An Old House, an Island, and a Father's Fear

My First PLRT Session

This was my first PLRT session. I tried to follow the 15-step protocol as closely as I could. I think it went through properly. Whether I handled every part of it well, I am less sure, and that is really why I am submitting this.

The whole session was in Hindi. Both of us are comfortable in it. What follows is my translation. There is a note about that at the end, because one thing happened with the language that I still cannot explain.

1. Client Profile & Case Details

Name — Barun (changed)

Gender / Age — Male, 45

Occupation — Media professional

HR (Hypnotic Responsiveness) — 8/10

V/A/K — Visual 8 | Auditory 5 | Kinesthetic 2 (predominantly Visual)

Eye Roll Test — 2+1 (medium depth)

Initial distress level — 8/10

Presenting theme — Acute fear and deep-seated anxiety

Presenting issue

He worries about his thirteen-year-old son, who is mentally challenged. Three questions keep coming back to him. Why did this happen to me. Who will look after him once I am gone. Will he ever manage on his own.

History (some details have been changed to protect privacy)

Barun was born in Sehore, Madhya Pradesh, on the bank of the Narmada, and grew up in a joint family. He works in media. He married a classmate from college. Their first child was a son. A daughter came much later, she is a year old now, but the son is their only son.

The signs came early. In the first months the child was afraid of things in a way that did not seem ordinary — a soft toy could frighten him. Then the developmental delays began to show. Slow to learn. Not able to do physically what other children his age could do, though his body was healthy and still is. He is thirteen now. He does not speak clearly. He is hyperactive and cannot hold his attention on anything. He understands what is said to him, that has never been in doubt, and I want to record that clearly because Barun repeated it twice. But he cannot manage himself. Dressing, eating, getting from one hour to the next, all of it needs somebody standing close by. Thirteen years of that.

They have taken him everywhere. Doctors, therapies, one system of medicine after another. Something helps a little. Nothing has resolved it.

So the question he came in with was not really about the boy’s condition. He has stopped expecting an answer there. What he cannot put down is the other thing — how his son survives on the day he is no longer around to stand next to him.

2. Session Structure and Protocol

Stages 1 to 6, standard procedure. Introduction, case history, rapport, and a first reframing of the guilt and the fear.

Induction and deepening — Dave Elman, then Progressive Muscle Relaxation, then a Subconscious Affect Bridge to take the present fear back to wherever it came from.

He is predominantly Visual and he went down without much trouble.

3. Past Life and Subconscious Regression Sequence

Scene 1 — an old house and a guard

He saw a house first. Old, with a triangular wooden elevation, no name on it, painted a pale green that had clearly not been repainted in years. A road in front. Across the road a guard sitting in a yellow uniform, and Barun said the man looked like the security guard of his own housing society.

“I am watching from a distance. I try to see myself, but I cannot. I want to go inside the house and see the interior, but I am not able to see it.”

He stayed at that distance. I tried the question a few different ways. He could not enter the house and he could not find his own body, so I moved him on to another significant event.

A note before the next part. Everything that follows is from a second lifetime. The moment he reached it, he began speaking in English. On his own. I had not asked him to and I had not spoken a word of English. He said he was on what seemed to be a European island.

Scene 2 — the drowning

His son from this life is drowning in a lake. The water has come up to his nose. The boy is not saying anything.

“I am standing frozen. I cannot bring myself to say anything.”

The scene faded before I could do anything with it.

Scene 3 — the blue lake and the antique car

He is by a lake with his son. Clear blue water, green grass. An island in the middle of the lake that he said looked like a golf course. Behind him on the left, an old red antique car, and near it a wooden cabin. He gave me these details unprompted and in that order.

T — What is happening around you?

C — My son is sitting right beside me. Without speaking, a silent conversation passes between us. He is insisting that he wants to go to that island.

T — What do you do?

C — I refuse. Without a word being spoken and without any change of expression, he accepts it.

T — Is anyone else present there?

C — I am there like the master of the place. There is no servant, no third person. I remember my wife, but there is no presence or memory of her here.

Two things here that I noticed only later, going over my notes. The son is present again, and again nothing between them needs words. And the refusal is accepted without any protest at all.

Scene 4 — the death, and leaving the body

He is on a bed, an old man with a beard. His son is standing at the foot of the bed, quiet. There is a religious figure, Parsi or Jewish in appearance, with spectacles, reading aloud from a book and giving him water.

T — What are you feeling in this moment?

C — I know that I am dying. But there is no distress on my face, and none on my son’s either.

T — When the body becomes still, what happens then?

C — Within moments my consciousness moves out of the body. I am sitting on a cross-beam near the ceiling, looking down at my dead body and the coffin. Outside, beyond a glass wall, two men in black coats and dark glasses stand like security personnel. Everyone else is in white.

C — I am looking down at my own lifeless body from above. My son is standing right there. He is sad, but he is holding himself together. I feel myself somewhere in the sky, where many people in white are standing in a circle around me.

He watched his own death without any disturbance. His face was completely calm the whole time. I kept expecting something and nothing came.

Scene 5 — the circle

A ring-shaped sky, sharp barren mountains all around.

T — In this higher dimension, who is around you?

C — I am at the center. All around me are columns of white light. They feel like my ancestors, or great souls. The land below appears to be Israel or Iraq.

T — What message or direction are they giving you?

C — They are pointing towards the east, towards India. They are signaling me to go there.

He was emerged as per the guidelines. I asked him to carry back the calmness he had felt at the moment of death, and the direction the ancestors had given him.

4. Therapeutic Intervention & Emotional Release

Karma and the soul connection. He came to see that the son had been with him in an earlier life too, and that nothing between them had needed words then either. At the moment of death in that life, the son was calm. That calmness is what I worked with. It was the only material I had that was strong enough.

Reframing the fear. The ancestors pointing east let him read this life the other way round. Becoming this child’s father was something he had agreed to. Not a punishment, not bad luck. He sat with that a long time before he said anything.

Release. His fear about the future was released symbolically. His shoulders let go the moment he felt the ancestors around him. I saw it before he said anything.

There is one more thing and I am not fully sure of it, so I am putting it here rather than in my conclusions. For years he has been asking who will look after my son when I am gone. In that death scene, he watched himself go, and the boy stood at the foot of the bed and held himself together. He never made that connection out loud and I did not point it out to him. I may be joining two things that are not joined.

5. Closure & Post-Session Outcomes

When he came out he said he felt very still. The fear about what happens to his son after him had loosened. He said it now felt as though this bond was being looked after by something larger than himself.

Distress level from 8/10 down to 2/10.

[Follow-up after two weeks — to be added.]

6. Therapist’s Reflection

I think this case shows how a parent’s fear about a child can be tied to something older than this life. But honestly, what did the work here was not the past life. It was the calmness. He watched his own death without panic and he found his son at ease in the same scene. That did more for him than anything I said, and I said quite a lot.

I am aware I may be reading more into parts of this than is warranted. I have set it down as it came.

7. Questions I Am Left With

1. In the first lifetime there was a house and a guard, and he could not enter the house or find his own body. What do I make of images that refuse to open? Should I have stayed there longer instead of moving him on?

2. He moved from Hindi to English on his own. Was that the language of that life surfacing, or something else entirely?

3. This is the one I keep returning to. Afterwards he told me that my questioning itself was troubling him during the experience. It was disturbing it. He did not want to answer me. He wanted to be present with what was unfolding without having to put it into words. Which leaves me with three things I want to understand.

— What is that state? Was he going deeper, or was he resisting?

— How do I recognize it while it is happening, so I know when to speak and when to keep quiet?

— By continuing to ask, did I close a door on something larger that was coming through?

A note on language

The session was in Hindi from induction to closure. What is here is my translation, done for this submission. Where his words were plain I have kept them plain rather than tidying them into better English.

This is also why Scene 2 has stayed with me. In a session held entirely in Hindi, he switched into English by himself, without being asked.

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Congratulations, Satishji, for completing your first session successfully. The way you have presented this case will help many of us from the Satva batch.

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Congratulations @satishsinghthakur on your first case submission :clap: Eagerly waiting to read the appreciations and suggestions from our master and other experienced forum members :folded_hands:

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This is the essence of the whole case for me. He got the much needed answer about his worry for his son.

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Congratulations @satishsinghthakur Satish, for completing your first case following all the 15 stages. You kept the writing precise and crisp and it was very engaging.

Your client might have too much resistance to go deep in to the scenes and sometimes we need to stay in the moment lil longer to dig deeper. Your client also felt annoyed/irritated with your questions. I guess that can be discussed beforehand using IMR to pause or continue, that’s my personal approach. Again, whatever is revealed is by the grace of the Masters only and he saw what he was ready for and nothing else. You did amazing as your first case and this just the beginning. Skills and confidence will be refined by each case. You are doing great, keep shining :folded_hands:t2:

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Congratulations on your first case Satish Ji! And so well presented. Bravo!:clap:

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Every experience is a eco of existence…We all blessed…consciousness opening sacred door for us.

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Thanks Archanaa ji.. I Believe this is not a my individual journey.. We all are to gather.

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Thank you Harmeet ji.. Your guidance and support is valuable for me. Please keep guiding me.

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