Name: Mr. Swami
Gender: Male
Age: 27
Profession: Corporate employee
H: 9/10
Eye roll: 2/4
VAK: [5, 4, 6]
Pain level before the session: 8/10
Pain level after the session: 7/10
Mr. Swami first contacted me in August and eventually fixed a session date in November. During our initial call, I introduced myself and explained the therapy process, addressing all his questions and concerns.
Session 1: History-Taking
September 18, 2026 | 11:30 a.m. to 2:00 p.m.
Mr. Swami travelled from the other side of the city and arrived at approximately 11:00 a.m. We had breakfast before beginning the session.
Mr. Swami is an empathetic young man who prefers not to hurt anyone. He has often done what was expected of him by his parents. He has an extroverted elder sister and enjoys working out. Although he spends most of his time indoors and considers himself introverted, he likes people. However, he is more comfortable speaking openly with strangers than spending time with relatives or coworkers.
He explained that communicating with strangers feels easier because he can interact with them without a “mask.” With people close to him, he constantly fears losing that mask or revealing parts of himself that he feels may not be accepted.
His primary reason for requesting the session was to find a sense of belonging and to feel understood for who he truly is, rather than continuing to wear a mask to please everyone. During the discussion, he shared that he is attracted to certain individuals of the same gender but not to individuals of the opposite gender. In a world where people are often placed into fixed categories, he found it difficult to fit into any particular box.
As he is now of marriageable age, his parents have been pressuring him to get married. He does not want to marry a woman because he feels that doing so would be unfair to her and could prevent her from fulfilling her own dreams. At the same time, revealing his feelings to his parents could hurt them and expose him to judgment from society.
At the age of 17, he once disclosed his feelings to his parents in a handwritten letter. He then went to a temple and told them that he would return only if they read the letter and accepted him after knowing the truth. It was a painful day for both him and his family. His parents were unable to understand what he was experiencing and believed it was only a phase of adolescence. After that incident, he decided not to put them through similar pain again. He began suppressing his feelings and living primarily for others.
He explained that although he can form emotional connections with women, he does not experience physical or romantic attraction toward them.
One of the reasons he wanted to undergo a past-life regression session was to understand why he feels different from those around him and why he has had to suppress his natural self while living behind a mask. He had also experienced the loss of someone very close to him earlier in the year.
An Angel called Vicky
In January 2026, Mr. Swami lost someone with whom he had fallen deeply in love. Vicky was his colleague—extroverted, kind, and someone who could brighten any room. Everyone appreciated Vicky’s presence because he could lighten the mood in almost any situation.
Initially, Vicky was simply another colleague. However, during a team lunch, Vicky playfully took some food from Mr. Swami’s plate. Mr. Swami experienced an immediate and profound emotional shift and felt a deep connection with him. He never expressed these feelings to Vicky.
Vicky was heterosexual and began dating a woman who was part of their nine-member work group. When Vicky started dating her, Mr. Swami felt sad and began avoiding group outings. When they later broke up, he felt a renewed sense of hope and became happier.
On another occasion, the team travelled to Sikkim. Due to severe weather and flooding, they were isolated for a week with limited food and little connection to the rest of the country. Despite the difficult circumstances, this became one of the happiest periods for Mr. Swami because he was able to spend time with Vicky.
Mr. Swami had ordered a new iPhone and wanted to call Vicky with it for the first time. However, Vicky was travelling by car to a hill station with his girlfriend when they met with an accident. Vicky suffered multiple fractures, while his girlfriend sustained only minor injuries. It was extremely difficult for Mr. Swami to see him in the hospital.
Vicky passed away in January, leaving Mr. Swami emotionally devastated. Since meeting Vicky, Mr. Swami’s primary prayer had been for him to remain happy and safe.
Following Vicky’s death, Mr. Swami felt angry with God. Lord Ayyappa and Lord Ganesha are his favourite deities. He remained in this state for several months before taking steps to move forward. He eventually deleted Vicky’s photographs from his phone and decided to begin the process of moving on.
Before coming to me, he had consulted an Akashic reader, who told him that Vicky might have passed away earlier if not for Mr. Swami’s continuous prayers for his well-being and that he had remained alive because of this “borrowed time.” This belief had a significant emotional impact on him.
Spiritual Experiences and Connection with Lord Ayyappa
Mr. Swami feels deeply connected to Lord Ayyappa. Lord Ayyappa is traditionally described as the divine child of Lord Shiva and Lord Vishnu, also known as Harihara Suta.
He shared that, on the night of his birth, his mother went into labour and there was no available auto-rickshaw to take her to the hospital. An unknown auto-rickshaw driver wearing a black mala associated with Ayyappa devotees appeared outside their home. Without being told the seriousness of the situation, he asked the family to get into the vehicle and drove them to a nearby hospital.
He also recalled another incident from his childhood. When he was unwell, his parents visited several temples, churches, and dargahs seeking help. At one dargah, a holy man reportedly advised them to protect the child at all costs after looking at him.
Mr. Swami cried extensively during the history-taking process. We then took a break so that he could freshen up. We had lunch and went for a long walk in nature near my studio, which helped reduce his cognitive fatigue.
Session 2: Happy Memories
2:00 p.m. to 3:30 p.m.
The Dave Elman technique, progressive relaxation, the ball-of-light technique, and the Garden of Peace were used to guide the client into a deeply relaxed state. He was asked to remain in the Garden of Peace and become familiar with the environment using all five senses.
He was then guided to recall his first happy memory.
First Happy Memory
Client: “I am in a clinic with my mother. She is undergoing nebulisation. My mother is wearing a light-blue saree. I am fascinated by all the machines. I am five years old.”
Second Happy Memory
Client: “My sister and I are at a candy shop. I am six years old.”
Third Happy Memory
Client: “I am writing alphabets on the back of a door with my mother.”
Fourth Happy Memory and glimpse of a past life
Client: “I am one and a half years old. My mother is hugging and kissing me. I am very happy.”
I then asked him to go further back in time using a gradual deepening process.
Client: “I see dusk—an image of a sunset.”
When asked to explore what he was wearing and whether he could see his legs, he replied:
Client: “I am unable to see or feel my feet.”
He was encouraged to explore whatever else came into his awareness.
Client: “I see a monastery in the distance, and children are running downhill toward it. I am standing still and observing happily. My only experience is that of being an observer.”
Despite continued guidance, he was unable to move further into the scene or through time. He eventually drifted into sleep and responded only intermittently when asked whether he could hear my voice.
He was then guided back to the Garden of Peace and asked whether he could sense the presence of a being. He described feeling a comforting hand holding him, although he could not see anyone. The sensation felt safe and reassuring.
Further exploration did not provide additional clarity. Before deciding on a specific theme, we chose to focus on emotional closure and reducing the pain associated with his present life through the hill-cliff method.
Healing Present-Life Trauma Using the Hill-Cliff Method
4:30 p.m. to 6:00 p.m.
The Dave Elman technique, progressive relaxation, the ball-of-light technique, and the Garden of Peace were again used to guide the client into deep relaxation.
He was guided to an imagined hill cliff, where he was asked to place each painful and distressing memory into a large box. He requested additional time to process the memories because he felt they were emotionally heavy. The process took more than an hour and a half.
He frequently drifted into sleep, so his breathing was gently coached to help him remain present. After the session, he took a walk to process the emotions and experiences that had emerged.
Further Exploration
6:30 p.m. to 9:00 p.m.
Progressive relaxation, the ball-of-light technique, and the Garden of Peace were used again.
Client: “I am standing on grass. I see blue crystals moving and rotating, going up and down. I see a fountain amphitheater.”
After a period of silence, he continued:
Client: “I see a dense forest. I am unable to move forward.”
I asked him to explore how he felt in the scene so that we could understand the experience through his emotions.
Client: “I feel confused. I have nowhere to go. I feel directionless and stuck. I cannot move beyond a certain point. I have made peace.”
He was unable to move beyond this point. As he was drifting into sleep, we decided to stop the exploration. We had dinner and rested.
Further Exploration
9:00 a.m. to 10:00 a.m.
The client was guided to a temple to receive blessings from Lord Ayyappa.
Client: “I am wearing a white saree. It is an old-style saree without a blouse.”
He continued:
Client: “I am waiting outside a hut. I feel helpless. Vicky is my husband in this life. He has gone out, and I am waiting for him.”
When asked to move back to an earlier meal, he said:
Client: “I have made roti. Vicky is eating, but he does not seem interested. I am around 26, and he is 28.”
Further exploration was difficult, and he frequently reported seeing nothing. Deepening techniques were used to help him remain relaxed.
He then reported seeing a grey figure that seemed to prevent him from seeing further. This made him feel anxious. I asked him to focus on the anxiety, observe its shape, and identify where it was located.
Client: “The anxiety is black and scattered in shape.”
He remained relaxed while focusing on the anxiety. Gradually, it reduced in intensity, became smaller, changed into a point, and eventually disappeared.
He was then guided back to the Garden of Peace for healing.
During another attempt, he described a different experience:
Client: “I am a child. I have been instructed to switch off all the laptops. The screens have gone blank.”
At this point, the client was awakened and given a break. We then discussed his experiences, as he had been taking longer to respond and was repeatedly drifting into sleep.
Mr. Swami explained that he felt his subconscious was compassionately asking him not to continue because he was not yet ready to see what lay beyond. The message he received was:
> “You don’t have to go looking for it.”
He also described feeling a light tapping on his left shoulder during his first experience of viewing the monastery. He said it felt as though someone had playfully tapped him with a friendship band.
Instead of continuing the exploration, I guided him back to the temple and helped him relax further. He spent an extended period in what he described as white light. He felt an infinity symbol moving across his chest.
He also experienced physical jerks in his feet and fingers on several occasions, along with a sense of physical release. He described vibrations throughout his body, which gradually settled into a deep state of peace.
His overall state appeared lighter and calmer than at the beginning of the process. I allowed him to remain in this peaceful state for an extended period, using breath coaching to deepen the experience while helping him remain awake. After some time, he was gradually guided back to full wakefulness.
Final Discussion
We discussed the experiences from the two-day process. Mr. Swami reported a shift in his thinking and expressed a clear desire to find a partner with whom he could feel emotionally complete.
We discussed the steps he was currently taking to find a partner. As an introverted person, actively searching for a partner did not feel natural to him. Since he enjoys supporting and helping others, I suggested that he spend time in empathetic and open-minded communities, such as:
- Weekend book clubs
- Non-governmental organizations working with young people
- Supportive social groups
- Weekend activities involving open-minded communities
I also taught him a few asanas and pranayama practices to help reduce anxiety and build greater confidence as he continues his personal journey.
He was in touch with me every day since the session, has recently(November 10th 2026) had openly discussed with his parents and Sister about who he is and what he wants, Even though they were bit sad, they accepted him and said they would love him no matter what.