Stage 1-8
Name : Amrita
Date : October 2, 2024; Two Sessions
Vitals & Dominant Sense : F; 34; VAK – 5/6/4; H – 9/10; Eye roll – 1/4
Client History :
Amrita had majorly two issues in life that she wanted to explore about, one related to her relationships; another related to blockages in career opportunities and; why does she always need to prove herself with additional efforts.
Amrita had a rough start in her childhood, with a single mother and a bit irresponsible father who rarely stayed with them. Father was an alcoholic and did not provide the required support to mother in raising kids and sustaining household. She stayed with her strong-minded mother, loving grand-mother and a younger brother in her childhood, in a small town. Then sent to boarding school in elementary classes, where she had to take on extreme responsibility and learnt to show strong face to the world, hence, vulnerability became a major issue for her. Additionally, being born in scheduled caste and having lived in a small town, earlier part of life was quite tough for her to understand and live the life that was looked down upon by the society, teachers, as well as friends. This left a lasting impact on her.
Soon after she went to boarding school, her father passed away. Even after being irresponsible, her father was the one who used to express love and care, which was gone. She recollects not losing her calm in front of family but crying alone.
She became more tough with each life experience…. And gained deeper need to work for women empowerment specially coming from the schedule caste. She enjoys doing work and wants to get further clarity about life goals with respect to her career as she encountered lot of failures as well.
Her personal life has been with a lot of lows and highs, having been in a 10 year long difficult relationship, while the partner got married to someone else. After that she has not been able to maintain any other relationship but recently met someone whom she thinks, she shares a deep bond with, but she has sabotaged this relationship for more than a year now. Amrita wants to understand why would all of this happen, and why is it causing so much pain to her.
Stage 9-15
Theme : Difficulty in maintaining Relationship; Career blockages
Session Activities : Visualization, Body Scan, Dave Elman, Past Life Regression
Therapist (T): Are you becoming aware of something?
Client (C): Should I tell everything that I am seeing?
T: Yes…. If you wish to…. You can share anything you feel like
C: I went to mountains…. I saw two humans in white dress…. They seem scared of me…… then I went further on the mountains…. There is a huge river…. Its beautiful… I like this place a lot…… There is something on the other side of the river…. I don’t know what…. Then someone came to take me from here…. Then when you asked me to go to elevator and then go to the door…. I saw a huge wooden gate…. Beautiful gate with carvings…. Then I entered a hall…… It was a huge hall…. Beautiful space with many nice things around the hall…. Someone was standing in the hall…. It was my father maybe… he is facing other side and looking at a wall painting…. I came to hall and then I went to my room… it is a huge room, very beautiful…. Place looks very nice…. I saw all of this (Client started experiencing another lifetime during the peace of paradise visualisation itself and then described everything she saw)
T: Okay… Where was that mountain place that you first saw…. Which country is it? …. And how old were you then?
C: It seemed like some other country…. Old times…. Something like Switzerland…. It is very beautiful…. I am 5-6 yo…. I like going to these mountains often…. And there is something on the other side…. Some family lives that side and we faught with them maybe…. But I still want to go there
T: Okay…. And you also mentioned about two people in white…. Who seem scared of you
C: Yes…. I don’t know why they are scared but they don’t face me…. And are scared…. Don’t know why…. And then someone came to pick me on white horse…. He said its time…. We should go home now…. He helps my father… wearing turban…. Very nice human…. He gets me here often…… I know him…. He is Krishnaraja Sir from current life…. He is like my mentor in this life (Client felt peace in knowing the correlation and teared up a little)
T: How beautiful…. We have our dear ones with us to support us all the time……across spaces…. So then what happened?
C: Yes…. (Peace on her face)…. I went home after that…. Entered home…… My mother is also there in the house… she is my step mother and my real mother lives on the other side of the river in the mountains…. They are not very rich…. We are very rich…. My father is big business man…. Like a trader…. I have a younger brother also…. He is my brother from current life time…. And then I went to my room…. I like being in my room…. Its beautiful and big…. I spend a lot of time in my room
I also see those two people…. Who are scared from me…. They work in our house…… They did something and am angry at them…. They are just scared
T: Why are they sacred…. What happened?
C: Something happened before…. I don’t know…. Something…. (Pause)……
T: Anything specific
C: No…. They are scared…. And am angry…… (Long pause)…. That’s all
T: How is your relationship with mother?
C: Its good…. She is nice…. Everyone is nice…. But I still want to go to the other side of the river all the time
………………(Progressed to another critical point in this life time)……………
C: Am standing near the river …. Am around 15-16 yo…. Ankit is standing on other side of the river…. He really likes me (Ankit was Amritas boyfriend in current lifetime, whom she had 10 year old relationship with)…… I like him but I don’t love him…. I can see Aditya also (Aditya is her boyfriend whom she is dating currently)…. He also loves me but he never says anything… because he knows Ankit loves me…. But I love Aditya…… I feel little sad because Aditya doesn’t do anything to express
T: How are Ankit and Aditya related?
C: They are cousins…. They are also from the same village where my mother lives…. Other side of the river…. Am just standing here…. I feel nice…. I can see Aditya sometimes……
………………(Progressed to another critical point in this life time)……………
C: I got married to Ankit…. My father got me married to him…… They are rich…. His family came with proposal and my father accepted…. They did grand wedding…. Am wearing beautiful white dress…… We are in this huge cart…. With horses…. Ankit is sitting next to me…. He is very happy…. Am fine…. I can see Aditya standing on the side…. He is very sad…. But he never did anything for love…. Never expressed anything…. Now he is very sad…… (Client experienced the pain of not being with the loved one)
(Pause)
C: Am living alone now…. I have two kids…. They are like responsibility for me…. Because of marriage…. Even Ankit is like responsibility that am fulfilling…… Am not very happy living this life…. Aditya did not marry…. But he never said anything to me until now…. I can see he still loves me…. I am living this life now
T: Apart from the pain of not being with the loved one…. Do you feel any other issue… Anything else coming to your awareness?
C: Yes…. I never did anything for myself…. I did not educate myself or did any work… My brother is smart…. He is taking good care of family business …. He has extended the business also…. Father is happy…. But I dint do anything
(Pause)
Everyone died…. Am alone…. My mother also lives alone…. Aditya takes care of my mother…. He has isolated himself… doesn’t talk much….
He never expressed love…. But he still loves me
T: What happened to everyone?
C: Everyone died…. Ankit… my kids…. Something happened in the village… some disaster…. They couldn’t survive
T: How are you feeling?
C: Nothing…. Aditya could have expressed…. He dint…. I feel bad…. But he is taking good care of my mother
T: Okay…… Anything else that comes to your awareness…. What is happening now?
C: Nothing …. Same life…. Am not happy
………………(Progressed to another critical point in this life time)……………
C: Am old…. I also died…. Nothing is happening… I see white all around
T: Stay here…. After having lived the life time you just experienced…. What are your life lessons from your higher self?
C: Express feelings… express what you feel…. Do something for yourself, for your life purpose…Need to educate yourself…I should have educated myself…. Helped my father and brother…. I dint do anything…. Let go of mistakes…. Forgive…. Forgive everyone…. Learn to express love to all
(Pause)
I cant see anything…. Seem silver…. White
T: Can you feel presence of someone…. Maybe your guide…. Master
C: Some more people are here…. But I don’t know them…. Don’t know anyone…. Many people…. Cant see them
T: Anyone you know…. Current life…. Could be your master as well
C: I think Aditya came…. I can feel him…. Cant see him…. But he is here…. Am happy now… (peaceful smile on client face)
T: Experience this togetherness…. Your loved ones are with you always…. Be here…. Embrace healing
C: Am happy with him
(Long Pause)
Am going somewhere…. Am getting pulled
T: Okay… where is it… somewhere in the white space?
C: Next life
T: Okay…. What do you see around you?
C: We are in a jungle…. There is a river…. We are walking….
T: Who all are there with you?
C: Aditya…. We both are in jungle…. We are alone
T: Where are you going?
C: Somewhere… don’t know…. We ran away from our house…. To be together…. We love each other…… We had to run from our houses to be together…. We are going to ashram…. We will live there now
T: Where is this ashram?
C: Somewhere in hills… Its in North India…. We live in ashram…. We both work in ashram…. We do sewa…. Get flowers…. Clean ashram…. Help people in their rituals…. We are peacefully living there…. But we are doing regular work…. Why are we doing this work…. I don’t understand… its nice to work…. And help in ashram but its normal work
T: Anything else happening around you in Ashram?
C: No…. (Pause)…. We are just doing everyday work
T: Okay…. Lets go to another critical point to understand more
………………(Progressed to another critical point in this life time)……………
C: We are in the jungle…. Crossing river…. Oh…. Aditya fell into river…. He is drowning…. And I cant help him… am alone…. He is going away
There is a lady nearby…. She is my current grandmother (current life time, I understood this later)…. She is old here…. She came near me and said we cant help him…. While going Aditya told lady to take care of me…. And he went away (Client starts sobbing)
(Long pause)
My grand mother is cooking food…. Am waiting for her to cook
T: Okay… Are you in Ashram now?
C: No…. Am home
T: You came back to home?
C: I live in my home
T: Okay…. How old are you?
C: 4-5 yo
T: The old lady was your grandmother in that life time also?
C: No…. Am home now
(I got a bit confused here, clarified with more questions)
T: Whose home is this?
C: Aditya left me… how will I live now…. (Starts crying again)
(Seemed like client was moving back and forth in two different memories)
T: Are you back to the moment when Aditya drowned in river?
C: Yes…. Old lady is supporting me…. She is saying don’t worry…. You have to take care of yourself for him…. I am with you
(Pause)
I love my grandmother she loves me… cooks food more me…. She lives with us …. Mother is not back home
(I then remembered, client mentioned in history taking that she used to live in town with her mother and granny)
T: Your grand mother is cooking food in current life childhood?
C: Yes… she is the same lady…. She loves me
T: Embrace this love and support, Amrita… As again you see our loved ones are always there with you through the lifetimes
C: A peace hit her face…. She paused
(Long pause)
I see white again…. Someone is telling me…. I was trying to find what I wanted to do in life…. I also learned to understand different love kinds…. Type of love…. Dimension of love….
(pause)
I want to rest now….
Can we rest now?
T: Do you want to come back… and take rest?
C: Yes
T: Okay…. Lets receive all the healing from this peaceful space…. Embrace all the guidance we received today…. Breathe in this healing…. Deep within…. With each breath…. As you take each breath in, feel the completeness… and healed
Additional Notes: Follow up session with clients have shown transformed effects in relationship healing… as if the healing occurred for both the partners