With the guidance of our beloved teacher Venu, blessings of Sri Ramana Maharshi, Ramakrishna Paramahamsa and Mahavtar Babaji and divine grace of ma Kali -
MK, Male, 51 years old
Hypnotizability score - 8/10
VAK - 4/5/6
Eye roll test - 3
Issue to get rid of - Allergic Asthama
Theme: Suppressed emotions, fear of something unknown
Pain level - 5
History taking (abridged):
Mahesha is the middle born child in a family of five.Born in a town in Dakshina kannada (DK) and raised in a village in DK. Father is into farming and mother is a home maker. There are two sisters, one older and one younger. Both are married. Mahesha was a brilliant young child, a prodigy who was not understood by his family. But otherwise there was no issue in the family. His childhood was sad since he suffered from Asthama since the age of 3 years. At the age of 5 when he was at mother’s maternal uncle’s place he saw an elderly spiritual lady he was scared of. She made him sit on her lap and taught him to chant “Om namo Bhagavate Vasudevaya”. Since then he has been meditating regularly. He was very passionate about chess and wanted to pursue a career in chess. However, his parents were unaware of this. Wanted to be a world champion but never told his family since he was afraid that they will scold him. He taught himself chess and represented at state and national level. His ranking is in 1700s in Chess. His parents got to know about him playing chess when his photo was published in the newspapers as he won the state level championship.
School was good but college was difficult. He lived away from family and roommates were dominating. He was homesick. Did not complete bachelors in physics and moved to MA in Kannada. That was good.
Started working as a Kannada lecturer and moved to administration of colleges. Is well known for his work in the education industry and well respected.
There were some traumatic incidents where a well trusted male acquaintance who was assumed to be spiritual turned out to be someone who hurt him and while working in a Pre university college in Karnataka, he was not paid for 4 months and when asked for salary someone in administration was also a local politician and threatened him and his family members.
He had Corona in 2021 and suffered severely. He was admitted at the hospital which ran out of oxygen cylinders and he kept himself alive by performing kriya he had learned until he got the oxygen cylinder. He has had fear of death since then.
He performs Kriya Yoga and meditates regularly. This has helped reduce his asthma pain from 9 to 5. He feels that since he has allergic asthma from age 3 it could have some link to past life. He mentioned that when he met Hamsa baba recently he felt some kind of energy flow that he had never felt before. Since then he has an affinity towards Krishna.
Recurring dream - Astral travel to a cave with creepers/vines and rope - not a pleasant feeling
Current Life Situation:
- Family of 3, he, his wife and a son.
- Support system: Meditation
Goals:
- Wants to start an advanced science college in Karnataka
- Better health
| Event | MK has not able to reach his full potential and despite being brilliant hesitates due to fear of some unknown |
|---|---|
| Subjective Interpretation | 1. Lives in search of liberation and going inward more satisfying than achieving anything materialistic |
- Seeks death for liberation|
|Conflict| Inner conflict - having to live the life for which being born versus seeking higher self|
|Decision made to resolve conflict| Meditation, kriya yoga as the means to reach what he is seeking|
|Script|Multiple triggers, difficulty expressing painful events, wanting to dedicate his life in the service of god|
Stages 7 to 11 were completed.
IMR was established.
Dave Elman, Visualization of Light, Garden of Peace
Session 1 and 2: Happy Memory (HM) and Reframing current life traumas: ~2 hours 6/5/2025
Client slipped into trance during Dave Elman and Ball of light, client mentioned that he saw beautiful sunflowers in the garden and was able to experience a happy memory.
During Reframing of current life traumas there were visible signs of physical distress. Client mentioned vomiting sensation before going to mother’s womb and all throughout from the cliff until he was back in the garden.
Saw some nurse while in-utero, heard sounds of the vehicles. Felt hot and safe in the mother’s womb.
Client had his tonsils removed during the 7th grade. During reframing of traumas the throat pain started.
Saw silhouette of Ma Kali just before getting in utero.
Session 3: PLRT, 2 hours 7/05/2025
T: Therapist said
C: Client said
After Progressive Relaxation and ball of light, client relaxes further in his Garden of Peace. Then followed it with Temple visualization. Client walks through a door that calls to him the most.
Past Life 1:
T: What comes to your awareness?
C: I see a yogi with abundance of energy
T: Do you know who this yogi is?
C: No… Yogi’s body disappears and Krishna appears, not in physical form but in energy form. I can hear “Omkara” from Krishna’s body… I feel his energy. Yogi has a transparent body and I can see his chakras. There is light… Light flowing through chakras.
T: That is such a beautiful experience… Do you know how you got there?
C: I went to the yogi in search of a guru. I wanted “deekshe” (initiation by a Guru into spiritual path)
T: Very good. Did you receive deekshe?
C: Received deekshe and my guru was in the form of Krishna.
T: After a few seconds… Take as much time as you need and let me know when you are ready to move from there?
IMR yes
T: As I count from 3…2…1…Go back to the time of birth of that lifetime and tell me if you feel anything or see anything.
C: I see a mountain… Mountain with snow… I hear the sound of water… I am leaving to become a Sanyasi, I am seeking permission from my mother, she is calling out but I cannot hear her. I am going…
T: Do you hear your name?
C: No
T: Does the name of the place come to you?
C: No
T: Time period?
C: No
T: Around what age are you?
C: About 16 years of age
T: Where are you going?
C: I am walking in a forest… I reach a place where there are people sitting on a platform built around a big tree.
T: Do you recognize anyone?
C: No
T: What are you doing there?
C: I took an amla from someone, from some home.
T: Okay… after having amla what are you doing?
C: I reached a temple. There are many people like students around me. They are treating me like a guru
T: How old are you?
C: About 25 years old.
T: What are you wearing?
C: Dull saffron cloth, I have a long sturdy stick in my hand, tonsured head with a tuft of hair left at the back. I am in an ancient Shiva temple. There are many people there. Many yogis/monks.
T: Do you recognize the temple or any persons there?
C: No…
T: What happens next?
C: I am in a cave with a different yogi. I am asking him to become my guru. He refuses to become my guru.
T: Why is he refusing?
C: He says I am ahead of him in sadhana. He says Jaganmathe (Divine mother) will show me the way.
T: Where is this place?
C: Not sure, looks like the Himalayas. There are some animals like deers around.
T: (Client is knotting the eyebrows) Is something bothering you?
C: I can hear something in Sanskrit, trying to listen to it.
T: After some time… Are you able to hear it?
C: No… only random letters and words passing in front of the eyes… No clarity…
T: Okay… take your time
C: I cannot hear anything or see anything… There is only darkness but I can feel the energy. I am feeling contented in that energy… It is Devi! She is making me feel like I am her son… I can only see her feet… IT is dark blue… Greenish blue. IT cannot be touched it is just vast space… I want to scream “Ammmaaaa”
T: Go ahead… You can scream amma here in this space
C: I am jumping with joy or ecstasy. I am dancing…
T: What a blissful state to be in… Is she sharing any message with you?
C: No… I am just with her… She is with me…
T: Can you share what form she is in
C: no answer
T: After a few minutes… Can you share what you see or feel?
C: I just want to be here with Jaganmathe…
Over 20 minutes have passed
T: I see you are growing… Is everything okay?
C: I have a trident being pierced through my crown… It is making me happy… There is no pain
T: Do you know why this is being done?
C: To activate the energy within me
T: How do you feel as the energy is being activated?
C: I feel like I am without a body… I do not have a body… I have become a part of the Universe.
T: Thanking the divine mother for allowing us to experience this… Is her feet still visible?
C: I am an empty space… I am the energy… I am everywhere…
T: Soak in as much energy as you can take
C: Energy is all around me… I am not taking anything… I have no feelings… Just nothingness…
After spending a couple more minutes in silence…
T: Where are you after this experience?
C: I am dancing to the rhythm - Dham Dham Dham Dham Dham Dheem Sou or Bham Bham Bham Bham Bham Bheem Sou…
My mother told me that I allowed you to become Sanyasi and now you should give me a grandson. So you have to take another birth to fulfill that promise.
T: Do you recognize the mother?
C: It feels like the current life mother…
T: What comes to your awareness now?
C: Nothingness + Shakthi (energy)… It is Krishna… Krishna is nischalate and shakti. Entire Krishna’s body emanates Omkara.
After a few minutes, indicates to be emerged…
When emerged client’s eyes are filled with water from the blissful experience… I could feel some of the bliss he was experiencing…
Session 4: PLRT ~ 3 hours 7/5/2025
Past Life #2
Progressive relaxation, ball of light, garden of peace and staircase, affect bridge
T: Are you able to see the bridge?
C: Yes
T: As I count from 3 to 1 allow yourself to go to the otherside of the bridge
IMR yes
T: Are you able to feel anything around you or hear anything?
C: It feels like morning time, there are some mountains around me, could be early morning… Sunrise time… Body feels light…
T: Are you able to see anything?
C: No
T: Are there any sensations you feel?
C: Area around me feels cool, my body is warm… My feet are in water…
T: What are you doing?
C: I am just watching the nature around me…
T: Okay… how are you feeling?
C: I have breathing issues… I am wearing a black panche (wrap around cloth) like the ones worn by Ayyappa devotees.
T: Does anything else come to your awareness?
C: No
T: As I count from 5 to 1 allow yourself to go to the beginning of this life
C: I am born
T: Do you hear any sounds? See anything?
C: People are speaking in malayalam… Kerosene lamp lit all around… It is a hut… I can hear the sound of water…
T: Do you hear anyone calling your name?
C: No
T: Do you hear or see any board indicating the name of the place?
C: No
T: Time period?
C: No
T: Does anything else come to your awareness?
C: No
T: Okay… allow yourself to go to the next significant event in that life
C: I am in a grassland… There are some people working here… Dark clouds have started to form, like it’ll rain heavily… Everyone is going back
T: What are you doing here?
C: I am watching… I remain there…
T: Okay. what are you watching? How old are you?
C: Maybe about 30 years old… I am looking at a snake…
T: Okay what snake are you looking at?
C: A king cobra… It is all black
T: What is the snake doing?
C: The snake has its mouth to my forehead
T: That must have been scary…
C: I am not scared…
T: Okay… what emotions are you feeling?
C: The snake hits my forehead… The posion is spreading throughout my body… There is a feeling of dark energy… The energy of the snake is pulling me… I am not scared
(Visible discomfort on the face)
T: Breathing deeply from your abdomen, allow yourself to relax your forehead, your jaws… Continue to focus on deep even comfortable breaths… What comes to your awareness now?
C: The snake has turned golden and my body is filled with golden light… There is light all around me… No more darkness or clouds…
T: Do you know where the place iss?
C: I am on earth…
T: Is anyone with you?
C: I am alone, my body has fallen down… Someone is running towards my body and leave with the body.
T: Do you recognize that person?
C: No… They burn my body and it turns black… I am feeling happy that I am not in that body…
T: What made you unhappy in that body?
C: Breathing issues… There was a lot of dust in that place and I could not breathe well… People were giving me some herbal decoction but drinking that was not helping me… They are rubbing my back to help me breathe…
Life Between Lives -
T: Are you feeling better? How are you feeling?
C: I am saying Vasuki Devayah Namaha… I am free and I am in space… I can still see that snake… It is all white now…
T: What are your feeling towards the snake that killed you?
C: I am happy… I wanted to be liberated and that snake granted me that… I am with the soul of the snake…
T: What happens now?
C: I am trying to enter golden light but the snake is stopping me…
T: Do you know why it is stopping you?
C: Snake says I cannot enter golden light now, I have to take another birth… I am floating around…
T: Where are you floating around?
C: I am looking for something…
T: What are you looking for?
C: I am going to different temples… I am not in a physical body… I want to be liberated, I am searching for ways to neutralize my karma, I want to attain moksha…
T: I understand you are looking to attain moksha… Are you able to find a path?
C: There is snow… There is water… A cave… There is a rishi with transparent body meditating there… He is holding shambhavi mudra… I am seeing him, he cannot see me… I am waiting
T: What are you waiting for?
C: I can hear Om Namo Bhagavate Vasudevaya coming from Rishi’s body… I am trying to go close to him but I cannot… The Rishi’s body is on fire… The body turned into ash… There is light coming from Rishi’s body… It burns all the darkness in my body… There is an overflow of energy in my body…
T: How are you feeling?
C: I feel Krishna is standing in front of me, behind me, all around me… Everywhere… merged with the universe… There is stillness… I am in some body but it is not a physical body… It feels like water… I am in space but I am not sky… I see chakras through which energy flows… Breathing happens from the crown (sahasrara)… I am the truth… My astithva is the same as Krishna’s… My body is not the truth… My body is limiting me from becoming one with Krishna… To come out of my body and become one with Krishna I have to take birth again…
T: Thank you for sharing such a wonderful experience with profound messages with me…
Past Life 1 Classic Flow:
T: Where are you now?
C: There are some brahmins speaking malayalam… I see a woman… She has fever… I enter her body… Her fever goes away… I hear someone learning the vedas… There are two kids learning vedas, they are from the neighborhood… Only the husband and wife live here… I hear vedas being recited…
T: What are you doing in the woman’s body?
C: I am trying to come out but I cannot… I am in her womb. I can hear everyone talking… I want to come out… People here seem to have wrong notions on things… I want to help them understand…
T: What wrong notions do they have?
C: They say Jeeva is different from Atma or paramatma… I want to tell them that it is the same… I am not able to come out… A Sanyasi comes to our house… He meditates and puts his hand on my mother’s head… Some women come… Lamps are lit… I am born…
T: Beautiful… How are you feeling? Do you hear anyone calling your name?
C: Shiva Kutti and Arya are the names I hear… I am not sure if they are my names…
T: Where are you?
C: In Kerala
T: Do you know where in KErala?
C: No
T: What are you doing now?
C: I am arguing with my father
T: What are you arguing with your father about?
C: About upanayanam (holy thread ceremony)… I am being pulled forcefully and taken somewhere… There is some Guru teaching vedas… I am resisting
T: That can be hard… Can you recall where this place is? How old are you?
C: My childhood… Not sure about my age… They are shaving my head… Only a tuft of my hair is left at the back… I am sitting now… My Guru does not want to teach me… They want to take me back home…
My father is happy to see me, he is trying to hug me… He falls down… He is dead…
T: (There is visible signs of extreme distress) breathing becomes shallow and client lets out a moan… Focus on deep abdominal breathing… Remember you are visiting a memory… Focus on your breath… Slow… deep… Even breath… Relax your eyebrows… Relax your forehead… Relax your jaws… Slow breathing… (facial muscles start to relax)…
T: Can you share what is happening now?
C: They are burning his body…
T: That must be very difficult for you as a young boy to watch…
C: My mother is all alone at home… Someone is trying to enter the house… Mother screams… I wake up… I light the lamp… I am laughing… The person who entered the house screams Kali Kali and runs out… My mother hugs me and cries…
T: It must have been difficult… Do you know who that person was or what they wanted?
C: No… They come back the next day and apologize to us… They fall at our feet and ask for forgiveness… I do not know who they are…They say they saw Kali devi at our home… I look for her everywhere… I do not find her in our home… I go to a Kali temple nearby… I do not find her there either…the same scenes as yesterday are repeating… I am telling my mother that I am leaving the house and until I find Kali devi I am not returning home. Give me permission to go…
(Client repeats the time he goes to the cave and gets deekshe or initiation from a guru who is meditating in the cave as communicated in Past life 1.)
T: Do you see anything now?
C: My life has come to an end… I am feeling guilty…
T: What is making you guilty?
C: My mother gave me permission to go but she wanted a grandson… I did not give her a grandson… Krishna is asking me I gave you birth, what will you give me? I want moksha but I have to fulfill my promise to my mother… I want to write the story of Krishna like in Mahabharata. Kali and Krishna are the same…I have 3 obligations to fulfill before moksha… One life for Jaganmathe… One for Krishna - another form of Jaganmathe and one for my mother…
Past life #3
C: I am writing Devi Shloka…
T: Can you recall which shloka?
C: There are many… I am wearing a turban on my head… I feel like others are mocking me, making fun of me…
T: Do you know why they are making fun of you?
C: I am walking out of a woman’s house…
T: Who is that woman?
C: She is in a saree… She is NOT MY WIFE! (says sternly)… I am feeling guilty that I went to her house… But that woman is supporting me… She is a courtesan…THIS IS WRONG… I should not have done that… I should not have gone to her house…
T: (visible signs of distress…) focus on breathing… It might feel difficult as we are conditioned by society norms… Try to look beyond them… See what roles you both play in each others lives…
C: I have left home… I am staying with the courtesan… She gives me free food and I wanted shelter…She gave both to me…
T: Okay… Where was your home?
C: It was a temple… I have left that temple and living with her. I have found Kali devi… I am at a Kali temple… My wish was fulfilled but I could not stay there…
T: Why could you not stay there?
C: I am singing and walking… I left the temple… Someone felicitated me, the turban was given to me during the ceremony…
T: Why are they felicitating you?
C: for my poems… I was at a King’s court…
T: Do you know who the king is?
C: No
T: Do you know what they are calling you? Any name that comes to you?
C: No
T: Anything else comes to your awareness?
C: I see Omkara on my forehead… My purpose has been fulfilled… I see my dead body…
T: What happened? How did you die?
C: From old age
T: Are there people with you?
C: There are many people crying over my dead body… A woman too…
T: Do you recognize anyone from there?
C: No
T: Where are you now?
Past Life #4
C: I am by a pond by a temple… I took a bath… I am writing Krishna’s story and I am singing… There are many people who are coming to listen to my singing… People gathering around me… I am standing in front of a Krishna’s idol… I feel he is real…
T: How old are you?
C: I am about 63 years old
T: Do you know the name of the place you are in?
C: No
T: Does any name come to you?
C: Narayana
T: Is that your name?
C: I do not know.
T: Client is frowning… What happened?
C: I am feeling paschatapa (repentance)
T: Why are you feeling repentance?
C: Idol is not the truth… Idol is not real… I don’t want to live anymore…My body is being carried and burnt. I have reached an empty cave.There is an anthill… Some ropes… I am getting scared (the same as the repeated dream/nightmare).
T: Remember you are visiting a memory… Focus on your breath and remember you are surrounded by white light that protects you… What is scaring you there?
C: Someone used to meditate there… They chose a wrong path and left their body there… They died… I am trying for rebirth but it is not happening because I followed them the one who chose a wrong path…My rebirth is getting delayed because of that… I am scared…
T: Remember you were with Jaganmathe… The divine mother… You were with Krishna… You can call upon any of them…
C: I cannot call them… I am not able to call upon them… There is darkness… I am scared…
T: Deep slow breathing from abdomen… Comfortable breathing… Focus on the light within in… all around you… Call upon your own higher self to guide you
C: I see blue… Blue light covering me… I hear a voice that says if you accept me as the truth I will save you… I accept that energy as the truth… That evil spirit burns away and leaves me…
T: Happy to hear that… What do you see or feel now?
C: I see my current life mother… Her face… I want to get up
Client was emerged.
Session 5 ~ 2 hours 8/5/2025
Progressive relaxation, ball of light and Garden of peace
Session on closure - deceased loved one, someone he wanted to communicate with and someone he has had conflict with… Forgiveness to those who he may have hurt…
Inner child healing - client saw himself as the 12 year old boy who had tonsils removed and comforted that child.
Closure/ Conclusion:
MK saw the patterns of his previous lives and mentioned that he is more clear about following Kriya yoga as a path to attain what he is seeking… He said in all his lives he did not see or recognize people or did not feel any attachment… Just wanted to be with god so he is clear his path is more spiritual than materialistic. He shared that his fear of the unknown has gone… Feels more confident about his upcoming project but came down with a viral/bacterial infection - cold/ fever… However he feels calmer in his mind and anxiety has gone…
Client called on 16/5/2025 to share some observations. He said he is not sure if what he saw was past lives or memories of literature he has read since the past lives he saw are parallel to Adi Shankaracharya, Kalidasa and Gadugina Narayanappa’s lives. He also mentioned that since childhood he felt the poems of Kalidasa were familiar and could recite without having to memorize, similarly with the poems written by Gadugina Narayanappa. Client also mentioned that when he visited Veera Narayan Swamy Temple in Gadag he felt intense emotions that he could not explain. He also mentioned that his allergic Asthama has remained the same. Not gone.
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