Debilitating fear of darkness and hospitals

Janani (Name changed) Female, 57 years old

Hypnosis score: 5/10

VAK: 3 3 3

Eye Roll: 1/4

Theme: Frustration of not becoming a father yet

Pain level: 10/10

Session 1

10 am – 12:30 pm

Client History

Janani had a happy childhood; she is the elder child and she is very close to her mother. She was married at the age of 21 and has a daughter. She has a lot of difference of opinion with her husband, yet for therapy, she wanted to address a completely different issue first.

The issue she is most bothered about right now in her life is her extreme fear of hospitals and darkness. On hearing someone is admitted, she has strong physical reactions and has to immediately use the restroom. As she is ageing, she avoids going to the hospital (even if it is her own sister), she finds an excuse and helps the family by supporting at home when a family member is hospitalised.

She also has a lot of fear of the dark, in some houses she is not even able to sleep alone when left alone at night.

These two fears were what she wanted to address in the sessions.

Theme: Fear of being alone and Fear of hospitals

All sessions were done in Tamil (including induction), I have translated this whole script

Session 2

2 pm - 6 pm

Dave Elman induction, Progressive relaxation, garden of peace (beach), Tunnel of light taking a train

She drifted to sleep now and then, so had to take a break for 15 minutes, post this I started asking regular IMR

She was able to recollect some happy childhood memories about her parents, about her grandmother buying her a green silk frock at age 6. Interestingly, she also recollected her delivery (She was 22), saying her baby looked beautiful.

Other memories were of her younger sister being born, her father buying her a new red dress which had rabbits in it when she was 5 years old.

Session 3

10 am – 1 pm

Theme: Afraid of being alone in the dark

Dave Elman induction, Progressive relaxation, garden of peace (beach), Tunnel of light taking a train

T: What comes to your awareness?

C: I am in Hosur (her native place) during the day, if there is nobody, I feel lot of fear when my mother-in-law died

Even when father-in-law was there, I was never able to be in that house

T: As I count from 3 to 1, allow yourself to drift to the next moment where you felt this fear in this life

18 to 20 I was alone I would feel a lot of fear in the night, I will be even more careful

I wouldn’t be able to sleep the whole night

T: Alright, take a deep breath, relax your forehead, you are safe, we are just exploring these memories

T: As I count from 3 to 1, go to a memory in your childhood, where you felt this fear of the dark

C: I was very young in 4th standard I used to blink my eyes a lot so my teacher tied my eyes with both my plaits I was crying, I felt very afraid

Using affect bridge (took a few examples of fear of being alone in the dark, catapulting her to a past life where she had the same feeling)

T: Feel your feet, feel your hands

C: Very confused

T: It is okay, even if you feel it is an imagination, you can start talking, whatever comes to your awareness

(It took several minutes, and a lot of pauses, I repeated the questions gently a few times. her forehead was tensed, pain in her hip and calf muscle came up in several places through the session)

C: It is very dark some people are there

T: Where are you?

C: I am outside

T: What are you wearing?

C: fully covered

T: Is anyone with you?

C: I do not know anyone

T: What is the time now?

C: it is the night time

Nobody is there with me

T: How old are you?

C: I am 40 to 50

T: Go to your house as I count from 3 to 1

C: I don’t know where my house is

I don’t know where to go

I am very hungry I have not eaten anything

(Abreaction: Pain in the hip and calf muscle)

T: You are safe. Breathing deeply, feel the healing of the golden light in your hips and legs

T: As I count from 3 to 1, move to the next key event in that life

T: Where are you? Feel your surroundings and tell me

C: I don’t know

T: How old are you?

C: I am still 50

I don’t have anyone

T: Alright, as I count from 3 to 1 go to your childhood in that life

C: I am in a black dress near the beach

T: What are you doing?

C: I am playing

I don’t know if I have a mother

I don’t know where my house is

T: How old are you?

C: 5 to 6 years old

T: What are the kids calling you? What is your name?

C: Fatima

I don’t like to be in this dress I don’t have a home I am in the road

T: Who takes care of you?

C: I don’t know anything

I feel very hungry I don’t have food

T: What do you usually eat?

C: I don’t know (Lot of stress in the forehead)

Next key moment in childhood

C: I am sleeping near the sea

I am 5 to 6 years old the whole of night nobody is coming to take me (Weeps like a child, pursing her lips)

Calmed her down and took her through her last moments (With all her answers, it felt like the life of an abandoned child, and even in adult life, she appeared very sad and hungry, could not answer any questions)

As I count, 3 to 1, go to the end of that lifetime

T: What comes to your awareness?

C: A lot of people around me ladies are wearing black dress gents wearing kurta

T: Do you know any of them?You can take a moment to observe any familiarity

C: I don’t like anyone I don’t like being in the dress

T: How old are you?

C: I am 50 to 55

T: What are you experiencing?

C: I have a lot of pain in the chest upper abdomen

Further questions of any presence felt after that, LBL, she could not answer, she drifted to sleep after this

After waking up, she felt a lot of gratitude for this life she has. She shuddered at the thought of sleeping in a beach in the night, and being homeless. And felt so safe and protected in this life.

She later revealed that the current house she was in, they were thinking of going to a bigger place, and now she had decided she will decorate this home better and all her problems about this house seemed silly to her now. She felt so grateful and started seeing all the positives of staying in that house and society.

Session 4

5 pm -7 pm

Theme: Fear of hospitals

T; What comes to your awareness?

C: My father, operation gallbladder, he has tubes through his nose

T: Who else is there?

C: my mother, the nurse is there

T: What is it you feel?

C: I feel fear that my father will die

I feel like taking a big breath (ab reaction lot of calf muscle pain and head shaking)

Calmed her, gave some reassurance till her abreactions subsided, her pain reduced

Using affect bridge (took a few more examples of fear about hospitals, and gave her a prompt to visit a past life where she had the same feeling)

T: As I count from 3 to 1, you will be able to feel your surroundings more vividly

T: What time of the day is it?

C: It is daytime noon

T; Where are you?

C: I am in a Farm

T: What are you wearing?

C: I am wearing skirt and shirt

T: How old are you?

C: I am 7 to 8 years

T: What is happening? Is anyone with you?

C: nobody is there I am just playing

T: Feel your surroundings and tell me what else comes to your awareness

C: I can see a cow calf there is a lot of haystacks

It is a village

T: What is your name?

C: I don’t know my name

T: How old are you?

C:10 years

I have bangles in my hands it is a village I am playing in a swing, only I am there

T: As I count from 3 to 1, go to the next key moment in your childhood

C: 6 to 7 years, a lot of children in the village I am playing I am playing catch catch

T: Go to your house at dinner time and tell me who is there

C: The house has thatched roof

T: What is your mother doing?

C: Amma is doing something in the kitchen

T: Hmmm, how does her presence feel? Do you recognise her from any person in your current life?

C: I am not able to recognise her

T: What is your father doing?

C: Is doing farming

in the house nobody is talking to me

T: Who else is at home now?

C: there is nobody else

T: As I count from 3 to 1, go to the next key moment in your life

C: I am 10 years old I am going to the school and studying science

I don’t know who the teacher is

Further questions, no clear answers

Next key moment

C: I am wearing skirt and shirt

7 to 8 years I am going to the school I’m going alone I am not wearing any shoes I am just going in bare feet

Drifted to another memory herself

C: I am wearing half saree and 15 years old red colour

wearing bangles

After this, questions about her life, her parents, she was not able to answer anything

She herself summarised, saying she does not want to visit this life. She felt unloved, she could not feel any warmth from her parents. She had a normal life of husband, children, and the whole life she felt unloved and nobody bothered about her.

As I count, 3 to 1, go to the end of that lifetime

C: I am in hospital

doctor says I have some disease

T: How old are you?

C: I am 60 years old

T: Who is near you?

C: there is nobody near me

I have a lot of chess pain I want to end this

the doctor is saying I am not very happy

I don’t feel very happy in life

T: What do you think was the learning of that life?

C: We need a good father and good mother I don’t think they were affectionate to me that life

T: Where could you have made a different choice?

C: I want to study a lot I really like studying I want to become a lecturer

I did not pursue that

T: Do you think you carry any of those feelings to this life too?

C: Yes, I did not pursue my career

T: Spend a few moments integrating all you learnt in that life. You always have a choice in life and you could take it anytime in your life.

After this, in the ancient temple, she could feel the presence of Lord Shiva, I asked her to burn her fear of darkness and the all her other fears, in the fire. Praying to Shiva to be able to make the choices that will lead her to the purpose of her life.

And emerged her.

Changes she noticed in the following month. She has been having a lot of vivid dreams, she has never had any dreams. We have scheduled some future sessions.Janani (Name changed) Female, 57 years old
Hypnosis score: 5/10
VAK: 3 3 3
Eye Roll: 1/4
Theme: Frustration of not becoming a father yet
Pain level: 10/10

Session 1
10 am – 12:30 pm
Client History
Janani had a happy childhood; she is the elder child and she is very close to her mother. She was married at the age of 21 and has a daughter. She has a lot of difference of opinion with her husband, yet for therapy, she wanted to address a completely different issue first.
The issue she is most bothered about right now in her life is her extreme fear of hospitals and darkness. On hearing someone is admitted, she has strong physical reactions and has to immediately use the restroom. As she is ageing, she avoids going to the hospital (even if it is her own sister), she finds an excuse and helps the family by supporting at home when a family member is hospitalised.
She also has a lot of fear of the dark, in some houses she is not even able to sleep alone when left alone at night.
These two fears were what she wanted to address in the sessions.
Theme: Fear of hospitals
Fear of being alone
All sessions were done in Tamil (including induction), I have translated this whole script

Session 2
2 pm - 6 pm
Dave Elman induction, Progressive relaxation, garden of peace (beach), Tunnel of light taking a train
She drifted to sleep now and then, so had to take a break for 15 minutes, post this I started asking regular IMR
She was able to recollect some happy childhood memories about her parents, about her grandmother buying her a green silk frock at age 6. Interestingly, she also recollected her delivery (She was 22), saying her baby looked beautiful.
Other memories were of her younger sister being born, her father buying her a new red dress which had rabbits in it when she was 5 years old.

Session 3
10 am – 1 pm
Theme: Afraid of being alone in the dark
Dave Elman induction, Progressive relaxation, garden of peace (beach), Tunnel of light taking a train
T: What comes to your awareness?
C: I am in Hosur (her native place) during the day, if there is nobody, I feel lot of fear when my mother-in-law died
Even when father-in-law was there, I was never able to be in that house
T: As I count from 3 to 1, allow yourself to drift to the next moment where you felt this fear in this life
18 to 20 I was alone I would feel a lot of fear in the night, I will be even more careful
I wouldn’t be able to sleep the whole night
T: Alright, take a deep breath, relax your forehead, you are safe, we are just exploring these memories
T: As I count from 3 to 1, go to a memory in your childhood, where you felt this fear of the dark
C: I was very young in 4th standard I used to blink my eyes a lot so my teacher tied my eyes with both my plaits I was crying, I felt very afraid
Using affect bridge (took a few examples of fear of being alone in the dark, catapulting her to a past life where she had the same feeling)
T: Feel your feet, feel your hands
C: Very confused
T: It is okay, even if you feel it is an imagination, you can start talking, whatever comes to your awareness
(It took several minutes, and a lot of pauses, I repeated the questions gently a few times. her forehead was tensed, pain in her hip and calf muscle came up in several places through the session)
C: It is very dark some people are there
T: Where are you?
C: I am outside
T: What are you wearing?
C: fully covered
T: Is anyone with you?
C: I do not know anyone
T: What is the time now?
C: it is the night time
Nobody is there with me
T: How old are you?
C: I am 40 to 50
T: Go to your house as I count from 3 to 1
C: I don’t know where my house is
I don’t know where to go
I am very hungry I have not eaten anything
(Abreaction: Pain in the hip and calf muscle)
T: You are safe. Breathing deeply, feel the healing of the golden light in your hips and legs
T: As I count from 3 to 1, move to the next key event in that life
T: Where are you? Feel your surroundings and tell me
C: I don’t know
T: How old are you?
C: I am still 50
I don’t have anyone
T: Alright, as I count from 3 to 1 go to your childhood in that life
C: I am in a black dress near the beach
T: What are you doing?
C: I am playing
I don’t know if I have a mother
I don’t know where my house is
T: How old are you?
C: 5 to 6 years old
T: What are the kids calling you? What is your name?
C: Fatima
I don’t like to be in this dress I don’t have a home I am in the road
T: Who takes care of you?
C: I don’t know anything
I feel very hungry I don’t have food
T: What do you usually eat?
C: I don’t know (Lot of stress in the forehead)
Next key moment in childhood
C: I am sleeping near the sea
I am 5 to 6 years old the whole of night nobody is coming to take me (Weeps like a child, pursing her lips)
Calmed her down and took her through her last moments (With all her answers, it felt like the life of an abandoned child, and even in adult life, she appeared very sad and hungry, could not answer any questions)
As I count, 3 to 1, go to the end of that lifetime
T: What comes to your awareness?
C: A lot of people around me ladies are wearing black dress gents wearing kurta
T: Do you know any of them?You can take a moment to observe any familiarity
C: I don’t like anyone I don’t like being in the dress
T: How old are you?
C: I am 50 to 55
T: What are you experiencing?
C: I have a lot of pain in the chest upper abdomen
Further questions of any presence felt after that, LBL, she could not answer, she drifted to sleep after this
After waking up, she felt a lot of gratitude for this life she has. She shuddered at the thought of sleeping in a beach in the night, and being homeless. And felt so safe and protected in this life.
She later revealed that the current house she was in, they were thinking of going to a bigger place, and now she had decided she will decorate this home better and all her problems about this house seemed silly to her now. She felt so grateful and started seeing all the positives of staying in that house and society.
Session 4
5 pm -7 pm
Theme: Fear of hospitals
T; What comes to your awareness?
C: My father, operation gallbladder, he has tubes through his nose
T: Who else is there?
C: my mother, the nurse is there
T: What is it you feel?
C: I feel fear that my father will die
I feel like taking a big breath (ab reaction lot of calf muscle pain and head shaking)
Calmed her, gave some reassurance till her abreactions subsided, her pain reduced
Using affect bridge (took a few more examples of fear about hospitals, and gave her a prompt to visit a past life where she had the same feeling)
T: As I count from 3 to 1, you will be able to feel your surroundings more vividly
T: What time of the day is it?
C: It is daytime noon
T; Where are you?
C: I am in a Farm
T: What are you wearing?
C: I am wearing skirt and shirt
T: How old are you?
C: I am 7 to 8 years
T: What is happening? Is anyone with you?
C: nobody is there I am just playing
T: Feel your surroundings and tell me what else comes to your awareness
C: I can see a cow calf there is a lot of haystacks
It is a village
T: What is your name?
C: I don’t know my name

T: How old are you?
C:10 years
I have bangles in my hands it is a village I am playing in a swing, only I am there
T: As I count from 3 to 1, go to the next key moment in your childhood
C: 6 to 7 years, a lot of children in the village I am playing I am playing catch catch
T: Go to your house at dinner time and tell me who is there
C: The house has thatched roof
T: What is your mother doing?
C: Amma is doing something in the kitchen
T: Hmmm, how does her presence feel? Do you recognise her from any person in your current life?
C: I am not able to recognise her
T: What is your father doing?
C: Is doing farming
in the house nobody is talking to me
T: Who else is at home now?
C: there is nobody else
T: As I count from 3 to 1, go to the next key moment in your life
C: I am 10 years old I am going to the school and studying science
I don’t know who the teacher is
Further questions, no clear answers
Next key moment
C: I am wearing skirt and shirt
7 to 8 years I am going to the school I’m going alone I am not wearing any shoes I am just going in bare feet
Drifted to another memory herself
C: I am wearing half saree and 15 years old red colour
wearing bangles
After this, questions about her life, her parents, she was not able to answer anything
She herself summarised, saying she does not want to visit this life. She felt unloved, she could not feel any warmth from her parents. She had a normal life of husband, children, and the whole life she felt unloved and nobody bothered about her.

As I count, 3 to 1, go to the end of that lifetime
C: I am in hospital
doctor says I have some disease
T: How old are you?
C: I am 60 years old
T: Who is near you?
C: there is nobody near me
I have a lot of chess pain I want to end this
the doctor is saying I am not very happy
I don’t feel very happy in life
T: What do you think was the learning of that life?
C: We need a good father and good mother I don’t think they were affectionate to me that life
T: Where could you have made a different choice?
C: I want to study a lot I really like studying I want to become a lecturer
I did not pursue that
T: Do you think you carry any of those feelings to this life too?
C: Yes, I did not pursue my career
T: Spend a few moments integrating all you learnt in that life. You always have a choice in life and you could take it anytime in your life.
After this, in the ancient temple, she could feel the presence of Lord Shiva, I asked her to burn her fear of darkness and the all her other fears, in the fire. Praying to Shiva to be able to make the choices that will lead her to the purpose of her life.
And emerged her.

Changes she noticed in the following month. She has been having a lot of vivid dreams, she has never had any dreams. We have scheduled some future sessions.