Part 3
Mrs PB
6 months later…
Today is my father’s first death anniversary.
IBS healed…No episodes after last session except for occasional burning stomach and navel region whenever someone uses foul language or I fear deadly disease…I have that fear occasionally…
I did a lot of decluttering in life…
Have been daily blessing and forgiving husband.
Son is much better.
I will live with him until I die but not in delusion…I want to live together for my son’s sake. He loves his father.
Why am I pulling myself from starting my homeo practice?
I have tremendous desire but something holds me back. I keep thinking I myself have so many issues relationships, health, son’s health issues, what will I do for others?
My personal life is not ok…
But I want to start my practice.
Deep relaxation technique…IMR
C: I am seeing many things at a time…
T: That’s okay…
C: I’m seeing sparrows
T: Are you in a body?
Are you watching from above?
Breathing deep…
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C: I see a man
Not sure if it’s me
T: Alright …take your time…
For things to become clearer…
C: He’s kind of fakeer… He’s in light…
Long , grey dress…
Can’t say particular religion…
T: Where are you observing him from?
C: I am just watching… He’s bright…Like sun is above him…
(Waits)
T : Go on , you are doing wonderfully well…
C: On top of him is sun…
Happily walking…Can only see his behind… Can’t see his face…May be middle age 45… 50…
T: Follow him and see where he’s walking to…
C: Small puppy behind him… Yes taking us somewhere , behind puppy a small girl is there…that’s me…
T: Small girl… how old…What are you dressed as…
Are you related to him…
C: Don’t know…
T: Are you happy going with him…?
T: What kind of a place is it…?
Can you describe?
C: Narrow road… He’s going somewhere…It is kind of valley…
Not able to make out…
T: Have you all reached some place?
C:…Still walking…
T: Look at your hands
Do you have anything in your hands…(looked like she was holding onto something by her hand movements)
C: I hold his hand…
T: You said it’s a valley…
Are there houses around?
C: No
T: Is it a pleasant journey?
C: Yes
I think that man is my father…
…
Silence
T: Go to a significant event in that life…
Breathing …
(Mumbles something…)
T: Have you reached somewhere…
C: I am getting many images…Mixed…
Few from the burning…Few from valley…
T: you are doing well…just allow the memories to float and become clearer…Your higher self will know…Of there are traces if unhealed parts your subconscious mind will help you pick it up from where you left it…You are doing fine…
Breathing…
C: I’m going back to the same event where I was burning…Crying for help…Person watching…
T: Go on, you don’t need to feel the pain anymore…Observe, become aware…
C: She’s burning in a house…
Person watching not helping she’s crying a lot
(Winces, squirms…)
T: Are you feeling any sensation anywhere in your body?
C: Yes stomach
(…Breathing…Taking her deeper…
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C: I’m seeing my childhood scene again…
6,7 year old
In the neighborhood a lady locked and burned herself…
I experienced the burning as if it happened to me.
I don’t know the lady…
May be I made a story in my head…
One of my best friend’s mother had burnt herself…
I experienced her pain…
Whenever I see someone’s burnt, I see the skin and feel the pain
T: Where now are you feeling the pain…
C: Right hand…
(Wincing, painful expression on the face)
T: you don’t have feel the pain anymore…
C: I want to forgive my mother for burning my hand and thighs in childhood…
This life…
Whenever she used to get angry she used to heat that ladle and burn me…
I feel the pain n burning…
I have always been burnt I feel…
T: Are you still experiencing pain?
C: Tremendous pain, fear…
I used to wait for dad to see my pain and say some good words…Even if he came he would never notice me in pain.(sobs)
I have waited in railway station to get a glimpse of him(sobs)
They were busy fighting, busy hitting me…Nobody came to console.
T: Where in your body are you feeling it now…
C: Chest
T: What do you want to do about it now
C: Want to forgive my mom and dad…
I’m only remembering injuries throughout life…Only burns…I must forgive…
T: I leave you for a few moments to forgive…let me know when done…
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T: were you able to forgive ?..
C: Yes
T: Is pain still there
C: No…Not feeling the pain anywhere…
T: Just scan your body
C: I get Severe burning in urethra…Since childhood…That is coming to memory…
T: Go to the root cause…
Breathing deep
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C: I’m…
Im seeing that lady again burnt fully
From top to bottom…
Seeing that again n again
T: Traces of unhealed parts still coming up…But now you know to heal…You are good at that
C: Whenever I listen to harsh words abuses…its like burning in anger…
T: how do you relate burning urethra to that lady burning??
T: What is that burning lady feeling?
C: Angry
T: What’s she angry about
C: Nobody helping her
T: Go few days or months behind…And see what’s happening…
C: Why did they do it? hmmm…
She’s been physically abused…
Rape may be…Going through lot of pain and insult…Repeatedly…(emotional)
T: Floating above…
You are in a safe space
You can watch/observe or simply allow it to come to your awareness…
I’m with you, you are safe…
C: Person outside not a godly person
He has abused her…
T: go on…
C: Used to abuse her
She stayed with child
He did wrong things with her
T: How old is child…
C: 2,3 years
T: Who is that child look into the eyes
C: Getting feeling of my brother ( from this life)
(Cries…)
T: Was she living alone with her son
Where is the child’s father?
C: There was a man she loved, had son…
He didn’t take care
T: Who is that man…Go to a significant point…
You have decided to heal the root cause…You are doing really well
C: She was not married, they loved.
T: Why and who set her ablaze
C: I am seeing everything
(Crying…)
I am seeing that lover as my father(from this life)
That’s why it is so difficult to forgive my dad.
(Cries…)
T: Take your time…be comfortable…
C: Man wants to take advantage of me…Watching me…He put me in fire…
Nobody helping me
I was burnt alone…
T: Where’s the child?
Father took the child after I died
T : Go back to beforethat occuring…Anything more significant?
T: Can you take yourself to a happier memory time with your lover
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C: Child and that person.tall old buildings
T : Which part of India
C: Maharashtra… Don’t know…
Rich person landlord
Left me after baby was born…
C: I don’t want to see any more
T: From your higher self
You want to heal once and for all, right…
See how you want to do it
C: I’m seeing only abuses
T: let your inner wisdom take the highest perspective…
You are a beautiful being of love.
I want you to understand the connection, lesson for your current life
C: Want to heal all those memories.
T: You wanted to heal parents…
C: I want to forgive, heal my father
T: Go to the point where you left your body…
T: Do you see your body ?
C: yes, beneath down
T: Are you in light
What is your awareness from that light…
C: I know what is troubling me
I don’t want these 2 ppl
My father and my husband
T: Are you seeing light…
Go higher and higher
Are you feeling the peace…
C: Yes
T: What’s coming to your awareness…Are you seeing guides,
C: Hearing voices
Hearing Z 's voice…I hear him say,
Nothing will happen…All is fine.
Cries
Only hearing voice…Light is speaking to me
You are safe…
T: Beautiful beautiful…Stay in light…Take all the blessings
What are the messages, words…
Feeling , words, messages…
You are free to go around in the light…
How do you feel…
C: Free, calm
T: Ask the light for messages
Ask the light to connect you to your father…So that you can both heal…
C: I’m seeing my father in light
T: How beautiful…
Speak to him
You have so much love in heart that you can forgive and heal annnything.
T: What’s your father’s message.
C: Recently he used to say you are a lucky child …I don’t have to take care of you
Silence
T: Are you still with him
C: Yes
T: What’s the final message
C: Safe
T: Are you able to forgive father completely and Mother completely
C: I need to forgive Sannyasi
Difficult but I have to so I want to
T: How would you like to do that…
C : Forgive Totally
T: What do you want to bless him with…
C: Lover came back as father so that he could undo/heal what he did…
But he continued to abuse…
But he became my father,I have gratitude for him…
Sannyasi came back as husband , to give me gift of my son . I have gratitude for him.
My mother has come back as my son. (This she got in one online short session I did for her)…I have gratitude for her…
All for karmic rebalancing and healing… so many opportunities for healing…(laughs)
Not able to feel any trace of unforgivenness now…
T: Are you feeling complete?
C: Yes feeling free
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Feedback after a few weeks…
Much calmer atmosphere at home.
She is very much composed…No fears anymore…
Burning almost gone.
Decision to stay with husband for the sake of child. Happy and relieved about her decision.