Name : Heather (name changed)
Hypnosis Score: 10/10
VAK : 12/14/13
Eye Roll : 3/4
All stages followed.
Theme decided: Lack of confidence to pursue being a healer full-time, scared to quit job to go all-in.
T: This is what Therapists said
C: This is what Client said
I didn’t record this session so I only wrote down what the client said. Filling in the therapist part.
Session 1:
History Taking:
Heather used to be a professional body-builder. She struggled with body-image issues in her childhood. She found body-building in college and that helped her improve her relationship with her body. Now, she has been working as a kindergarten teacher for the past 5 years while getting certified in Breathwork and Health coaching.
Her spirit guides always showed their presence since her childhood. She says that they are Pleiadeans. Her childhood was full of magic and she knows she is meant to be a healer, coach, and Breathwork facilitator. But leaving her job is scary for her even though she knows in her bones she is meant to do this work.
She also has a friend in her life who feels like a past-life companion and keeps coming back in her life. But she is afraid of saying yes.
She also has gut issues. It is not healing by other means.
Pain scale: 8/10
Session 1: Theme: What is the root cause of her commitment fears?
T: What is coming to your awareness?
C: A man… darker skinned Middle Eastern… alone… not a single person around. Unattached to people. His goal was, “All I ever care about is my duty or job.”
T: What is he feeling?
C: It’s cold.
Relationships get in the way and complicate life and my mission.
But I am lonely. Consistently distracting myself with this responsibility. It’s important and I don’t have time but I’m so alone.
I feel like I hide everything from everyone. People look up to me.
I’m in a constant state of stress. In a second, I have to be ready.
Fractured dream.
T: What do you do that you have to be ready in seconds and you feel lonely?
C: I’m a soldier. There can be war anytime.
T: Move ahead in time and see what happens in your life.
C: Thrown at the bottom of a ditch or a hole. I’m feeling that I’m going down. Not being able to breathe. I am relieved that it is over. I’m the only one.
People that I knew and was with, also died in the same time and same way.
It wasn’t long ago.
T: Try to see what year it is.
C: Guns… 1949… My name was Sergio. Tan skin. I was a with a woman before. I was in this place. Something happened. She’s not here anymore.
T: How was your relationship with her?
C: She left me. I am heartbroken. Something about me…she didn’t wanna be with me.
I was closed off. I was acting from a wounded place.
T: What happened?
C: I joined a war to escape… distraction… nothing is left. Running away from the pain. I had an opportunity to have a different way to be with her, but I didn’t change. There was a lesson there. I just chose to ignore it.
T: What was the lesson?
C: The lesson was to be uncomfortable… to open up… vulnerability… seeing all of my wounds… shadow work for my relationship…
I lost the relationship. I lost an easier happier life. I was so rigid in my ways. I didn’t want to give up anything about myself. I wasn’t willing to work into my marriage. I just ran away because it was hard.
I was neglected as a child. No love… I got hardened. I became strong and independent.
Parents didn’t want me. No kindness. I have no choice. I have to prepare myself. I was not close to my siblings. My parents liked my siblings more than me. I have to figure out everything by myself. I was suppressing so much so pain all the time.
T: If Sergio had a message for you, what would it be?
C: My message to myself was: be strong. The path that my soul wants to go down is so happy and beautiful. I have to do things like healing that my partner needs from me. The person who loves you is not going to hurt you. Running from it is not going to be your highest path. You’re running away from your soul lesson.
I’m living a lot of what’s missing in this lifetime. There’s so much sadness here. First half of my life was not my fault, second-half was self-inflicted. I chose what I knew.
T: What message do you have for Sergio?
C: It’s OK. I’m learning now. Now people are safe. You can go all the way in. That urge to run is just a fear not a solution.
It is unfamiliar not dangerous. I need to go into discomfort this time. There is nothing I need to run away from.
T: How will you bring these lessons into your current life?
C: Sadness, regret, seeing the parallels. Currently, collecting those mistakes and I’m slowly choosing to not run. I feel the urge to run away - this is just an old behaviour. I’m doing the work now. I am more connected to myself. I have more opportunity to learn. Loss of partner is the most significant for me.
Second past life:
T: What are you aware of?
C: Punched in my face. I’m the wife. Fighting in a bedroom. Emotionally so bad all the time. Couldn’t tell anyone. It was in a time when it would be shameful for your marriage to end. Women only wore dresses, corsets. No divorce no talking about your problems.
T: You are the wife. Who is your husband?
C: He has a drinking problem. He is a responsible man. He is a respectable man in the society. Everyone knows who we are. We are well respected. We have money and higher status. I fell in love with him. He never abused me until later in my marriage. I am envious of other people’s happy marriages. I still try to please him, make him love me, do nice things. He changed from the beginning of our relationship.
T: Do you have any other family?
C: The community… they are judgmental. There is gossip. There are no true friendships. I don’t have anyone. No one that I can trust. I can see myself writing. Journaling for myself. I really love to write.
That life was very distinctive and I had to maintain my image. I was free spirited, I was rebellious. I’m getting the names TOM, Laney or Lacey, or Delaney or something like that. I feel like we were very happy perfect couple. We had to step into some kind of role that was stressful. It made him unhappy. His father died so he had to step into this higher position. I didn’t think of leaving because that wasn’t an option. It was my duty.
T: Do you have any kids?
C: I don’t feel like I have any kids. Bored, unfulfilled. I thought I’d do more things. I thought he would be more fun. He is so serious all the time. If I left, I would be outcasted.
T: What is the learning for you here?
C: In my present life I’m afraid of that happening again. I did experience it in this life as well with emotionally abusive ex. But so I left. I still feel very attached to him. But I am cutting cords for it. In my present life I wouldn’t allow that to happen to me. I can let that fear go as being stuck. It’s easier for me to see that it’s not real.
I’m seeing an eagle and it is guiding me. This time around it’s easier. Relax.
Session two:
Theme: To find out more about being an energy worker and to find out the Root cause of her gut issues.
T: What are you aware of?
C: After entering through the door I’m feeling anxiety, physical resistance, tingling. I’m a native American. There is nature all around. We live in a desert.
T: Try to see what desert is it?
C: It seems like New Mexico. There is grass, plants and women gathering things from the land. She is known by everyone. She can heal everything.
T: What does she do?
C: Knowledge, wisdom. In a meditation state… in a tepee… She learned it from a lifetime of doing this. It’s just a natural thing for her. Everybody goes to her.
T: Does she have a family?
C: She is in a community but also in solitude. She doesn’t have any partner……… she just served the community. I can hear her name is Nagja that is either her name or her position… Apache tribe.
Something happened to them. They were taken somewhere by other people. Kidnapping Cowboys and Indians situation. I was very old. No living relatives.
T: What year is it is?
C: It was the year 1791 and it was not fully safe to be there. We were all living on high alert. It was distressing my body. Feels so stressed out. Forced to leave. All of us understood. They had to start over somewhere else.
In a little hut thing, in a meditative state. Channel. Shaman.
T: So, she feels very fearful and stressed. What happened later in her life?
C: Other people came to us with modern medical stuff. They thought we needed them to fix everything. They helped us but they took my power away. As if we are stupid. Like what I did was not real. They think they are smarter than us. My ways are not as good as theirs.
It had the biggest effect on me internally. People still came to me. But those foreigners dismissed me. Lack of respect, dignity. Feeling small. How I feel about myself.
T: Go ahead a few years and see what happens then.
C: Things are not the same. When I’m helping others, I feel insecure. Peace was taken away. Got worse and worse. Change in the country. Unpredictable. Before we were all equal. Now, all of a sudden there is authority, strange, negative relationship.
T: Move to the time of her death.
C: Died of old age, peacefully. Loved and revered. I was the only one to have those skills.
T: What did you learn from this life?
C: I let them take my power away. I was really affected by the change in a negative way. I was missing the bigger picture. Things were changing and to lean into the change. Doing what I do and grow. I was resistant and it made it harder. If I just let it flow. It wasn’t us or them. Things were just changing.
The power struggle affected me. I needed to regain that piece of myself and continue. I could have been more solid and contained in who I was. They don’t understand how I wanted to be understood. But it wasn’t going to happen so it’s okay.
T: How is this going to change your current life?
C: It could all co-exist and be okay. Today’s time – theme of my life is to be deeply understood. When people see me and understand, I latch onto that. Working as a healer, there’s such a process of being confident, that this is real and legitimate.
Not saying that I sound crazy or being afraid to share it. Feeling smaller or insecure. I don’t wanna live forever like that. People are just different. Modern technology – technology resistance.
That time was also like Age of Aquarius. Drop resistance to change.
100 years of life. Earlier and later was drastically different. Could have enjoyed my life more. Forced to get vaccinated. Forced to abide by medical things. Powerless.…
I don’t have more to gain in that life. I got used to struggling – that can happen again.
T: What is the root cause of your Gut issues?
C: It’s not specific to one life. Multiple lives of emotional distress. Bottled up strong exterior over and over for 100s of years. Let go. Let it be easy. Worrying energy of trying to force things to happen. You can relax now. Expressing myself, being emotional.
She spontaneously saw another past life as well:
C: 14 or 1500s. Happy. Well taken care of. Abundance. Money. Marry. Church of England. Church is the government. I am involved in both. Arranged things for me. Pleasant. Friend in my current life is my husband. His name was Charles.
Top, king and queen or something like that. Relationship was strong, very religious. One of my kids from that lifetime will be my future kid in this life.
I had 5-6 kids. Leo – I call my spirit baby Leo and I feel like he was there.
T: What are the learnings for you from this life?
C: Completing a karmic cycle. Feeling of abundance. The lack lives are over. You can feel like that again. I had it all. It was easy. I followed the rules but I was okay with it. I was just supposed to have that feeling of abundance so that I can feel that again in my present life.
Post-session discussion with Client:
Pain scale: 1/10
She said that she knew what the learnings were intuitively but needed to experience them to embody them. Seeing the life as a Shaman and healer who lived up to 100 years helped her have confidence in her abilities.
About her romantic relationships, she feels more courageous to say yes to love instead of running away.
About her gut issues: She knows she just needs to release the energy of fear and distress and it will be healed.
From the last abundant life she now knows how she can come out of the feelings of lack to the feelings of being completely abundant and taken care of, so that she can quit her job and trust in her path.
A few days later, she put in her resignation. Now, she is a successful healer, breathwork facilitator, and health coach. Even I received an Ahai healing session from her and it was the most deeply healing sessions I’ve ever had! That session was a milestone in my own personal healing as well.