A tryst with Shiva

Dear Ones,

This is the transcript of sessions conducted for my first paying client after the course. This clients experience had a profound impact on me, Please go through and let me know your valuable feedback

Client Details
Name: Pushpa
Age: 53
Gender: Female
Initial Scores:
• Hypnotizability Scale (HS): 8/10
• Eye Roll Test: 1/4
• V-A-K Dominance: Visual: 4, Auditory: 5, Kinesthetic: 6
Background:

Pushpa is married with a 25-year-old son. She is the younger of two sisters, raised in a loving joint family environment with her maternal grandmother and aunt. Despite the warmth around her, she struggled to express affection toward her parents. Pushpa harbored a lifelong suspicion of her father’s affair with her maternal aunt but never confronted anyone about it.

Academically accomplished, she met her husband in college and felt compelled to marry him despite lacking romantic love. Her husband has been physically abusive in the past, though the violence ceased six years ago after their son intervened. However, the son has exhibited abusive and irresponsible behavior. He has a Masters from a premier engineering institute, but cannot hold down a job even at the age of 25, leading to financial strain on Pushpa.

Her father passed away after suffering from paralysis for a few years before she got married. He mother too passed away couple of years back. She says she feels guilty and bad that she was never able to be a dutiful daughter.

Pushpa loves her inlaws and feels a special bond with all those family members. She says she is happiest with them , especially if her husband is not around. She is well loved and respected even by her colleagues and has a circle of friends, but she always feels a sense of incompleteness.

Pushpa describes herself as feeling incomplete and disconnected in her relationships. She has a deep devotion to Lord Shiva, Who she believes has provided her with spiritual protection.


Session Notes
Session 1: Introductory Session
Date: 06 Nov | Duration: 10:00 AM – 1:30 PM

Pushpa was introduced to Past Life Regression Therapy (PLRT). After the pre-talk, she decided to proceed. Due to time constraints, only steps 1–7 were completed.


Session 2: Regression Attempt
Date: 17 Nov | Duration: 10:30 AM – 1:30 PM

Progress:
Started with Stage 8
Dave Elman, Cosmic awareness, Ball of Light, Garden of Peace. Used Tunnel of light to access childhood memories

Childhood Memories: No significant memories surfaced. Client was seeing only blankness. Guided her to In Utero

In Utero:
T : What is coming into your awareness now?
C : I feel calm and light.
T : describe any sensation that you might be feeling
C: I feel like I’m floating
T : What is all around you? Can you sense the space and the colours?
C : Its Dark and its calm.
T : Can you understand if you’re in your mothers womb or elsewhere?
C : I don’t know. But its so calm… (voice trails off and face looks peaceful).

Current Life Events:

T : Lets travel to a significant memory with your son.
C : (face contorted). My son. He’s 15. Shouting at me because I questioned him about some messages he was sending.
Client was visibly upset. She recalled one more fight but was too upset to give details
T: Take some deep breaths. That incident is over, you’re merely remembering it now. Allow your eyebrows and forehead to relax and lets take some deep breaths.
Client relaxes
T : At the count of 3, go to a time that you have a pleasant memory with your son.
T : Can you recall any pleasant memories with your son?
C : We’re having icecream. He’s very small.
T : Can you tell me why is this a pleasant memory for you?
C : Because he was small… and obedient. He never fought with me.
T : Are any other memories coming to awareness?

I made an attempt to go into a past life with her son, but nothing was coming into awareness. I asked her if she would come back to the Paradise of Peace and she indicated yes.

Reframing Exercise:

Took her through reframing exercise on the cliff. She told me she was not able to imagine the boxes. I guided her to be assured that the boxes are present. She took her time and was able to complete the reframing exercise.

We came back to the Garden and I guided her out of hypnosis.

Observations:

Pushpa felt deep bliss during hypnosis, describing it as weightless floating. She said she really enjoyed the reframing exercise and was able to push the boxes into the sea below. However, her inability to access memories left her sad.

Insight:

• The client appeared to have repressed many memories, I suspect this is due to the domestic violence and she has developed this defence of not remembering. I suggested psychological counseling, which she declined due to negative past experiences.
• Agreed to try again after lunch.


Session 3: Breakthrough
Date: 17 Nov | Duration: 2:00 PM – 4:00 PM

Progressive relaxation as earlier session. Used the “staircase” technique instead of the tunnel. Client appeared deeply engaged, with emotions surfacing during visualization.
Client was very quiet and I could sense from her face that something was coming forward.
T : What do you sense?
C : A bull… running towards me
T :What are you feeling when you see the bull?
C : I like it. I want to see more of it … but its going away… I cant see it anymore. (on the verge of tears)
T : Its ok… lets give it some more time.
Deep breathing, relaxing. Told her not to force anything… it will come on its own. After a few mins…

C : I see a mountain…
T : What kind of mountain? Can you describe it?
C : Covered in snow. Its so beautiful and big. (after a long pause) I want to be here for long.
T : We can be here as long as you want. Is anything else coming into awareness?
C :There’s a pair of eyes watching
T : How does it make you feel?
C : Happy and peaceful. I want to see more…
T : You may ask any question to those eyes. (gave a break)
C : (after a long pause) I’m not getting any response.
After a couple of more minutes, I see her face tense up, she’s crying. She says they’re all fading away, but she doesn’t want them to leave. She wants to see more and be in their presence longer.
Tried to get her to de stress, but she was getting desperate and suddenly her eyes shot open. She was crying and eyes were bloodshot.
I helped calm her and asked her to close her eyes and that I’ll help her slowly come out.

Helped her slowly come back to full awareness by following the steps.

Once awake she told me she felt she was in a place that she truly belonged. She wanted to stay longer and see more but it was incomplete. She was desperate to see more details and that desperation made her open her eyes. I told her that more details and meaning might come to her over the next few days – in her dreams or as an epiphany. Suggested some simple meditation she can try. However, she insists on another session and will be back later this week.

Takeaways:

  1. She says she understands why she always felt out of place and disconnected to everyone – she says that the place she saw in her session was her true home. She wanted to know why she’s on earth and not there. I told her our beliefs tell us we take birth on earth for our soul to learn something. She seemed to find truth in this.
  2. She was purely kinesthetic and has always had difficulty “seeing” in her mind, but now she says she can see – colours, size etc.
  3. She had a severe headache at the start and her headache was completely gone at the end of the session.
  4. She has chronic sleeplessness – cant fall asleep before 2-3am and then gets only 2-3 hrs of sleep. After the session she had a long restful sleep
  5. She feels she is a changed person – the person to entered my studio is different from the person who left.
  6. Client wanted another session to go back and see more visuals and if possible see a past life

Session 4: Spiritual Experience
Date: 22 Nov | Duration: 10:30 AM – 1:00 PM
Dave Elman, ball of light , garden of joy and then moved onto temple visualization

Followed the script for temple visualization and could see that she was in deep trance and was having an experience. However, she could barely talk except for IMR . She kept saying she doesn’t want to leave that space and she wants to continue being there. I gave her few mins at a time to fully experience and then tried asking for details but she would answer only in monosyllables or IMR. She gestured with her hands in between – to indicate large size of Him, sometimes both hands on heart/chest, sometimes tearing up/trembling lips but not fully crying – this happened around 3-4 times
This went on for more than an hour with me trying to get details or asking if she would like to come back to the temple every 10 mins or so. After more than hour she finally said she was ready to leave. I brought her back to Garden of Peace and once she opened her eyes, she narrated the following:

C: In the temple, I opened a door and went into a vast infinite peaceful space with a light. I felt I am in His presence and didn’t want to come away. Dark blue , with stars – felt like a cosmic experience. I could sense Shivas presence once again but this time He was huge and formless. I felt enveloped in His love and benevolence and felt I belonged there. Whenever you prompted me to ask Him anything that was on my mind, I tried asking about my son’s future but couldn’t get any response.

Outcome:

• Pushpa felt enveloped in love and belonging during the session, describing the experience as cosmic and transformative.
• She later identified the bull and mountain imagery from Session 3 as representations of Lord Shiva and Mt. Kailasa.


Key Takeaways

1. Emotional Breakthrough: Pushpa feels more grounded and calm in her relationships, particularly with her son and husband.
2. Enhanced Visualization: Initially unable to visualize, she now perceives vivid images and colors.
3. Physical & Emotional Healing: Chronic headaches disappeared, and she experienced restful sleep after years of insomnia.
4. Spiritual Awakening: Pushpa feels a profound connection to her spiritual beliefs, deepening her meditation practice.
5. Future Plans: Pushpa is eager to explore a past life connected to her son but was advised to wait a couple of months to integrate her current experiences fully.


Therapists Note

Pushpa’s sessions have brought significant emotional healing and spiritual clarity. Although no past lives surfaced, her journey aligns with what her soul needs at this time. Future sessions should focus on her readiness to access past life memories while maintaining the therapeutic benefits she has already gained.
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The spiritual breakthrough was surely a consequence of the beautiful guidance, your patience and the trusting environment you created for her. The need for the right amount of stress management, compassion without pity, understanding her DV situation and tackling her with balanced sensitivity is what I see here. A beautiful lesson to learn as a peer. Thank you Smitha…warm wishes…

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Hi @Smitha_Nair ,
Please find below feedback:

Good starting for Kinesthetic client… the more they feel the more they will comfortable with the process. You have handeld this K person very well…
Which helped her in spiritual experience…

Sometimes our mind is not ready to explore the past no matter how much therapist try. But give her time she will get the breakthrough in past life access as well once the resistance from mind gets lessened.

All the best for future sessions…

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Thank you jharna for your kind words. Coming from someone as skilled as yourself I consider this high praise :smiling_face::pray:t3:

Congratulations Smitha, A beautiful lesson to learn as a peer.

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You have written this so well Smitha… your dedication and commitment to help heal others comes through so well… Best wishes to you.

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