With the blessings from the Gods and Masters, I completed my first case.
Vitals: Jay [Name changed], M, 31YO, H: 9/10, Eye: 2/4, VAK: 6/5/4
Theme: Wants to get rid of his Negativity. He is always afraid that something might happen to his loved one.
History:
Jay comes from a large joint family. His father was strict and controlling, leading Jay to fear him, impacting his confidence and performance in school and social settings. Despite facing challenges and bullying, he found solace in hockey but was restricted from pursuing it. Over time, he struggled with introversion, lack of confidence, and depression, affecting his relationships and comfort in family gatherings.
Jayās journey has been filled with ups and downs, from experiencing betrayal by his cousins to finding solace and understanding in his relationship with his siblings. He turned to Zumba for confidence and his faith in Shivji for guidance, overcoming challenges in relationships and personal loss. Despite challenges with his father, Jay acknowledges his fatherās sacrifices while navigating their complex relationship. He values goodness, helping others, and staying true to his beliefs.
During the sessions, my client had a lot to process and at times it came in flashes and couldnāt describe everything in detail. And after the session, he mentioned the entire details which I have mentioned in brackets ().
Session 1
Began the session with a prayer to the Gods & Masters
Induction - Dave Elman, Progressive Relaxation
Visualization - Light, Staircase, Garden
Happy Memory 1
T: This is what the therapist said.
C: This is what the client said.
Happy Memory 2
T: Now let us go back even earlier, to a younger age, as an infant or a toddler or a small child and pick out another memory and again remember it vividly using all of your sensesā¦ sight, sound, taste, touch, smell. Be there! Experience it, remember you can always float above it and if uncomfortable just come back into the garden.
Do not worry whether it is imagination or fantasy or an actual memory. This is all coming from your mind, it is all important, itās all from you, and it may be a mixture of all of these. This is for the experienceā¦ let yourself experienceā¦ allow yourself to remember. Stay in deep state and re-experience these memoriesā¦
T: When I count from 3 to 1, pick out another happy memory from your childhoodā¦
T: What comes to your awareness? What can you see or feel?
C: There is a big bird in front of my eyes.
T: Bird?
C: Like a Phoenix. It has huge wings. Itās red in colour
T: And what is happening?
C: Itās moving itās wings slowly in front of me.
T: How does it make you feel?
C: Iām feeling calm. Usko dekhke acha lag raha hai
(The client later told me that he remembered being in his room, sitting in a corner afraid that his father is coming to hit him. But he didnāt see his father, and instead saw the Phoenix in front of his eyes and he felt calm and happy).
After this, we did In-Utero and LBL
T: Now when I count from 5 to 1, go back to a significant memory from this lifetime, when you felt hurt and fearfulā¦
T: What comes to your awareness?
C: It feels like a person is sitting on something, and itās flying away. I can see red colour.
T: Where is it flying away? Is it a bird?
C: Donāt know, but itās huge.
T: Is it like a Phoenix?
C: No, itās bigger than that. A person is sitting on that, and itās flying away (The client later told me that it was a huge red colour Dragon).
T: How does it make you feel?
C: Feels like itās taking away my fear.
T: Wonderful!
C: (IMR) to explore further
T: When I count from 3 to 1, go to another significant moment from this lifetime where you felt fear.
C: I feel very heavy. Iām trapped in a room.
T: How is the room?
C: I canāt see it, but I can feel it. Itās dark, Iām feeling scared.
T: Remember, you are safe and only experiencing a past memory. If you feel uncomfortable, you can float above and watch from a distance.
Keep breathing deeply from your abdomen.
Relax your forehead, neck and shoulders.
Now when I count from 3 to 1, there will be light in the room.
T: What comes to your awareness?
C: Mom. My mom came in the room.
T: What did your mother say?
C: She said, Jay has been found (mil gaya Jay)
(The client later told me that it was a memory from when he was around 5 years old. They had visited their native place, and he was playing hide and seek with his cousins. He hid under the bed and the parents unaware that heās there in the room, locked the door and left. The client was scared and started crying. Later, his mother came in the room looking for him and found him crying).
Asked the client if he wanted to explore further, or wanted to be brought back.
Brought him back to the garden and back to normal state.
The client felt very happy and light. Especially the experience with Phoenix and Dragon, it was very calming for him.
Session 2
Jay slept well last night. He was looking forward for todayās session.
We started with a prayer to the Gods & Masters.
Induction - Dave Elman, Progressive Relaxation
Visualization - Light, Staircase, Garden
T: Maybe now you can find a way out to this garden leading to a narrow road
C: (IMR)
T: Very Good. Keep walking on this narrow road. Road is filled with grass and huge trees on either sides. Feel the grass and the breeze.
Imagine, there is an ancient temple at the end of the road. Just keep walking, and when you find it at the end of the road, youāll reach the staircase of the temple.
C: (IMR)
T: Feel the cool, smooth stone beneath your feet as you ascend each step, the air around you filled with a sense of mystery.
As you reach the top of the staircase, you find yourself in a beautiful corridor. There is a majestic door right in front of you.
C: (IMR)
T: Push open the grand door and step inside. Trust whatever comes for you.
Look around, feel, hear, sense, what comes to your awareness?
C: There is a flag above the temple. (The client did not enter the temple as he saw Gods outside the temple itself. He told me this much later).
T: What more comes to your awareness? What can you see, feel, hear?
C: I can see 2-3 Gods
T: Which Gods?
C: Shivji, Ganpati bappa, and Lord Krishnaās peacock feather. (Mentioned later that he also saw a flash of Laxmi Maa sitting on a lotus, saw Shani Dev sitting on a crow, snake.)
T: You can take their blessings. You may ask for their guidance and direction. Please offer my pranamšš» to them.
What more comes to your awareness?
C: Trishul, Animal
T: Which Animal?
C: Donāt know. With 2 horns (Client later told it was Nandi cow with huge horns. And Trishul was between the horns)
T: Keep breathing deeply from your abdomen. Relax your forehead, neck, shoulders.
Just bow to the Gods and take their blessings.
Do you see or hear anything?
C: Lord Buddha
T: You can ask him any question you want and listen for the answers. Any question that you may have.
(After the client emerged, he told me exactly what he saw and experienced. He saw huge Lord Buddha in the air. He too was floating in front of him. There was a hole in center of Lord Buddhaās forehead and light coming through it and falling on Jay. There was a waterfall next to Lord Buddha and Jay kept moving towards the waterfall and he thought that why was he moving away from Buddha. He wanted to stay close to Lord Buddha. Just then he was below the waterfall and the light fell on Jay, through the waterfall. He said it felt like Shudhikaran/Purification/transformation. He was astonished that he saw Lord Buddha).
C: Many people are standing around
T: Are they standing around you?
C: Donāt know
T: How does it make you feel?
C: I feel weird
T: You are in a safe space. Remember, you are only experiencing this memory. You are protected by the divine light. Keep breathing from your abdomen. Relax your head, face, neck and shoulder. Feel peace.
What more can you see? Do you wish you stay here or should we move ahead?
C: I can see eyes.
T: Whoāse eyes are those?
C: Donāt know. Can see a pair of eyes (I slowly saw many pair of eyes).
T: How does that make you feel?
C: I canāt understand. Itās watching me (Uncomfortable).
T: Is it watching you?
C: Itās gone.
T: Remember, you are safe, you are protected, you are loved.
Now let us look around the temple, there are multiple staircases, each leading towards a door, enter one of the doors of your choice, wherever youāll experience that the problem has originated, where you feel you will find healing, you answer that door.
(IMR) to know if heās found the door
C: (IMR) Negative
T: Keep breathing deeply from your abdomen. Relax your forehead, neck, shoulders. When I count from 1 to 3, you will be at the center of the temple. You may allow your mind to see or feel the presence of Masters. The masters are doing some ritual.
Are you able to see the masters?
C: Yes
T: Good. You may ask the masters whatever your question is and you trust the answers that comeā¦ whether through words, symbols, images, thoughts or feelings.
Keep breathing deeply from your belly. Relax your forehead, neck, shoulders.
What comes to your awareness?
C: Things are not clear.
T: Like? What can you see or feel? Are the masters there?
C: No. They went.
T: Can you see or feel anything?
C: I can see a temple from far away.
T: Are you outside the temple?
C: Yes. I never went inside the temple. I could see the Gods from outside only.
T: Can you still see the temple?
C: No, itās gone.
T: When I count from 1 to 3, return to the garden. Be in this peaceful, beautiful gardenā¦ You can rest and heal.
Are you in the garden?
C: (IMR) Yes
T: Imagine you are stepping inside the glass pyramid and itās a beautiful one.
T: Are you able to imagine?
C: Tree
T: Treeā¦ What more can you see? Scan your surroundings. What do you hear, feel or see?
C: Faraway on a mountain, there is a temple and a flag (dhwaja) above the temple.
T: And where can you see it from?
C: From below
T: What is around you?
C: Nothing. I feel like a peacock feather is flying towards me.
T: Flying?
C: Yes
T: Keep breathing deeply from your abdomen. Now where youāre standing, youāll find a bridge. When I count from 3 to 1, find this bridge and go towards it.
T: Can you find this bridge
C: (IMR)
T: Are you aware of this bridge?
(Jay later told me that he saw a boat in the water when I asked him to find the bridge, when he felt he was lost. He also saw snakes in the boat, and huge Vishnujiās snakes [Sheshnag] all around the water, coming towards him and surrounding him. He was scared of the snakes)
C: It feels like Iām lost
T: You will find a bridge where you are standing. It will be right in front of you. You can always float above if it makes you uncomfortable.
T: What do you feel?
C: I can see two Gods
T: Which two Gods?
C: Shivji & Vishnuji
T: They have come to show you the way. To hold your hands and show you the way. You are not lost.
You may hold Shivji & Vishnujiās hands, and feel the peace, feel their blessing, feel their protection.
Keep breathing deeply from your belly. Relax your forehead, face, neck and shoulders.
What comes to your awareness?
C: I see a door frame (gate) in the middle of road. Through the door, there is darkness and I can see steps going down. There is light on the stairs. I can see Shivjiās shadow. I decended the stairs and Iām in front of Shivji (seated) and Vishnuji (standing). They are huge. Iām sleeping in Shivjiās laps (just as Iām about to ask my questions) and heās stroking my head. When I saw myself from afar, I saw there was light from my body and it got bigger and bigger and suddenly it turned into a Phoenix. (I felt in my entire body that when Shivji was stroking my head, that he was taking away all my negativity and fear. I felt that I have been reborn.)
T: You saw Phoenix! Wow!
C: It felt like I became a Phoenix.
T: Wow! Feel this divine peace.
How do you feel?
C: Very Good
T: Be in this moment and feel this peace, feel this calm, feel this loving energy.
C: Ganpati Bappa (Saw him in the Virat Roop/mighty form)
T: Beautiful. And what is happening? How do you feel?
C: I donāt understand
T: Is Ganpati bappa there? Who all are there?
C: No. He left.
T: What comes to your awareness? Look around and tell me what can you see?
C: I canāt see anything.
T: When I count from 1 to 3, come back to the garden of peace. This is the paradise of peace.
Find a place to relax. Be in this garden of peace. You can heal and rejuvenate in this garden. Feel the divine light.
Are you in the garden?
C: Iām not comfortable
(Later mentioned, He felt that heās lying down and people are surrounding him and watching him. He also felt someone stabbing a big sword into his back, around the neck)
T: Relaxā¦ it is only an experience you are having. You are completely safe. Keep breathing deeply from your abdomen. Relax your forehead, face, neck, shoulders. Release all the stress and tension from your body.
(Could still see he was stressed)
T: Remember the peace you felt when Shivji came. Remember the peace and protection you felt, when Shivji stroked your head lovingly. Remember the peace, remember the calm, remember the love you felt. Relaaax.
Keep breathing deeply from your abdomen. (He was relaxed)
T: Are you ready to come back?
C: No response
T: Do you want to explore further?
C: No
T: Do you wish to come back?
C: Yes.
On count of 1-10, emerged him back to normal state.
(Jay mentioned later that while I was doing the countdown, he first saw Suryadev. Then he saw a man walking from within the Suryadev and as he was walking out, Suryadev started looking like a flower. And then he even saw a moon on the edge of a tall building, a small monkey hugged the moon. Jay feels he was Hanumanjiās avatar.)
We discussed after the session, and he said that he also received the message from the Gods that āDonāt worry. Weāre all there with youā.
When the session started, he saw some flashes like a quick movie reel, which made no sense to him. Then, he even saw Maa Parvati when Shivji was going after blessing him. And he joined his hands.
After emerging, when he was looking at the wall and blinking in his normal state, he could still see the temple, Shivji with water flowing from his head and Lord Buddha on the wall clearly. Heās usually afraid to stay alone in a new place, but feels that along with his negativity, even his fear has vanished. He said he was feeling very good. And he was feeling complete bliss.
He said that he wanted to specify the details under trance, but he was unable to. As if the Gods didnāt want him to say. During his experiences with Shivji and Lord Buddha, he could feel a transformation happening.
I asked if he wanted to explore further in another session. I thought of doing FLP, but the client is very satisfied with the session.
I spoke to him the next day, and he slept peacefully that night, without waking up in between.
Event ==ć Negativity
Subjective Interpretation ==ćFearing his father, betrayal by cousin
Conflict ==ćLack of confidence, depression
Decision made to resolve conflict ==ćJoined Zumba, faith in Shivji
Script ==ćBeing locked in the room
Pain Assessment:
Before Session: 9/10
After Session: 0/10
