Hiii everybody!!
Suhasini hereee from Spark Exclusive Batch 2026 NYAHAHHAHA
Now, while I lovvee talking about myself, what I love even more than that is my need for Dramatic Flair
So instead of kickin off my introduction through a quick life story summary, I thought, how about, I spice things up a bit by instead sharing with y’all what I saw in the times I got regressed in the 5 day workshop
So let’s start, before y’all even get the time to put your seat belts on 
, cuz believe you me, yer gunna NEED it
My details-
VAK-4/7/4
HR- 9.5/10
ERT-3
Pain level -0 (it was initially 10 when I came to workshop, cuz sir said do it 10 if it was so bad that you could not get up from bed, and I did indeed become a shut in for 7 yrs who found it hard to leave my bed cuz it felt like an immense gravity pull was pulling me down at my chest, but after hearing the story of @preethaprabhakar66 didi I felt like a spoilt brat who was whining for nothing so I changed it to 0 
)
So we start off with a very quick first time regression, where sir made us practice Progressive Relaxation (with ball of light), and I had offered to be the client as my collegue @priyanka.bhu12 did her PR(with ball of light) practice on me
Sir loovved how she did it, especially the bells jingling sound addition from her side to the ball of light,cuz my VAK was (4/7/4)
So sir also got in the flow and suggested her to immediately do tunnel of light for me after my PR, cuz she did it so Nicely, and at first I was sarcastic thinking I of all people won’t be able to see cuz my brain wave test thingy was 27% or something
But to my shock I immediately got a childhood memory, where I saw myself as a 10 yo holding my less than a year old cousin sister L in my arms, and instantly tears started streaming down my facecuz for me that memory is one of the last few emotionally intense moments of my life before phone addiction Turned my world colorless and numb, and also cuz I was suuuper attached to my cousin L for some reason as if she was my own baby, and I could not bear long periods of separation from her as a child
So this memory I saw in 2 motion pic style where I saw it from 3rd person pov of me holding her then i suddenly zoomed in on the babies face from 1st person pov and realised it’s her
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Theme for my past life regression-karmic bond with mom
Next we come to second regression session where sir left us to practice full induction, visualization and regression on our partners
So my therapist was @shalooinfinity didii
Now by the time I reached garden, there is this line that didi said “you will REMEMBER everything” Or something like that which was written in script, and brooooo
The moment she said REMEMBER, it was as if a lightning bolt
was struck intensely inside my head, so much that it somehow managed to blind my already closed eyes, and so that’s why the FIRST image that I saw after just getting blinded, was in negetive image style, you know those olden days photos that needed to be processed from their negetives, so that’s how it was, black and white , visible only under light properly
And that negetive image was of this.. Umm.. Predator cat(like panther) leaping from up to down, it’s claws extended, in still motion
And then BOOM Things started happening soooo fast
Immediately after that negetive photo faded in milli seconds, images after images started overflowing like a tap that suddenly got opened
The first image I saw was of these wind portals in the sky, like the one I see in fantasy video games like genshin impact
So i saw these exact wind portals but they were lined in a circular shape or randomly I guess in a mid afternoon sky
And now as you can see I immediately started thinking-bruh this is clearly my imagination but like sir said, imagination or not, say it alll, so I kept saying everything I saw to my therapist partner
Then immediately next second after thaat flash I saw this GiF type image, I call it Gif cuz it was a moving picture but it was like it was looping
So it was in clear HD quality like a movie scene, where the lighting was a bit more dim to make it have that cinematic effect, it was a scene inside an Indian train, it was sleeper class, I could see a girl In a pretty patta pavada (south indian dress) , she had a red top and green skirt (btw I LOVED patta pavadas since I was a child, and cried like anything when my fave white patta pavada tore)
The 7yo girl was sitting with her back to my view, and right in front of her I saw a lady in a saree, I think green I dun remember now, but she had her face covered with her saree like woman do, having pallu on face,and the aura I got from her was kinda cold and strict and silent, and the girl was sitting obediently. The window of the train showed shrubs and greenery passing. The slight feeling I got was that the pallu lady was my mom in current life as well.
Before I could finish telling quickly about this to my therapist partner, the scene changed again next second to a night time scene in a room now, it was of a lady doing shringaar (as in wearing jewelry and getting ready)
And BROOO this scene was SOOOOOO HD quality brooo, the colors were simply OOZING out of it it was the juiciest memory imprint I ever sawit was that rich in color, there was this beauutiful lady with thick, slightly curly hair ,well oilded and shiny, she had put in one shoulder in front, her skin was glowing golden under the candle light, she had beautiful gold earrings, necklace, bangles, nose ring, head thingy in forehead, like a bride or a rich lady, she was using both hands to I think put on am earring or remove or something, and to do that she suddenly turned right to look at the mirror in front of her properly under the candle light (the whole room seemed to be lit with various candle light stands n stuff, hence dimly lit in golden light) she also had this beautiful rich textile saree of red n green
Looking at her beauty left me stunned and for some reason I wanted to look closer to identify her, and thats when she turns in the mirror like I said to put earring or something, and her face comes into focus even more, and that’s when I get SHOCKED broo cuz that lady had the same face as my mom in this life (which is shocking cuz after having us my mom ditched sarees n stuff and switched to boy cut and pants due to her hair being too thick for South)
Before I could process it again the scene changed in next second, where I saw this zoomed in pearl necklace, but it was not pure white, it had these milky black patterns like marble
And just when I was tryna process why I am seeing a pearl necklace suddenly, (btw I LOVE pearl necklaces a lot in this life since childhood as well) i suddenly see these English women, walking to my side, entering the garden(safe space) from my right, with their backs turned to me
Their gowns were soo pretty broo, they were in blue , pink, and so many pretty colors, and shined like silk
(Above are the closest match I could find to shape n color of the dresses I saw)
Before I could fully finish admiring them,(cuz even in this life I am a HUGE fan of English gowns )the garden scene suddenly zoomed out and suddenly, the whole garden was filled with English woman in their gowns, as if it was an English tea party set up or something going on with their white tables n chairs, and women in gowns walking or sitting.
I suddenly saw a super zoomed, in my face photo of this confectionery that had thick red apple jam over it (another thing I am obsessed with in this life) it was shaped like a taco,
It was like this but without the fruits, and looots of apple jam
Then suddenly next second I saw a beaauutiful lady in this baby blue gown sitting in a white tea table in the centre, she had a pretty big hat and a handfan covering her face but I couldn’t tell who she was, she was sitting demurely with one leg crossed over the other, observing.
That’s when suddenly the image zooms out a bit more to reveal a lady standing right behind the blue gown lady’s chair, this lady was dresses in all black, super gloomy n strict,cold vibes, she had a black hat and a veil so I could not see her face
But for some reason I again got this feeling that she was my mom, and the pretty blue lady who I saw sitting was me (kinda made me understand why I was obsessed with hand fans and big hats too)
Then scene zooms out again suddenly next second, and I see other guests like this little blond girl in a frock who was throwing tantrums and was feeling cranky and crying, and other girls rushed in their dresses to console her, and one of the girls rushing to console her was this beautiful lady in baby pink satin dress, she glowed like a rose, fair and lovely, and somehow I got this message that she was the bride or host of the party, and a good, dear friend of mine.
Then suddenly I get a zoom in image of a cookie 
next second
Omg I managed to find the exact image of it online in my memory I thought it’s vanialla on top but google said it’s sour cream, oh well
I loovee cookies in this life as well btw
Throughout the session my poor therapist had to deal with my constant denial and apologies where I kept saying “bro I am seeing the Wierdedst stuff broo I am so sorry for cooking up all this imagination ”
Cuz when I started seeing jam n cookies I was even more convinced I have gone bonkers
But once again I took faith in venu sirs teachings “keep processing no matter how bizarre it seems “
Plus my therapist also consoled me and tried her best to ground me to that memory using my VAK and breathing, but the image would still change immediately next second, so all my therapist could do was keep up with my dictation and apologies 
Then immediately after the English tea party scene, after a lot of stress management from my therapist, I take deep breaths agaain, and start reporting to her the new flashes (oh and btw I forgot to mention, in this life when I was around 4 or so, when my parent’s preceptor (Heartfulnes meditation trainor) saw me , she said she instantly felt like a little English lady just entered her houseand I have always been fascinated by the British accent more than anything, I despise American accent and I found it quite easy to mimic it as well, n my taste in dressing style, where I wanted full big gowns with gloves n pearls and hats and fans, made mum call me “old English lady/grandma” and I looveed plain food without any spices, my spice tolerance was non existent, I did not even want salt much, and I am a huuugee fan of soups, boiled potato, and in English movies for some reason it warmed my heart to see their dinner table layouts, like it felt home for me, and mom said ever since I was a child, I would eagerly approach blond foreigners without hesitation like they were family, and that is why I would feel very very deeply hurt if they would avoid me)
This time I saw the Himalayan mountain range from above , it was like a movie scene , super HD quality again
My therapist tried to immediately ground me, making me connect with my feelings upon seeing this
I told her I felt cold (as in emotionally), did not like it cuz it felt lonely and painful looking at this memory, cuz I was all alone in the cold cold mountains.
She told me to look around, I saw snow everywhere, that’s when I came across a flag next to me, it had a rusty iron pole
It looked like the colors of the Netherlands 
flag, but it had a golden emblem of sort in the centre, so I dunno
But coincidentally I have a slight fascination with Netherlands in this life, ever since I heard it’s name as a child
The terrain around was Rocky and snowy, when my therapist told me to look around for people or something, I said I am alone here, and I then saw a small defence post you see to station soldiers on guard posts.
It was a mini shed typa post.
That’s when my therapist pitches in again to allow myself to look down now that I identified my place of duty.
Then I finally am able to suddenly see myself, I was a girl, fair skinned, black hair tied in a pony, green army dress, I was looking up proudly at the flag and saluting it with a smile on my face.
Then I was told to look around again to connect deeper with the scene, and I remember seeing right in front of the flag, in some distance, this .. Unnm… cross cross thingy, it was like tiny spears or long rifles stacked like criss cross in some breadth, the soil was black beneath,
Kinda like that fence behind that ox
So while seeing myself I thought it’s a fence, but I was puzzeld cuz at each sharp tip, another country’s flag was attached, looked like white n red stripes
I was asked about my feelings again when looking at it, and I felt this strong urge to puke cuz of the ominous, ugly energy it was radiating, like war and blood and death
And later when I told my aunt about this memory, she said she remembered seeing in a documentary that dead soldiers were burried like that in battlefield, and I got goosebumps brooo
Cuz that was a validification to my memories
Then suddenly the image shifted again,and I saw a blue umbrella 
just lying in the Rocky snow, then suddenly I saw an asteroid in space, then suddenly an uuglyy black snake
By now I was getting fussy again at the randomness and started fretting, so my therapist calmed me down and made me take deep breaths, and this time she said if I could hear anything, cuz I had secondary dom sense as audio, so that’s when I suddenly heard March past sound of soldiers,and then immediately next split second I saw a man in light olive green army dress with his fancy coat and pant and shoes, his fancy officer hat was covering his face and he was looking down, but he was very tall and handsome heheheh, and he was standing under some shed like thingy, and just as I was tryna get a close look at his face by zooming in, suddenly the image expanded as he zoomed out and an army marching appeared from his left side, they had same uniform but in deep blue, and while their faces were not hidden by their hats (cuz they were marching with their chins up) I felt zero emotions from them like they were cold emotionless monsters, so my memory showed their faces to be this homogenized group of faces that had features but did not stand out unique enough to break from that image of “cold emotionless monsters”, and that’s when I suddenly saw my dad crystal clear right in between them
there is this portrait of his till chest in his air force uniform lemme show ya-
This was the exact image of his I saw in the middle of the blue army, the soldiers too were wearing similar uniform, just a lil darker blue
And the hat was more like this shape(but without any emblem like in photo)
This was my dads pic when he was much younger)
And for some strange reason, while the army itself was doing March past with their big rifles and moving in cold precision, my dad was the odd one out cuz it was like his first image was moving but in still motion like imagine the same pic but floating to keep up with the army, and cuz he was in the middle so his chest down was naturally hidden by other bodies
So when I told this to my therapist naturally she asked me if any reason for my dad appearing suddenly like this could be there, (cuz as soon as I saw my dad I started crying for some reason and she did stress management) and that’s when I suddenly got this answer that his image is shown frozen cuz he is not like those monsters, he is different and is there against his will, and the reason I am crying is cuz he has to leave me for duty, and that i know he will die with them so this is my last time seeing him
I start crying as I say this so my therapist does stress management, but by the time. I calm down the army is gone and it’s darkness again
Then I get some more random flashes I dun remember, then suddenly I have this pre mature looking, red fleshy baby in my hands, and now for the first time, till now it looked and felt like I was a still cctv cam watching it all without being able to move myself in the memories cuz I was a mere 3rd party observeer like a camera
But suddenly when I saw the fleshy baby in my arms I realised I am finally a part of the memory now as can see my arms, before I can process it though I suddenly see my dad again in front of me in his stiff portrait like form, same blue uniform, then scene shifts to an angle behind him I feel cuz it shows a blue uniform man hiding a black gun in his hands behind.
Again I interpret dads stiffness as the memory showing he was there against his wishes, following orders he did not want to
Then suddenly scene shifts again and this time I see a hd quality image of a photo taken against the sun as backdrop so it’s super shadowy and black, but it shows two pairs of hands lifting or exchanging a basket in which a baby is kept wrapped, and my instinct told me it was that same baby, and that my dad chose not to kill it, so it was being safely evacuated
Suddenly it shifts to the scene or a healthy looking baby this time, but it’s in the womb, and something tells me it’s the same fleshy baby only, I just dunno if it’s him before being born or what.
Then suddenly I saw a girl, her back was turned to me, she had beautiful black shiny hair that was as long as her ankles, she wore a beautiful red blouse with white saree like parvati mata, she had a veil made of jasmine flower bods covering her front face so I could not see her face, but again I knew it’s my mum.
Her most jewelry was made of red n white beautiful flower buds.
I felt a strong pull towards her, when suddenly the scene zooms out and a man in cream color kurti of a groom is standing next to her, and suddenly it’s a huge marriage ceremony
The man had dark skin and I felt zero connection to him.
After that the scene shifts and I see these random, zoomed in flashes of these strange metal objects made of gold, the only thought that came to mind while looking at it was- weapons
And so that’s when my therapist takes that as an indicator to ask me if I am still in earth or not, and I immediately say no, it looks like earth due to it’s Greenforests, but it was not earth at all, cuz these intricate Gold weapons were something I never saw, even the snake of this planet looked alienist in the face, with quite a bizarre anatomy of it’s face, and so my therapist told me to turn around and look And for the first time instead of being stuck stiff I was able to turn around to my left, as if I was in that memory, turning in my body in the memory
And as soon as I turn I see this scary looking aghori like human, but one look at him and I know he is no human, just resembles an aghori due to his jata hair, Intense eyes, and lioncloth. His body was suuper long and slim, super dark like dark wood, In fact I doubt it was skin
The moment he came into my vision when I turned I jumped from fear and almost opened my eyes, cuz he was staring right at me, body turned diagonally, looking over his right shoulder towards me with his intense eyes.
Every cell in my body was saying he was not human so I slowly turned around .
In general I am quite fond of aghoris actually so I was surprised to see my intense and illogical fear in regression when I saw him.
As I turn around again, I suddenly see someone standing in front of me.
While the aghori was clearly talll, this one was shorter, almost equal heights as me, albeit lil taller than me.
His back was turned to me, his skin was made of chocolate brown wood, his hair this beautiful green.
From hack he looked just like haku, my fave anime char from spirited away movie, I tried to look at his face but he held my hand and started leading me somewhere into the forest.
He was not physically holding my hand, or at least not that I could feel of, but he was still leading me by hand somehow
When I looked at him from back, contrary to the aghori, I felt love pouring out, especially cuz his back and hair style reminded me so much of haku.
I was confused where he was leading me, that’s when I noticed the beautiful kush Greenforest had caught fire, the sky was filled with orange fire n burning scenes and smoke, and haku was leading me away from the disaster, when my therapist asked why I can’t stop the fire or put it out, I immediately say “it’s cuz it’s destruction happening, like a calamity destroying the planet” Or something like that, as in it’s not in my hands to stop the destruction being conducted by nature.
Our planet was dying.
And strangely enough, in alll that smoke, I felt like.. I could breathe again for the first time freely , oxygen feeling so fresh
That’s when I suddenly felt like linking that maybe my suffocation problem that I had since birth could be related to this,where since birth I would easily feel suffocated, especially at night if fan is not on even in winters
So anyways, as haku leads me away from smoke and fire, his hair starts swaying in the wind with the fast movement, and it suddenly reminds me of that bridge running scene of haku
No wonder this movie resonated with me a lotthe guy I saw in the regression memory looked just like him from behind (
Then finally we reach a clearing where it’s all ashes due to being burnt, and finally I hold my breath hoping I can see his face now as he turns
But when he turns suddenly, I get so scared by what I see that I open my eyes immediately
So I see these multiple, red n gold, various sizes of eyes stuck allllll over his face, like every inch was covered with eyes of different sizes
But looking back now, he did not mean to scare me ok purpose, cuz I still feel love for him as I recall, I was just taken aback cuz I saw that in super zoomed HD quality 4k pixels that’s why
Plus I have Trypophibia so it triggered me even more
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In Next n last session , conducted by venu sir for the whole group, we are told to imagine a temple
But thanks to my hyper active imagination, by the time sir reaches the part where he says to enter the temple steps, my brain sees 50 diff temples already they were all distinctly so diff that I was like “I dun remember having such deep knowledge in temple architecture bro? “
I saw buddhist temple as well… I dunno if I should call it a buddhist temple but it was this open building were monks were accumulated doing something I dun remember, praying or something but they were all standing
This made me wonder if I was a buddhist in past life cuz I had difficulty expressing my emotions or facing my emotions in this life. Then I saw a building filled with yogis as well doing various asanas in the black marble under moonlight or something.
I dunno like…Ever since my first regression where my therapist said you will “remember” Everything, every time I closed my eyes I would easily start seeing images flooding instantly, from induction itself.
It’s like an open tap without a close option
It has seeped into my dreams as well at night, ever since my regression, my dreams are sooo vivid and so detailed, like I am living a different life, but I can’t remember anything when I wake up.
The line between reality and dreamworld has thinned even more for me
So anyways sir finally makes us step into the temple, I dun see any deity cuz I was raised in spiritual ashram where focus was spirituality and not religion so I did not have much exposure to diety worship.
So while I could not see any deity in temple, I did see a deity behind one of the doors, but I am more baffled as to why I saw it in door 1 of all doors
So sir said to come in front of door 1 , after opening which, we will be able to see our true essence, as in who we truly are.
I was again super excited but also worried if I truly will be able to see it or not, so imagine my frustration when instead of waiting in front of door 1,my hyper imagination made me bang it open instantly, in fact it was like a roller coaster loop ride where the door kept opening to another door in super high speed, so like the first door opened only for the camera to zoom in and find another locked door which gets opened automatically as the camera frame zooms in or whooshes in like a fast roller coasterand just as I start loosing hope, sir says to open door and come face to face with our true essence, and that’s when the door opening roller coaster ride suddenly comes to a stop as it opens the last door and BOOM, a majestically mysterious looking face zooms into my face quite literally, like opening it’s eyes and zooming in
So it was THIS close to my face, like the whole room was cloaked in darkness and her face just zooms in as she opens her eyes to me, she had beautiful rich black hair which was kinda wavy or curly, beautiful red lips and a gold nose ring, and she had this… chilling aura, that the moment you come in her presence.. There is this.. I dunno.. Vaccum? Silent stillness?Its like she is looking into your soul broo… I could not see below her neck, her face was that zoomed in to my faceshe did not have a 3rd eye like in the photo, or maybe her skin was too dark for me to see, but yea it over all looked like that pic, same skin tone darkness, same shining gold eyes
And as a joke I almost wanted to say to her “um I was supposed to see you at the entrance where the deity is kept, not behind the first door where I get to see MY soul ka essence broo”
So yea anyways her magestic presence was so thrilling that I was able to get over my sadness of her ruining my first door experience 
I guess the mighty sub C really does have a will of its own
So in second door we were supposed to see past life, so this time I somehow begged and prayed for the door to stay still and wait for sirs instruction to open, and luckily it listened and stayed still this time BUT before I could celebrate, as soon as I opened the door, again roller coaster ride started but at least this time it did two stops in the middle where in one of them I got to see a beautiful, biiig circular black marble floor, it was actually like the first floor of this open .. Umm.. Building… I dunno how to describe it architecture wise, but it was like that Open, circular Roman like building supported by pillars below, and above it was a huuge dance room type made of black marble with a flower design in centre in white, and there under the full moon light I saw around hundred or so pale white naked bodies of women dancing around , accumulating in centre and making intricate pyramid gymnastics designs or something, and then the roller coaster style of scenes flashing happens again and this time it takes a second stop in a different scene, where there is a black cliff like stone structure or something, and there are 7 women dressed in beautiful white bride like gown dresses with veils n stuff sitting on the rock, and I was looking down at em from above, but this time I had a body of my own actually, and it was suuuch a huge body, that half my waist was down in deep ocean as I stood, and my waist above was towering over the 7 woman like a Titan
I could not see what my body was made of, just remember seeing I had long hair, I was a force of nature only or something and the 7 women below were my daughters, cuz as I looked down below, my heart was filled with love for them and the thought I had was “I am so proud of how my daughters grew up to be”
They looked up to me and smiled warmly
And the strangest thing is, in this life I have 7 boy baby birds exactly, and the moment I saw the memory of these 7 women, they instantly reminded me of my 7 baby boy budgies making me feel like my daughters were aware of my aversion to have kids and family in this life, so they chose to come to my life in this way instead
And then lastly sir says to stand in front of the 3rd door where we will meet n heal our inner child, but the moment I opened the taalll door, I was hit with such blinding light, and I could make the silhouette of my 4yo self standing there, and I could feel it saying to me “what a disappointment you are” And then it shut the door in my face brooomy inner child rejected to meet me cuz contrary to others, my childhood version was filled with love and light and confidence which changed only when I hit my teens, so instead of inner child healing I need the inner child to heal my 23yo self actually
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Pheewww so that was it for my Introduction where I shared what I saw in my sessions instead of saying life history can’t believe this took me all day bruh
PS-really sorry for any typos, I was EXHAUSTED by the time I was done writing this
kudos to you, for writing such a detailed and elaborated intro 
you poured your heart into it. I will have to revisit/re-read. I feel you are more visual, the way you’ve described scene by scene. It’s like watching multiple movies at the same time. Our mind is so vast and whatever images you saw and felt definitely has a calling/meaning for you, and it will reveal gradually, layer by layer. Key is to keep working on yourself and surrender, which you have been doing already. Welcome to the family 
keep rocking and shining 
hahahhaa
quite interesting.