of the same lifetime. 3…2….1…
C: I was betrayed by my friend. He stabbed me in the back and I died. It all happened very quickly. I am just in shock. I’m not angry but I’m just sad, very sad. It’s as if I knew this was coming. I didn’t have any control over the things that I did. I was regretting once that anger subsided. And that’s when he betrayed me. Because I never got a chance to apologize. There’s a lot of grief, I can feel my chest very heavy.
T: Yeah. Breathe into your chest. One more time. Breathe into your chest. And allow it to relaaaxxx… (gave her sometime here and after taking IMR we moved ahead)
T: Maybe you could look into the eyes of this person who betrayed you.
C: hmmm
T: Are you aware who this person is?
C: Yes
T: Who is he?
C: He was my friend, like my best friend.
T: Do you know him in your current lifetime?
C: I used to.
T: Who was he in his lifetime?
C: She was my school friend. She also betrayed me. (ISOMORPHISM)
T: What made that man betray you in that life?
C: He wanted to take my position. I was appreciated by my people. I conquered so many places and became an emperor. He was jealous of me.
T: I’ll count 3 to 1, on the count of one maybe you could go to the last stage of this lifetime.
3…2… 1….
T: What happened after your death?
C: I was just very happy. Like my lifetime was very sad, very sad. It’s as if I remembered what I was sent to earth for and I didn’t think about it. I just wasted this. And I was hoping that maybe I’ll get to reunite with my wife. Never happened.
T: What was the reason, you were sent to Earth?
C: Yeah, it was just the same. It was just after I died, the same punishment.
T: Float above your body and observe what is happening after your death.
C: This person lied to everyone about how I died. He gave me a funeral. And then he went on to take my position.
T: What was your learning from this lifetime?
C: Not to trust people too much. (K had an interesting observation, she said that in many friendships both in childhood and as an adult, she had very nice friendships, but then they suddenly left or ignored her. She told this after the session and we noted the deeply rooted belief that led to this pattern).
T: What were your thoughts at the time of your death?
C: Yeah, I just want this to be over. As if like I’m missing something. And for some reason, that woman’s words are there ringing in my head. She said I would keep losing everything. Right now, after my death, I understand what I did was wrong. I’m very guilty about it. This was my way of grieving for my wife. I’m not happy about it.
T: What is it that you carried from that lifetime to this lifetime?
C: Same, loneliness, a bit of guilt and not to trust people.
T: Would you like to move ahead? On the count of one, go to your next significant memory.
3….2…1 …… What comes to your awareness?
Life time 3
C: I am near a beautiful lake.
T: You are near a beautiful lake…… What are you wearing?
C: I am wearing a white dress. A lot is happening in the world. I don’t know what’s going on. It’s very scary. It’s my birthday. Me and my partner (Karan) were here to celebrate my birthday. We were having a good time. It was scary because we were not supposed to be out.
T: What is the reason, for not being out?
C: Yeah, because there’s a lot of soldiers out in the streets. I’m sure anyone could get killed at any moment. But we sneaked to this beautiful lake. Usually, people don’t come there. No one comes here. So, we thought we could have a picnic together. But then some soldiers came in and then they shot him. But he made me hide myself. So, I survived and he died.
T: What place is this?
C: The time is somewhere around 1700s. Like I was 22. He was also 22. I feel very guilty. When the soldiers, he was still alive. I could not save him in any way. He was just nodding and he was just saying to me that don’t blame yourself. He said that he’ll find me. I’m just crying a lot. I’m just shook. No tears are coming out. My white dress is all red now. I’m feeling very guilty. And ultimately, I jump into that lake and I commit suicide on the same day.
T: On the count of one, go to the last phase of this lifetime. 3…2…1
Float above and see what happened after your suicide.
C: My body was just rotting inside the water and his body was just also there. No one came afterward.
T: What are your thoughts while you float above and see all this?
C: I am just really scared of water. It was all my fault. I think I didn’t know that I was pregnant. I didn’t know that.
T: What were your beliefs about this lifetime?
C: About safety and not wanting everything. It’s as if it’s a crime to live freely. It is as if, I want a lot, or if I want more, then it’s as if I’m committing a crime. (K struggles to ask and desire for things in her current life).
T: What is it that you carried from that lifetime to this lifetime?
C: I am very scared of water, especially dipping my head. I can swim but I cannot dip or go inside deep waters. (we nowhere had this conversation during history taking)
Even about expecting, and earning money (K struggles to charge her fees in her current profession). It’s as if, at the back of my head, I know that if I’m wanting something, it’s not going to be met. And I will get some punishment or some loss. I am questioning that, why I cannot have a happy ending with some bit of awareness of what has been happening.
It seems we lost our parents.
T: How did you lose your parents?
C: They all died because of this war and whatever was happening. Seems like my parents and his parents were friends.
T: Do you realize from where all the money issues came from in this current life?
C: Yeah.
T: Do you realize what all you have carried to this lifetime?
C: I know.
T: What is it that you have to experience or understand so that you can let go of all this in your current life?
C: It’s definitely about understanding what I can receive. And I am not the one to give, like I keep on giving, giving, giving. That scarcity is here. It tells me that I can do things for myself.
T: How does this awareness make you feel, this understanding?
C: I feel better because I realize that it is going to come to me. I don’t need to go and I can want. It’s not a crime.
T: Yeah, it’s not a crime. You can want it and you can ask for it. Maybe you could embody this realization. You can want it. You can ask. You can receive it.
Take your time here and let me know when you’re ready to move ahead.
C: Okay.
(After some time)
I feel very exhausted. As if I want all of this to stop. This whole cycle of loss, as if there’s no end to it.
T: Is there a way to stop it? Does anything come to your awareness?
C: Yeah, honestly. It’s not me. It’s for him as well. Both of us have to realize that it needs to stop. It’s the same person dying and I’m the one who is surviving with guilt.
T: So, is the partner the same in every lifetime?
C: Yeah.
T: This is the same person in the current lifetime?
C: Yes. It’s just that the longing this time has been the longest. But the realization makes it a bit better.
T: Do you want to move ahead?
C: Yeah.
T: On the count of one go to the next significant memory. 3………2………1
C: It’s a very weird space. It feels as if I’m floating. And it’s like I can see all my lifetimes in front of me. Like I can see my current lifetime in front of me. Everything is flashing by. Every death.
T: Maybe you are in your highest state of awareness. Do you sense or feel anyone’s presence around you to guide you?
C: There is someone but they seem very far away. I can feel a very huge void inside of me.
Like even when I’m floating, I’m red shape. It’s like the shape of a human but it’s just energy. And I can feel as if there’s a hole in my chest. Like that piece, that thing is missing. (remember she mentioned this in history taking session)
T: On the count of one this void might take the shape of a bridge. Maybe you could walk through it and see what is this void all about. 3…2…1
T: Do you see a bridge?
C: yeah
T: You could walk through it.
C: Seems like a very long bridge.
T: It’s very long. It stayed with you for very long. Walk through it. On the count of one, you may reach the end of this bridge. 3….2…1
T: What comes to your awareness?
C: I can see Karan. It’s as if it’s his heart. I can see that he’s holding that piece. And I realized that I’ve been also holding that piece with myself. It’s as if there’s a void in his body as well. There’s also something higher. There are two people—the one who gave me that punishment and Karan.
T: Is there anything that you would want to say to this person who gave you the punishment?
C: I just wanted to ask why.
T: You can do that.
C: Yeah……
He (guide) says I am very sensitive and feel things too deeply and it’s not a bad thing. But I need to understand that too much of something can be harmful to my wellbeing. It seems like he is also crying. He is saying that I’m one of his favourites and he doesn’t like to see me suffer. It was a test for me to understand and become a starseed. He is saying you are meant to be starseed. But you were not ready back then. He is saying now he feels that I am ready. I feel like crying but tears are not coming out. There is a huge wave of awareness and realization that has come in.
T: Stay here. Maybe you could embody this awareness. Let it fully get into your body. Absorb it (K speaks a lot about body and energy during the pretalk and history-taking session, so I used a similar verbatim here)
T: How do you feel now after all this awareness? What happens to the grief? To the loneliness?
C: I still want to ask… will I be ever happy? But I’m asking both of them
And Karan’s higher self is telling me, that this time Karan is going to find me. He is holding that piece of mine very dearly, like I had been holding on to it. As if like we were always together but never together in real life. And that piece being with me and being with him, so that we never feel lonely. So that even when we do feel lonely as humans, we are protected in a higher manner. But I am saying that this is too much. It’s just getting too much.
T: What is it that you want? Is there anything that will make you feel better?
C: For now, some sort of assurance from Karan.
T: Look into Karan’s eyes.
C: He is apologizing as he didn’t remember me when I reached out to him. I am feeling a bit angry but I am willing to forgive him. And he is saying that I have been trying to reassure you in many ways that I am coming to you, you just have to wait a bit more.
T: How do you feel, when you hear this?
C: A sense of relief because I always wondered if it was my own imagination or delusion. But I also want to ask how long will this game go on.
T: Maybe you could ask Karan or the guide.
C: They are saying one to two years.
T: Who is saying this?
C: Both of them. They are saying that you are on the right path. Just a bit longer.
T: Look into the eyes of the higher guide. Do you know who this guide is?
C: It’s too bright. I am not able to see but it’s very divine. As if it’s like I have known him and I have turned to him a lot of times. And it doesn’t even feel like it’s one guide, but it’s a team.
T: Fully absorb this divine energy. Take your time.
C: It’s as if he is hugging both of us together. And suddenly that awareness is also there. As if everything was in preparation for me to know this.
C: What do I do with all this loneliness?
T: Maybe you can ask the guide
C: He is saying that the moment you work on this, the moment you start loving yourself unconditionally, things will change.
C: Right now, there is still a lot of hatred that I have for myself, maybe that anger or whatever has been happening. The power is also becoming too much. I can feel my skin burning but burning in a good way. I can feel a lot of energy. It feels like I have spoken or absorbed whatever I had to.
T: Is the guide still there?
C: hmm…
T: Is there anything you want to ask him?
C:I just want to receive blessings.
T: Absorb it.
C: I am even grieving right now. I am even asking for forgiveness.
T: How does this make you feel?
C: Much better. I am even asking why don’t I keep children. (Remember K lost children in two lives) He is saying that you are not ready.
I am even asking will he (Karan) ever remember me? I am just asking why is it that only I remember everything and Karan doesn’t get to remember anything. He just moves on. And I keep remembering and I keep suffering
T:: Do you get answers?
C: The guide is just smiling and I am questioning him. He says I remember so that I can learn and not repeat. He is also saying that this is the last time for me to be on this earth. And then I will come back to him (guide).
T: What is happening with the void and the piece?
C: It’s still in each other’s hands.
T: Is there anything you need or you want to do with this piece?
C: For some reason I want to keep holding on to it. And he also wants to hold on to it. But I am also apprehensive. Because I feel what if this longing keeps on increasing and increasing. And I become too obsessive and I am not able to focus on other things. Because ultimately, I am the one who remembers everything. But there is no answer. There is still no answer. I am just looking at him. I don’t feel like my chest feels empty anymore. But at the same time, I know that there is still that void.
T: What is it that you need to make you feel safe and to fill in this void?
C: I feel like I just need him (Karan).
T: What if you do something for yourself to fill this void?
C: That makes sense. I want to let go of his piece. I don’t even want to take back what he has. Because it feels like that will only help him to find me again.
But maybe I can do something for myself. Traveling…………… so that I can experience whatever, I have deprived myself. This feels right.
T: Do you want to move ahead?
C: The guide is telling you both can have your time.
C: He is ready to leave and I am not ready to leave him.
T: Who is leaving?
C: Guide. I keep asking him how did I built this longingness? But he is not giving me any answers. They both (Karan and guide) keep smiling at me. I ask them, help me know what is it. They both are just smiling. Maybe it has to do something with self-love.
T: And where is this coming from? From you?
C: yes. It feels very repulsive, but I know that’s the right answer
T: And in what ways can you do that?
C: Just following what I want to do.
T: Is there anything you want to know more?
C: There is something I want to ask about. Like my plans for the next year. What I am feeling, that pull, that call. Is that right? (K had a plan to do an intensive and expensive course for the upcoming year and was a bit confused. This regression was done in Nov2023 and as of today client is pursuing that course)
T: You can ask.
C: The guide says “Just trust yourself, trust yourself”. The guide has left now.
T: How do you feel at this moment?
C: More at peace. More calm. I just feel like hugging him.
T: Were you able to hug him?
C: hmmmm
T: Have these moments for yourself.
C: I think he can also leave. I want him to leave my space till the time he is ready to come back. He is occupying a very big space. I want him to leave.
T: You can say that.
C: I have told him.
T: And what does he say?
C: He is saying that he will leave now and come back.
T: Is there anything you want to know more?
C: No, I have already asked him.
T: Do you want to move ahead into any lifetime?
C: I am not sure.
T: You got your answers?
C: yeah. It is like everything makes sense. It feels like all of this remembrance (about Karan) can also end now.
I think I will come back. I don’t want to know more.
T: Take your time**.** Absorb all this, all the awareness, all the guidance, and all the answers.
Knowing that you will get what you want. Taking in the lesson, the importance of self-love and being there for yourself you can slowly come back with each number that I count.
I eventually emerged her.
Final Integration
There were several revelations during the PLR.
- K found the reason behind her fear of deep waters. She committed suicide by jumping in a lake in one of her births. Her unconscious mind remembers this memory and tries to protect her by lot letting her dip her head into the water.
- K struggles to trust people, when she trusts, people leave her and go for no reason. She carried a deep belief to not trust people from a lifetime, as a dear friend stabbed her for her position.
- K clearly understood why she is being attracted to men similar to Karan. K and Karan were partners in several births and their story was incomplete in all the births. This was a life lesson her soul had agreed for. It was also a lesson for her to learn, too much of anything is not good, even if it is kindness.
- Love yourself more. Self-love is the answer.
Updates after a year of PLR.
- K is pursuing an intense course. As part of the course, she has to travel to countries (traveling was the guidance she received during the PLR as well)
- K is super confident about her fees and she charges what she feels right
- K told me, I am over Karan, that chapter is closed. Since she is happy in her life and not bothered about Karan I did not dig it further.