As a therapist, my work revolves around helping others find light in their own darkness. But what I’ve come to understand more deeply in the past two years is this: to truly hold space for another’s healing, I must be committed — every single day — to my own.
This path is not linear, and healing doesn’t happen in one grand epiphany. It happens in small, often silent shifts. Through practices. Through listening. Through surrender.
Some time ago, I began to hear a soft yet insistent voice within — what I now call my inner therapist. It’s not a part of my mind, but a presence from my soul — the divine within — gently nudging me toward my truth. One day it said clearly:
“Go and heal yourself. On every level — physical, mental, emotional. Continue. It is time.”
I listened. And everything began to change.
The Call to Stillness: My Visit to the Naturopathy Centre
Just 7–8 days ago, I returned from a powerful 5–6 day stay at a Naturopathy and Ayurvedic Yoga Meditation center. This experience felt divinely orchestrated — as if my inner therapist had booked the retreat long before I arrived. Those few days were more than just a break; they were a deep remembering of the body’s natural intelligence, and the soul’s silent wisdom.
I allowed myself to step into stillness — to be held by the earth, nourished by sattvic food, moved by yogic breath, and cleansed by simple living. There were no distractions, no noise, no masks — only truth.
I fasted, I breathed, I meditated, I walked barefoot on the grass before sunrise. I cried. I slept like a child. And somewhere in that simplicity, something deep inside began to heal.
I realised:
- The body doesn’t forget how to heal. It simply waits for us to stop interrupting it.
- Fasting isn’t deprivation — it’s sacred listening. It is the body’s language for silence.
- Nature never hurries, and yet everything heals in time.
This retreat reminded me of the forgotten art of aachaar (ethical conduct), vichaar (pure thoughts), vyavhaar (conscious action), and khaan-paan (intentional nourishment). These aren’t just lifestyle choices — they are doorways to soul alignment. When these are in balance, our inner world becomes harmonious, and outer chaos loses its grip.
The Gifts of Self-Regression & Shadow Work
Alongside this, my daily meditation and inner work — especially self-regression and shadow work — have illuminated the emotional knots I never realized I was carrying. I met parts of myself that were buried under duty, expectation, or fear. I listened to their stories without judgment. Some wounds weren’t asking to be fixed — just to be felt.
And in those moments, I understood:
"We don’t heal by becoming someone new. We heal by remembering who we were before the world told us to forget.”
Triggers, patterns, and emotional reactions began to make sense. I could finally see why I responded in certain ways, whatpain lay underneath, and how to release it with compassion instead of shame.
The Unfolding of Purpose
I now know my inner therapist — my soul — is guiding me not only toward healing but toward purpose. It is slowly helping me uncover the deeper “why” behind my presence on Earth. The gifts I was meant to share. The lives I am meant to touch.
Some answers are still forming. Some pieces of the puzzle haven’t fully revealed themselves. But I’m not in a rush anymore. I’ve come to accept that:
Wisdom unfolds in silence, not speed.
Clarity comes not when we seek harder, but when we soften into trust.
Gratitude for the Inner Healer
When I look back, I see the divine thread connecting it all — every event, every challenge, every teacher, every tear. What once felt random now feels like a perfect sequence of soul lessons, each preparing me to step more fully into who I’m meant to be.
To my inner therapist — my soul, my sacred mirror, the spark of the divine within — thank you.
You’ve taught me that I don’t need to have it all figured out to move forward.
You’ve reminded me that healing is not perfection — it’s presence.
A Message for Fellow Healers
If you are a therapist, healer, guide, or space-holder — know this: your own healing is the most important tool you will ever carry. Your integrity, alignment, and ability to feel deeply will determine how deeply you can walk with others. Do your own work. Every day. Not because you’re broken — but because you’re here to lead from wholeness.
Healing is not a destination. It is a devotion.
Let us continue to walk hand in hand with our inner therapist — humbly, honestly, and bravely.
With love
Sshipra Bhardwwaj
