Karuna (name changed) F, 55+years old, VAK - 5/6/3, Hypnotizability score -9/10, eye roll - 2/4
Theme : Fear of fast moving things - vehicle, escalator
Pain level before - 8
History: Karuna is a retired teacher in her late 50s. She came for PLRT to explore unexplained fear of vehicles, moving escalators. She feels because of this fear, she is dependent on others to take her around and that does not make her feel good.
Childhood - She was born in Kerala to a Hindu family. She was the youngest daughter in a family of four. Her family moved cities extensively since father was in airforce. Moving frequently was a little distressing since making friends was difficult for the young Karuna. She describes her childhood as normal and although her father was strict, she was more close to him.
Age 5-6 - Karuna remembers crying to go to school. Remembers saying bye to father as he left for work until he was out of sight.
Age 7-8 - She was punished since some people blamed her for something a teacher lost. Even though she was not at fault, she was beaten and punished severely. She could not share that with parents fearing she will be blamed further.
For 11th and 12th - They were in Delhi and they were targeted as “Madrasis”. Class boys would steal her lunch.
College - Close group of friends that she is still in touch with. One of her friends had a boyfriend and Karuna had met him once, he passed away in an accident when they were in college and her friend was traumatized. Her friend’s trauma affected Karuna.
She secured first rank in the first batch of her Masters in Mass Communications. There was a lecturer was very mean to her.
She started as lecturer in Chennai as her first job. Parents were not happy, she returned to hometown, and joined B.Ed. Got married at 24 and went to Ahmedabad with husband.
Marriage was okay,initially not happy since there was more than 9 years of age gap, but father decided and she was married.
She was heavily pregnant during hindu-muslim riots in Ayodhya, she had to return to hometown from Gujarat. The train journey was very scary and stressful. Her father was stressed since there was no way of communicating back then.
Son was born in 1992. And when he turned a year old, she joined UNHCR in Delhi as a part time teacher. That job was very fulfilling. Teaching refugees helped her gain a new perspective on her life. She was grateful for her life.
She joined a school in Bangalore after Husband was transferred to Bangalore. She has worked in both private and central government schools. She was well loved by children and gained a lot of respect.
Delivered younger child in a car one month before the due date whn they were on the way to the hospital. She even met with an accident before the delivery of her second child, but thankfully nothing happened to her or daughter. Younger daughter was born in late 1990s. Husband had to travel for work and taking care of two young children all by herself was very difficult.
Underwent hysterectomy at the age of 40. Undergone 3 surgeries related to the stomach. Health issues attributed to work related stress showing up as stomach problems. Not being able to drink water on time or eat food on time during work. Covid added extra stress with online offline classes since she was not tech savvy. Children helped her.
Son going away from home for studies after 12th was very stressful since he was very supportive of her. Started being dependent on others and they took advantage of her by borrowing money and not returning. One student would stay at home and not even go back to his house. She wishes to erase those things away. It makes her hate herself and regret the things she did out of empathy. She being emotionally dependent on others, was disliked by her family. Her empathy and caring for her students beyond the school ended up becoming troublesome for her and her family.
Another student she cared for since he had no father ended up becoming an alcoholic and drug addict. It was very distressing to watch. He even started using profanity against her and she had to cut her ties off from him. Another of Karuna’s student committed suicide for something that happened in her home. Karuna felt bad for this student and her family.
When she was transferred from Bangalore, she got a stay order and eventually took a VRS (Voluntary Retirement). She had started losing voice by the end of her teaching career due to stress and she decided it was best to take retirement.
After VRS her sleep has improved, she also regularly prays. She feels connected to Bhagawati and Krishna.
Stages 1 to 9 were followed.
Session 1: Happy Memory 22/11/2024 about 1 hour
Dave Elman, Ball of light, Garden of Peace and Happy Memory
Client was able to see a happy memory from childhood but that also made her miss her parents
Session 2: Reframing current life trauma 23/11/2024 2+ hours
Progressive relaxation, ball of light, and followed the script
Client was able to kick boxes off the cliff into the ocean
Session 3: Temple visualization 24/11/2024 2.5 hours
Progressive relaxation, ball of light, garden of peace, script for temple visualization
Classic flow
T: This is what therapist said
C: This is what the client said
Pastlife #1
T: Taking a deep breath in allow yourself to open the door that calls to you, this door opens easily for you.
C: I can open the door, it is ornate like the temple doors.
T: Very good, as you step to the other side of the door, notice how the air changes, you are no longer in the present, you are in a past life that you are ready to explore today. Do you see anything?
C: Yes, I see myself.
T: What does your body feel like? Man or woman? Young or old?
C: A young girl, a young adult
T: Very nice, can you see the feet and look up?
C: I am wearing a half saree, long hair, flowers in the hair.
T: Very nice… Are you inside or outside?
C: I am outside… Walking on a path that has been made by walking on it… Tall trees around… Like cashew tress… The paths here are like the ones in Kerala villages…
T: Do you know where that path leads you to? Is there anyone with you?
C: I am all alone but I am comfortable, not scared. It is strange, one would be scared when they are alone in a forest like place but I am not scared.
T: Okay that is good… let us see where that path takes you?
C: I am holding books and going home
T: Do you know what books you are holding? What does home look like?
C: Cannot see the print on the book, not sure what language. The home has arches in the front, quite big, comfortable house. Looks ancient… Has two storeys… Like a courtyard and has something like a balcony too…
T: Do you know the timeline? Does any place come up as a name?
C: Before I was born in this life… May be 1900s or before. Has a very Tamil feel to the place… Only bicycles… There are cows… No other vehicles…
T: Allow yourself to go to the house… See who else is there in the house?
C: I cannot see but feel there are two more people in the house now… One like a mother figure and another young girl… 6-7 years old…
T: Go to the mother figure… See if her face is visible… What is she doing?
C: She is cooking… She is very busy and involved in her work… I can see her face…
T: Look into her eyes… Does that look familiar? Could that be anyone from this life?
C: I want her to be my current life mother but no… I do not know her from this life…
T: What does it feel like standing next to her? Does any emotion come up?
C: Nothing really… It is not scary, not bad… Everything seems normal…
T: Okay… Can you go to the younger girl in the house? What do you feel?
C: I like her… She is my younger sister.
T: Can you see her face? Does that look familiar?
C: I cannot see her face… She is jumping around and playing.
T: Okay… is there anyone else in the house? Maybe a father figure?
C: I have a father… He is not dead but he is away… Gone somewhere…
T: Okay… let us go to the next significant event in that lifetime…
C: I see books in my hand… There is a college like place… There are other students… It is not crowded… I do not talk to anyone… I am by myself…
T: IS there any board on the college? Any year or name of the place?
C: It is faded… I cannot see…
T: Can you see what you are studying?
C: I don’t know…
T: Okay… what happens in college?
C: I am going to the library
T: Okay… as you go into the library what are you seeing? What books are you looking at?
C: The library is like an old place but has a lot of books… I am reading the book that i got in my hand… I am not taking any book from the shelf
T: Okay… can you see what subject it is?
C: No… cannot see it.
T: Okay… let us go to the next significant event in that lifetime
C: I am back home… My father has come from work. He looks stressed… He is wearing a dhoti with old fashioned shirt… He does not talk much with anyone… My mother is serving food. They are cordial but do not express much love with each other.
T: Do you know what he is stressed about?
C: Something to do with the land and property
T: Does that impact you? How do you feel about it?
C: Nothing… They do not share much with children… I am not impacted.
T: Okay… breathing 3…2…1… Go to the next significant event in your life
C: I am in a busier place… Like a town… I have books in my hand
T: What are you doing there?
C: I am not sure… Am I studying? OR teaching. Does not feel like either…
T: Okay… taking deep breaths in and out… Allow yourself to see what it is that you are doing there
C: I work there… Something like a teacher…
T: Good… where are you going?
C: To my room… It is like a hostel…
T: As you go to your room/hostel, do you meet anyone or see anyone?
C: No… I am all alone in the room… It is small…
T: Okay… go to the next significant event that you want to explore today…
C: I am visiting home… My parents are happy… They are receiving me… My mother is giving me food… I am eating… They are happy to see me. They are asking me how I am doing?
T: Very nice… What happens next?
C:I cannot see anything…
T: Okay… take a deep breath in and breathe out… Even, comfortable long breaths… 3…2…1… Go to the next significant event in that lifetime…
C: I have a son… 4-5 year old… I am married… I have a car! That turtle like car… My husband is driving… The house is big and nice… We live a comfortable life… We are in the city… We are going somewhere…
T: Where are you going?
C: We go to the beach to watch sunset… We come here often…
T: What does that feel like?
C: It feels good… Normal life… All good…
T: Go to the next significant event in your lifetime…
C: My son is married… There is an young baby… I cannot see them but hear sounds of daughter in law… Baby… they live with us…
T: How are things with the son and daughter in law? How do you feel about your daughter in law?
C: all good… Everything feels normal…
T: Very good… What happens next?
C: I see myself as someone not feeling well… I am sitting on the bed and laying down… Age related health issues…
T: Where are you? Who is with you?
C: I am at home… With family…everyone is there…
T: Okay… let us go to the end of life of this life…
C: I see my body lying on the bed… My husband, son, daughter in law and grandchild are all there by my side…
T: Do you know how you left that body?
C: old age related issues… Normal circumstances… But I was not too old… In my 60s…
T: Float above towards light… What do you see?
C: I see light…
LBL:
T: Do you see anything with light?
C: No… there is like a door
T: Enter the door… What do you see?
C: White light… I am with the light now…
T: Take your time. Do you see anyone?/ Any wise being?
C: No… just light
T: Is there any message for you… As you passed this life, is there any lesson you need to carry forward?
C: Be thankful… It was a normal life with everything taken care of… It was a comfortable life… Be thankful for what you have… Many wish for such things…
Emerging
T: Beautiful message… Come back to the door you stepped in from… In your mind say express gratitude to the people, place and experiences in this life…
C: IMR yes
T: Step back to the corridor you entered the door from…
C: IMR yes
T: Look around at all the other doors… Is there any other door that is calling to you?
C: IMR no
T: Okay… go back to the temple you entered from. .find a quiet place to allow for this energy to settle… See how this energy resonates with your current life…let me know when ready
C: IMR yes
Emerged.
Session 4: 11/25/2024, 1.5 hours
Progressive relaxation, ball of light, garden of peace, affect bridge
T: Taking deep breaths in and out, go to the other side of the bridge as I count 3…2…1…
Are you on the other side of the bridge?
C: IMR yes
T: Do you see anything?
C: I see a tunnel… A railway tunnel kind of a thing… In a dense forest…
T: Can you look down to see your feet?
C: Yes…
T: What do you see? What does your body feel like?
C: It feels like a boy in tattered unkempt clothes… Young boy…He is scared…
T: How old is the boy?
C: Maybe 12-13… 12 I think
T: Why is he scared?
C: He is in the tunnel… Hiding from others… He does not want to be caught…
T: Why is that?
C: That is what he does… Maybe steals and runs… Does not want to be caught…
T: Ok… as I count from 3…2…1 let us go to the other side of the tunnel
C: There is nothing… Like a rocky place and a beach…
T: Okay… as I count from 3…2…1 allow yourself to see the childhood of this boy from birth… To learn why he is here
C: I see a young baby with his mother… Very bad looking place… Like a shed or something… Very bad clothes… Torn… not doing well…
T: Okay… let us go to the next significant event in that lifetime…
C: Mother left the baby and gone… Not to be seen… Boy is all alone, begging, fending for himself…
T: The life must have been hard for the boy to be alone at a young age… Breathing in and out, remember you are visiting this as a memory… You are still safe…
T: Allow yourself to see what happens to the boy… Going to the next significant event…
C: He is still in bad clothes… May be 16…17… He is riding a rickshaw, he is going through bad places… Stinking sewage kind of place in a town… Not in the village anymore… He lives alone… No place to sleep in…
T: Does any name come up? The town or the timeline?
C: It feels like somewhere in the middle part of India… Ancient times…
T: Breathing in and out deeply, go to the next significant event… How are things now?
C: Things are better… He is in his 20s…Like an office boy… Better clothes… In an office kind of setting…
T: Very good… Does he have anyone else with him? A family or something?
C: no… still alone…
T: Ok… go to the next significant event
C: He is in his 30s… He has something like a room, some place to stay… Better clothes… Works in an office…
T: very good… He is doing better… Does he have anyone else with him?
C: Still lonely… No one…
T: Okay… let us go to the next significant event in his life…
C: In his 50s… He has a car but he looks angry, grumpy… Brooding in his car, the loneliness is getting to him… He has no one…
T: I understand… Being all alone must have been hard… Let us see what happens next… Go to the next significant event
C: He seems ill… Sick… in his 60s…
T: Is there anyone with him?
C: No… all alone… Dies alone…
T: Float above… Go towards light… Are you with the light?
C: IMR yes
LBL:
T: What do you think the life was like? What are the lessons to take forward?
C: Sense of loneliness, bitterness, fear of being left alone…not able to get over the fear of being left behind… This made him bitter and arrogant… No one could get close because of that… He regretted that later… We should get over things… Let go… Not build a wall around us… Or stay in a shell… Not be bitter and not wanted by anyone…
Past life #3
T: Go to the life that is connected to the fear you feel in this life…the root of this fear…
C: I see very high mountains with tall trees… I am seeing them from a height… I am a bird! I am looking down…
T: How do you feel in this body?
C: A big bird… A strong, powerful bird… Something like an eagle, a bird of prey…
T: Is there anyone with you?
C: A nest… With three young ones.
T: how do you feel about these young ones?
C: Very protective… I am looking for food for them… I see a valley… I feel fear…
T: breathing in and out… You are only visiting a memory… Just like watching a movie… You are protected… Why are you feeling fear?
C: As I am swooping down, I feel a stone rolling down… I feel like I will fall… If I fall there is no one to care for the babies… I am losing balance… Losing senses…
T: Breathing deeply from abdomen… Continue to breathe slowly and gently…
What happens next?
C: Leg is hurt, bent… I manage to go to the nest for babies… Mother’s instinct is strong… I came back for them…
T: Okay… that must have been hard… Mother’s instinct makes mothers do many things… What happens then?
C: I do not see much… The babies are gone…
T: What happened to them… Breathe in slowly from abdomen… Deeply…
C: I think they grew up and flew away… I am old… Still with my bent leg… I am shivering… The mountains now have snow… It is cold…I feel lonely…
T: Go to the next significant event…
C: Bird got cold and died…
T: Float above… Towards the light… is there any message for you?
C: Revive yourself… Keep yourself safe…
T: Do you think this may have affected your fear?
C: Yes…fear of falling or not being able to move is a big fear for me… I do not want to burden others… I do not want to be dependent on others… I want to be there for my children…
Session # 5 11/26/2024
FLP, Inner child healing and forgiveness
Closing:
Client discussed the pattern of loneliness in all the three past lives and how this feels similar in the current life… Client discussed how the fear might have played out from the time the Eagle wanted to protect young fledgelings to being a mother taking care of two young children when husband was away on work and challenges she faced… We discussed the fear of mobility - vehicles, escalators or anything similar, client mentioned there was fear about being dependent and not being there for children but after the session she feels calmer but cannot say much about overcoming fear until she comes across similar situations that caused fear… Client mentioned wanting to meditate regularly.
Pain level after sessions - 4
Event - Scare of getting hurt, of escalators or vehicles, even when not driving… speeding vehicles
Subjective interpretation - Eagle got hurt while trying to get food for babies. swooping fast
Conflict - do not want to be dependent on others
Decisions made to resolve - Revive yourself, keep yourself safe
Script - My leg is bent from the swooping, losing balance, there are babies in the nest
