Session: 1
Vitals, Rati (Name Changed), F, 33+, 7/10, K
Secondary Dominant Sense: V
Eye Roll Test: 1
PLB – Pain level Before
PLA – Pain Level After
Themes:
-Fear of Anger? PLB 08 – PLA 0
-What was my past relationship with my Husband? PLB 02 – PLA 0
- What is the cause of my traumatic relationship with my mother? PLB 06 – PLA 02
-Fear of abandonment and seeking affection PLB 10 – PLA 0 - What is the source of my Procrastination? PLB 04 – PLA 04
Final Theme - Fear of Anger
Pain Level Before: 08
Pain Level After: 0
T- Therapist
C-Client
Therapist Remarks
History
A 33-year-old Mechanical Engineer from Orissa, now a Business Analyst at Standard Chartered, lives with her husband and in-laws. She has a twin sister and a younger brother, but her relationship with her parents and siblings is strained and almost non-existent.
After her brother was born, she felt neglected as her mother focused on him, and her father was mostly absent. Left to their own devices, she felt responsible for her elder sister despite being younger. This led to a deep sense of abandonment and the belief that her mother didn’t love or care for her.
When Rati was around 11-12 years old, she was constantly compared to her high-achieving cousin brothers.
In 2010, Rati entered a relationship seeking affection, though it wasn’t true love. He accused her of cheating, exposed private photos, and caused her burnout. Her mother helped her escape.
She got married in 2020 (arranged by her parents). She felt instantly connected to her husband as though he was meant to be in her life. However, her parents have since distanced themselves, not participating in any family events or contacting her in-laws.
When her father-in-law passed away, Rati couldn’t fully grieved his death, because her husband and Mother-in-law were breaking down and grieving but she stood rock solid and helped them handle the bereavement bravely.
Currently, her husband is the one person closest to her and her mother-in-law, treats her like an “Older Son” and allowing her to be herself without judgment.
Rati is fond of her baby and genuinely cares for her.
C- “My Legs [Left leg calf] it starts itching and skin peels out when I am angry or stressed. It came in my teenage. Ironically my father Poured hot oil when he was young, he also has a burn mark over here, maybe that has been transformed into me. After I am in a normal state it becomes normal or else it keeps itching.”
Fear – I have a fear that my husband will leave me. I am afraid that he will die sooner than I. I am afraid of losing my child. I am afraid of anything happening to her. And I have a fear of abandonment.
I often procrastinate until the last moment, becoming hyper-productive but feeling guilty afterward. I am highly self-critical and hard on myself.
Session -2
Dave Elman – Staircase- Garden – Cliff, Black box and white box–
Happy Memory - 1
[A vivid childhood memory of the client’s old home in Rourkela emerges, where she, around 6 or 7, played barefoot with her twin sister in the garden, both dressed in matching frocks, building sand temples and running joyfully.]
[The client became emotional, and I was grateful to be there to wipe away her tears.]
T- What happened?
C- I miss her so much… It has moved from there to her wedding day… Dulhan banke khadi hai, bahut pyaari lag rahi hai… We were so happy
T- Aur aap kya kar rahe ho?
[While crying, the client speaks with a smile]
C- Kaam
T- Kya kaam kar rahe ho?
C- Usko [Sister] bhook lag rahi hai so uske liye khana leke aa rahi thi, She was thirsty tou pani lao and then baraat aa rahi thi tou she went inside, usko garmi lag rahi thi, she was very frustrated, makeup utar jaayega, itna makeup karaya sab kharaab ho jayega, bahut garmi lag rahi hai, tu AC leke aa, tu fan leke aa, Pani leke aa, Chaadar leke aa…. She is going away… Usko vida karte karte sab ro rahe hain – Mumma, Papa, Masi, Badi Mummy, I couldn’t cry
T- What is the reason that you were unable to cry?
C- Pata nahi
T- What are you feeling at the time of vidai?
C- My heart is breaking… Please mat jao… please don’t go … Please don’t go
[The client started crying and sobbing uncontrollably.]
T- What are the thoughts, feelings and emotions you are going through now?
C- We have come together… Aise nahi jaana tha na… Vo haath pakad ke aayi thi na mere saath, khud chhod ke chali gayi… usko nahi jaana tha na… Aise nahi jaate na
[The client was weeping like a child.]
[Rati was close to her twin sister, but they grew apart as they aged. Despite Rati’s objections to her sister’s marriage, her sister proceeded and is now unhappy.]
T- Aapne kabhi unko ye baat boli?
C- Nahi… she was in so much pain, but I could not do anything… How could anybody hurt her… Usko mummy papa bhi kuch bolte the tou I used to fight with them and she was in so much pain that I couldn’t do anything… Mujhe pata hona chahiye tha, I couldn’t do…
T- What could you have done?
C- I told her don’t do get marry him, Maine mana kiya tha, mat karo shadi usse, I knew it in my Gut that it wasn’t right. I couldn’t do anything to stop, Mujhe pata tha it was not right, I could feel it, main kuch nahi kar paayi
[The client suddenly opened her eyes, experiencing a throbbing headache, and then took a break.]
[After some time]
2nd Happy Memory: -
[Coached Breathing]
T- What are you aware of?
C- 10th Board Results… The results have come out, I am in drawing room, telling it to my father, ‘Papa dekho itne number aaye hain’, so happy, he is crying… mujhe 1st time hug kiya uss din, he never hugged me before… He was so happy
[Coached Breathing]
3rd Happy Memory:-
C- College ka placement day… They are calling out names, it’s almost raat ke 8:30 -9:00 baj gaye, they are calling up names of people who have been selected, main aur meri friend side by side baithe hain, we are very hopeful ki ho jayega, they kept calling, last name was mine and meri friend ka name nahi aaya.
T- How did you feel at that moment?
C- I felt very sad for her but she was very happy for me… [Friend said] Tu deserving hai, tera hona hi chahiye tha… I was saying, Thank you… I know ki my Mom will be very happy… Hum auditorium se bahar aa rahe hain and I am calling her ki ‘Ho Gaya, Job lag gayi’ and then she said, ‘Ye sab mere prayer ki wajah se hua’, she was happy, papa was happy, I was relieved, more relieved than happy that I didn’t fail.
4th Happy Memory: -
C- I remember 2016 November in Goa… 2016 November Diwali thi… We were in Goa, there was the best vegetarian food to have ever had in my life. Matlab every bite was like fireworks… So place called Lotus Blossom… it’s such amazing food… I never had such amazing food in my life. I never felt so happy, so relaxed on a vacation before.
[Helped the client to come back from the trance.]
After the Session: - Main bahut emotional insaan hun. It has been very long time that I couldn’t cry or discuss a lot of feeling. Maybe after I got married all those emotions were surfaced like, I can cry more easily, I find crying very therapeutic for some reason. I did not know, my sister getting married had affected me so much.
Session – 3
Dave Elman – Staircase – Garden – Progressive Relaxation – Doorway – White Tunnel – Doorway Mountains – River – Pebbles. Through Mirrors of time
[Helped the client walk towards the door and pass through it]
T- Are you able to feel or see the door
C- Yes
T- What is the size of the door
C- 7ft tall and 3 ½ ft broad and it is green in colour. It has windows. Black glasses on the door.
T- Great, what is the material it is made up of?
C- It’s like a wood
T- What is the shape of the door?
C- Rectangular
T- How does this door open?
C- It has a knob
[Helped the client to open the door]
T- What are you aware of?
C- Trees
T- Anything significant is happening there
C- No
T- Let’s go a little further back in time… What are you able to feel or see?
C- Sunset, Butterflies, Green Grass, wahan grass hai, sunset ho raha hai and I am sitting with lot of butterflies…Purple view, vo sab dikh raha hai, There are so many people, falling from somewhere… vo circle mein vo aata hai jahan people are around and then it disappears and it became all blue and purple… it looks like, Khaai hai beech mein jara and people are falling
T- How are the people dressed up there?
C- It’s Black figurines… Can’t make out what they are wearing
T- At the count of 3-2-1 you will have a clear vision…3…2…1… Are you able to feel or see now?
[The client started snoring . I assumed the client had fallen asleep due to the lack of response, but she later confirmed that she was awake and viewed some images of Jaipur]
Session -4
Staircase – Garden – PR [Ball of Light] – Mirrors of time -Inner Child Healing
T- What are you aware of?
C- It’s a big room, Castle jaisa, I can see dining table, Porcelain utensils, Chandeliers, some English women wearing a shoes and a dress, she is just alone in that room, just nobody there.
T- Who does this English woman look like to you?
C- It’s me
T- What is this place called?
C- It look like some European place.
T- What exactly are you wearing?
C- It’s a long gown, sea green with laces and Boes and gloves, stilettos
T- What is your name?
C- I don’t know
T- What age it could be
C- 18-19
T- What time of day is it?
C- Mid-Morning
T- Ok, Any idea what could be the year?
C- No
T- Ok, Are there people around you?
C- There are 2 kids, there is a boy, there is a girl, and they are running around.
T- How old is the boy?
C- He must be 9-10
T- And Girl?
C- I think she is around my age
T- Okay, now allow yourself to call the girl and look into her eyes to see if she resembles someone from this life.
C- I can’t see her face, but I can see her eyes… She looks like my sister-in-law [Co-Sister]
T- Ok, let yourself ask her, what is this place called?
C- Glessner [Is a surname of German Origin, meaning ‘Glass Maker’]
[The client was murmuring something, and it was hard to make out what was being said.]
C- Bahut saare cosmos aur palaces hain.
T- Okay, now allow yourself to call the boy and look into his eyes to see if he resembles someone from this life.
C- The boy has left the room.
T- Ok, I will count from 3-2-1 and let’s go to the dinner time… are you able to find yourself near the dining table?
C- Yes
T- Ok, who all are there?
C- Girl is there, boy is there, I am going to the boy
T- Ok, let yourself look into his eyes
C- I couldn’t recognize
T- It’s ok, Who else is there?
C- Hum teen hi hain bas, There is an old women, vo khana serve kar rahe hain… She looks like my father
T- Ok, Just have a look at the wall to see if you can find a calendar there.
C- No
T- Ok, what are you having for dinner?
C- Potatoes, word I don’t know but it looks like chicken, vegetables hain, cake hai.
T- Ok, How are you associated with the castle?
C- I own that place… Ek aurat hai, uska rassi se haath bandh ke usko ghaseet ke leke jaa rahe hain, She is being tortured basically.
T- Aap kahan ho?
C- Main yahi hoon, I ordered her to be tortured
T- Let yourself look into that women’s eyes and see if she resembles anyone from this life?
C- She is my mother.
T- Ok, what is the reason you ordered her to be tortured?
C- She stole something… Vo Ladke ko chura kar le jaa rahi thi
T- Vo bachche aapke beta beti hain?
C- Vo beta beti nahi hain, bhai behan hain… Usko pakad liya… tou usko punishment diya hai ki, usko ghaseet ke le ke jao and band kar dou kahin pe
T- Vo lady kya keh rahi hai?
C- She is asking for help, she is crying for help… Mujhe bura lag raha hai but she needs to be punished… Boy is hugging me… vo khush hai
T- Ok, let’s go 5 years back now
C- Hum koi tou church mein hain, prayer ceremony chal rahi hai, saare English soldiers jaise baithe hain
T- Allow yourself to approach any soldier and let yourself inquire about the place, city or country
C- Old Britain
T- What is the year and date?
C- 1876… Looks like its spring, somewhere in April
T- Ok, you can allow yourself to ask him about your name?
C- Greta… Usne bulaya hai, ‘Greta come here’ karke… He is my husband… Mere husband ne bulaya
T- Who is your husband, you can let yourself look into his eyes and find out.
[Client smiling]
C- He is my husband, present life husband
T- What is his name?
C- Colin
[Rati verified that the person in the attached photo of Colin matches the individual she envisioned during the trance, but we were unable to find any trace of Greta.]
T- How old is he?
C- 27-28
T- How old are you, Greta
C- 25-27
T- Greta, do u have kids?
C- No
T- How is your relationship with your husband?
C- We are happy.
T- Is there anything significant happening there?
C- We are happy… We are dancing… dinner kar rahe hain… baith ke baat kar rahe hain…
T- What is your full name, Greta? Allow yourself to ask colin your full name?
C- Duke and duchess of new castle… it’s raining… andhera hai… vo jisko ghaseet ke leke gaye the, vo wapis aa gayi hai… She is sneaking on the window… My husband goes and opens the door… he is opening the door… Uske haath mein kuch hai
T- Kya hai uske haath mein?
[Client was restless, in discomfort and upset]
C- Uske haath mein knife hai aur usne husband ke gale mein chaaku maara… he is not moving… uske paas I am going to see him… now he is dead… Mujhe bhi chaaku maara… I am bleeding…
T- Kahan chaaku maara aapko?
C- Gale mein… Vo khade hokar upar hass rahi hai… I have left the body… not there anymore
Disidentification:-
T- What was your last conscious thought before your spirit left your body
C- Don’t Kill me
T- And how do you feel about it?
C- I feel scared
[Shallow Breathing]
T- What does that life have to do with your present life?
C- I was separated with my husband tou vo adhoora reh gaya tha na
T- Is there any other connection between this life and that life?
C- My siblings are separated… sister in law … I think that Chhota bachcha is my brother-in-law… Dono bhai behan banke aa gaye [Past life they were brother and sister but in this life they came as husband and wife.]… My daughter was not there, she is a new soul.
T- How do you know that your daughter is a new soul?
C- She was not there
T- Ok, what are you feeling right now?
C- Peace
T- Where are you currently?
C- Floating above… Grassland hai again… Fir jaake river ke side mein baith gayi main … I have a golden hair… wearing a white dress… Uske peeche ek treehouse jaisa kuch hai, neeche flowers hain… river is flowing… there is a grassland… sunset ho raha hai… I can feel my feet getting warm…
T- How old are you?
C- 11 or 12
T- What is this place
C- It looks like heaven… bahut sundar hai… bahut saare butterflies hain… shanti hai, bahut shanti hai… it’s my Happy Place.
T- Ok, So is it the same life when you died, floated above, and then came here?
C- Hmm… I am angry… I am angry because she killed me before time… she didn’t let me have children… jabardasti jindagi cheen li… I did not kill her lekin she killed me and my family
T- Did she kill the kids as well?
C- No… I was worried about my kids ki kya hoga
T- In which body part do you feel this anger?
C- Neck
[Coached Breathing]
T- And now, what do you need to do to get rid of this anger?
C- Forgive her
T- How would you forgive her?
C- Let it go
T- Now let’s go to another place where you felt the same anger.
C- I am angry because she took away my life… she took away my life because I punished her for some thing
T- Say again
C- I was feeling angry because she took away my life, she took away my life because I punished her
T- Let’s repeat it once more
C- Sab hisaab barabar ho gaya na
T- Kaise hua?
C- She took away my chance at life and I came through her… ab wahan se chali gayi main… ab kuch nahi hai
T- Ok, now at the count of 3-2-1 let’s go to another lifetime where you felt the same anger 3…2…1
[Long Pause]
C- Mam, can we stop, I don’t want to go any further
T- Ok, We will not go any further, but let’s work on what we have witnessed so far, and then we can come back from the trance.
C- Ok
T- Where are you currently?
C- Riverside
T- Ok, Now, regarding the anger you felt: if that anger had a shape, what would it look like?
C- Bat
T- What is the relationship between your anger and the bat?
C- I couldn’t say… Khud ka gussa hai… I was feeling very hurt jab usko [The lady who was stealing the baby] leke jaa rahe the but I didn’t do anything to stop… helplessness ki wajah se there was a lot of guilt… Jab she starves, [The client started talking to the lady] I was feeling bad for you and you did this to me, tou uss baat ka gussa hai… Mujhe bura lag raha tha, I didn’t want to do it but I had no choice. I didn’t thought to kill you but still let you go free but now you have come back and you killed me… But I forgive you.
Transformation:-
C- I am feeling vibrations on my forehead
T- Do you still have any carryovers, If so, how can they be resolved?
C- Now, there are no carryovers…. Ek church hai, usmein white fencing hai, bahut saare fences hain, beech mein passage hai, She is standing at the end of the passage… She is saying, ‘Ho gaya, ab kuch baki nahi hai’…
T- Who is standing in the church?
C- That lady who killed me… and I am happy, I am smiling at her… even I forgive you… it’s ok… I told her and I have start leaving… ghoom ke wahan se wapis aa rahi hun… I am feeling happy… I am feeling very divine… everything around me is white and bahut warm feeling hai. I am feeling good about myself.
T- Great… Where are you now?
C- I am at happy place
T- Ok, as you are already in a happy place, if you wish, you can request any guide, angels, higher beings or your own self to guide you further.
[Long Pause]
C- They are saying, ‘Wapis chali jao’.
T- Who is saying that
C- There is some old man, wood wala hai, yoda type kapda pehna hai usne, Aisa gaanv [Village] jaisa hai and he is saying go back.
T- Let yourself look into his eyes and see whom he resembles from your present life.
C- He looks like my father-in-law without his moustache
T- Ok… How about you, how do you look like
C- I look like similar how I was in my younger days…. Look like it is ex-boyfriend… father-in-law nahi hain…
T- Ok, Is there anybody else around you
C- No
T – What are you wearing
C- I am wearing a frock… child frock… 11-12 saal ki hun mein… vo bol raha hai, chale jao yahan se, this is not for you.
T- At the count of 3-2-1 let’s go further back in time… what comes to your awareness?
C- I am not able to, Vo happy place hai na, udhar hi hoon main, I am not able to go anywhere… Yahan Treehouse hai, river hai, golden flowers hain, river ke uss taraf grassland hai aur sunset ho raha hai and I am sitting here.
T- Ok, Would you like to meet your guardian angels or your father-in-law?
C- Father-in-law
T- Ok, At the count of 1, allow yourself to seek permission from the masters so that you can meet your father-in-law. You can also request your father-in-law to come and meet you.
[Long Pause]
C- No, I can’t
In- Utero Experience:-
T- No worries, Now, let’s go to in-utero, into your mother’s womb. Are you ready for that?
C- Yes
[Helped the client to go to in-utero]
T- What is coming to your awareness?
C- She is feeling very helpless
T- Who is feeling helpless
C- Maa
T- Ok, What could be the reason for her helplessness?
C- Vo akela feel kar rahe hain, koi support nahi hai, Rou rahe hain, kisi ko kuch bata nahi pa rahe hain… she is regretting conceiving… nahi hota tou achcha hota…
[During the delivery, when the Rati was being born]
I am feeling prickly in my feet, jaise koi noch raha hai… koi pair pakadkar kheech raha hai… I am outside and crying, vo [Ma] dekhkar frustrate ho rahi hain… Jab dekho rote rehte hain
T- How old are you now?
C- little baby… 27 days to 1 month old baby… Main Maa ko dhoond rahi hun, vo nahi hain… Phir dhoond rahi hun, phir nahi hain… Meri behan hai tou my attachment is with her… Ab Mumma ko nahi dhoond rahi hun… Back in the garden playing with her.
T- Ok, how old are you now?
C- 6 or 7yr… We have grown up now… Parental presence hi nahi hai kahin pe bhi… bas khana khane ke liye aate hain, kha ke sou jaate hain, fir chale jaate hain… There is no parental presence, it’s only my sister.
T- How do you feel when there is no parental presence?
C- Doesn’t matter, sister hai…… And then my brother is born… they are more hands-on, more present for him. My mother is more present for my brother… vo uski take care kar rahe hain… Uske saath khel rahe hain… uske liye present hain… When I am leaving for school she is present with him… when I am coming back from school she is present with him… It was not the case with us… I am resenting it… Usko pyaar karte hain, mujhe nahi karte… Uske liye hain, mere liye nahi hain…
T- What could be the reason for them behaving like this?
C- Feeling unwanted because she did not want us, because she was in a lot of physical pain and trauma… unko nahi chahiye tha… Vo kya hai vo cheez bound by her –‘Value system’, jo chhod bhi nahi sakte… tou jitna bare minimum hai, she has done… Sab unko bol rahe hain, 2-2 beti hain and she is regretting ki beti kyun hain… she wanted a son… She has son now, she is happy… as if, unki life ka purpose tha beta hona… Maybe that’s why she was stealing that baby boy in the past life… Unko beta chahiye tha… Now she has it, She is happy… but I am hating her for giving attention to him… Maybe because it feels like she is stealing again, tou that feeling of anger is resurfacing… so maybe I am convincing myself ki she is stealing him again and I should punish her… Mam, it’s giving me a headache mam… my head is hurting… Mam, bring me back … let’s stop
[I couldn’t take her any further due to her severe headache.]
[Coached Breathing]
T- At the count of 3-2-1, allow yourself to float above and be released from all the pain… 3-2-1… Do you still have a headache?
C- No
T- Are you floating above?
C- Yes
Meeting With Father-in-law:-
T- Now, at the count of 5 to 1, and with the permission of your father-in-law, the divine masters, and your higher self, allow yourself to meet them.
C- I can hear his voice, he is scolding me and saying, yahan kya kar rahi hai, ghar ja
[We both laughed]
T- Allow yourself to talk to him. You can spend some time with him and see if he has any messages for you, your husband, your daughter, or anyone in the family.
C- Hum bench pe baithe hain, he is telling me, ‘It’s all going to be ok’, Be yourself… ho jayega, sab theek ho jayega… tu theek hai na… tu, kar legi tu… tu Bas apna dhyaan rakhna, baki sab theek ho jayega.
T- Convey my regards to him.
C- He is saying, ‘Thank you’… He is saying, teri mummy bahut ghabrati hai, kitna sochti hai, kitna mana kiya phir bhi ghabrati rehti hai… Gullu [Name changed- Rati’s Husband] bahut miss karta hai, mujhe pata hai but mera ashirwaad hamesha uske saath hai… Bata dena… He is saying, it was time for him to go… he did not like the life here on the earth… Log achche nahi hain… kisi ka mann saaf nahi hai… He is saying, if you build a better world, I will come back soon… Vo bol rahe hain, jao abhi, der ho rahi hai…
T- Is there anything you would like to ask him, such as about procrastination?
C- He went away
[The client giggled]
C- He came back, he is saying, ‘Tum Aalsi ho, Subah jaldi utho’… work hard
[We both laughed]
T- How does he look like?
C- He is wearing full shirt, colored stripes hain… he is wearing a sweater… Vo mere mother-in-law ne unke liye buna tha… he is wearing khaki trousers… he is wearing Kee sandals… he is wearing glasses…
[The client was laughing]
C- [Client’s father spoke] Procrastination kuch nahi hota… subah jaldi utho… Aalsi ho
[We both laughed again]
C- Kya yaar… See you, Papa…. Bring me back mam… Ho gaya
T- Ok, what is it that you have come to learn in this lifetime?
C- Go with the flow
T- Amazing… Remember, everything belongs in the past. Let’s not carry it over to your present. Allow yourself to feel or see the butterflies. Are you able to feel or see them?
C- Yes
T- How many butterflies are there?
C- So many
T- What are the colours of the butterflies?
C- Blue
T- And now you can spend some time with them. Once you’re ready, let me know.
C- Ready
T- How are you feeling now
C- Happy
T- Good, do you have any pain in the body?
C- No
Inner Child Healing:-
T- If you allow me, may I perform inner child healing for you?
C- Yes…
[I performed Inner child healing for the client]
C- I am running and playing…
T- Ok, Remember the time when you felt the most unwanted, angry, or irritated.
C- Ghar ke andar
T- Ghar ke andar what are you feeling right now?
C- Hamesha mujhe akela kar dete hain
T- Akelepan mein kaisi feeling aa rahi hai
C- Sadness
T- Anger bhi hai?
C- Nahi… Sadness hai
T- Where in your body are you feeling this sadness?
C- My Neck
T- Let yourself ask this part of your body how old this sadness is?
C- 9-10 yrs. old
T- Ok, Now, imagine a 9 or 10-year-old little girl in this part of your body. This little girl is you when you were 10 yrs. old… allow yourself to ask this little girl what she needs?
C- She needs a hug
T- Allow yourself to hug her… What name would you like to give this little girl?
C- Rati
T- Permit yourself to pour your love onto Rati, and you can hold your baby as long as you need. When little Rati is ready, she can gently hold you close to her heart. What are you experiencing?
C- She is exactly like my daughter… I love you from the bottom of my heart…Thank you for choosing me… I love you so so much you don’t know…. Let’s go
[The client was experiencing tears of happiness.]
T- Ok, do you have any pain in the body
C- No
T- Great, and now it’s time to come back.
[Helped the client come out of the trance]
Integration:-
C: - My daughter is my guiding Angel. She has come here for me. She is in this world for me. She has that Aura you get feeling. She is here to heal me.
I have always been guide, I did not know matlab uss insaan ko punish kiya maine and I am feeling bad, ‘Why I punished her’, matlab that is my job, that is my role, I have to do that but even then, I was feeling bad ki nahi I shouldn’t have done that. That guilt is always there. But when she came and stabs me, back of my head ye chal raha hai ki. ‘I deserve this’ and at the same time I am scared because I have my brother and sister and they will be left back. Unka kya hoga, I am not there. Matlab. So many mixed feelings that, main hoon I want her to ask ki why you did something wrong and there was consequences but because I punished her I am feeling that I deserve it but I don’t want to deserve it. I don’t want that feeling and it kept going on and on and on… vo ussey kheench ke le jaa rahe hain, she is coming back I was like ‘nahi’… it kept happening in a loop. She is not saying anything, she is just screaming for help but I am feeling bad, I cannot do anything, and that kind of feeling I felt a lot of times in my present life also. I have done what is right, I am feeling bad about it but it is the right thing to do. Maybe that is that karmic debt and probably I was supposed to be reunited with my brother-in-law and Co-sister because vo mere bhai behan hain and that was the family that I had with my husband tou now I am back here. Wahan se nikal ke aana hi tha maybe that is why I was born through her. Probably that is why I got married at my in-laws’ house because that is my ‘Home’. That is why I feel so much of affection, there is a lot of affection, there is a lot of attachment, even if I have not known them for that long.
T- Do you still feel angry?
C- I am only feeling relieved. A lot of relief and I won’t say happy, but I am calm. Pehle guilty feel hota tha, but abhi I don’t feel that.
Ex-boyfriend -He was like some chaukidar in that garden, I was trying to get into a realm but he was Like, ‘Nahi, Nahi, this place is not meant for you, go back’. Maybe that lesson was to him coming into my life was probably a lesson of, ‘What I should not do’ or ‘What I should not be doing’. Because of that relationship I had a lot of clarity of what I did not want in my life or what kind of person I don’t want to be in my life. He was also probably a spirit angel ki vo uss time ke liye, uss lesson ke liye he was there and I kept going back because I had not learnt my lesson ki it is ok to get away from people who are hurting you and just because they are in your life, not necessary ki vo lifelong rehna jaruri hai. I had not learnt that for a very long time.
I am feeling good about myself. I am a good person. Maine khud ke baare mein achcha nahi bola hai Kabhi bhi, for the first time I am feeling that ‘Main achcha insaan hoon’.
Soul Connection - Good thing is my husband is my Soulmate, in my previous life also he was my husband and now also he is my husband.
About Biological Father:- Father we could not explore. He was not existent anywhere. I think I saw him somewhere. That Nanny was my father. That same grumpy face and was just moving around ek dum silently, kaale kaale kapde pehan ke, vo puraane jamane mein vo English nanny’s hoti thi na, black color ka dress pehan ke, white colour ka topi pehan ke, he was looking like that.
My father is just the casualty between the relationship between my mother and my father. Unka koi role nahi hai. Maybe my father is a split soul of my mother. Fragmentation bhi ho sakta hai because there is no tangible love between my parents that we have seen. Tou it feels like ki, she was always the incharge of the house, he was always incharge of providing. So, my father doesn’t have invested energy in nurturing us. Unko aata bhi nahi hai tou I feel probably that maybe the bad part and the good parts have split that way. I mean, he is a kind soul, unko pata nahi hai, I am just figuring out this thing. With mother it is so intense.
Closure:-
T- Are you satisfied with the session?
C- Yes
T- Did you find the answers to your questions?
C- Yes
T- Did you find the resolution
C- Yes
Reports and Recommendation: -
-I recommended Rati that an additional 1-2 sessions would be required to address the residual pain.
-Yoga
-Meditation
-Start reading Bhagavad Gita, it will answer your all the questions.
-Journal your dreams, thoughts and meditation visions.
-Spend quality time with your loved ones.
-Enjoy your hobbies.
**Thank You**
