Stop attaching to the Form
A therapist’s commitment to his/her work is unwavering, often extending beyond regular working hours. Even during vacations, their minds remain engaged, ready to offer support and guidance whenever needed. They’re always ready to heal and help others heal too. It’s a calling that doesn’t stop, even when the calendar says it’s time to relax!"
We have a beautiful village house, and I never miss the opportunity of spending time with our loved ones. Blessed to be part of a lovely family where all kids and elders share rooms and chat for long hours before going off to sleep.
A beautiful revelation happened when I had been on one such trip. It was midnight and I noticed a 21 year old moan and groan and also saw her being escorted to washroom by her sister. She was so restless that she was going to the restroom throughout the night and her sister was escorting her. I got up sat with her spoke to her at length and understood that she was under medication for severe arthritis (not a common ailment for kids) which had developed recently and the same was getting worse day by day. I had to relax her in the middle of night and taught her few methods to relieve her anxiety too, also told her to come for sessions so that she is relieved. During the talk I felt shes carrying a lot of fear of loosing loved ones and also lot of rejection.
After the function I came back and my usual routine started and one day got a call from her requesting to fix a session as early as possible . So we fixed an online session. And like most of the desperate clients she was on the dot for the session.
Th : What comes to your awareness.
Cl : Theres lot of silence I feel extremely heavy as if I will burst crying.
(She was extremely uncomfortable, I knew its not going to be easy session could feel the client is holding a lot. Only thought was keep following the steps ignore the outcome) Relaxed her further. It took a long time but ultimately she reached the Beta state.
Th: Look at your legs what are u wearing.
Cl: I am wearing pink shoes and a white dress. Looks like my inner child. (I was surprised she knew a term called inner child existed) My inner child is holding my hand and slowly taking me to a place I have never consciously visited before.
It is a silent road, feels extremely heavy, and filled with lots and lots of pain. I feel I am lying there, bleeding. Time feels frozen. (She burst out crying unconsolably)
Again she needed a lot of relaxation.
Cl : I can see my father holding my brother tightly in his arms, his voice is trembling as he is calling out my mother’s name. All three of them, my mother, my father, and my brother, have met with an accident while traveling on their Splendor bike.
(She again burst out now she did not want to be at the scene and wanted me to take her away from the road) Her anxiety seemed to reach its peak and this is where I always feel we shake the pain out from the clients consciousness. One side of me wanted to stop the session and another side of the therapist wanted to continue. But as per practice we leave it on the clients to decide whether they want to continue or stop. While relaxing she again went on to Beta state
Cl : I can see my mother lying on a bed, a white bandage wrapped around her head, vibhuti resting on her forehead like silent protection. My father is sitting beside her, his hand placed softly on her forehead. He is calling out her name again and again, not loudly, but with a love so deep that it sounds like a prayer. He is singing to her, as if his voice alone could keep her anchored to this world. In that room, there is no noise, no crowd, only my inner child, my parents, and me, bound together in a quiet circle of love and fear.
With that the 1st session ended leaving my client relaxed and me completely confused and shaken. (Yes as therapists we are supposed to be stable and unshakeable but some sessions do shake us completely and give us lessons for lifetime)
A prelude to this girl’s family is essential before the next session is revealed. The girls parents and brother who was 3 years of age were going on a bike to a temple. The little kid could barely talk but used to sing a lot of bhajans. He was singing loudly Lord shivas bhajan when a bus hit them from behind. The mother had severe injuries on her head and the son fell lifeless. The father did not get a scratch on his body but stood still seeing his family collapse. The mother was taken to the hospital and got operated and took more than 10 days to come back to senses. The kid ofcourse lost his life.
Now what left me shaken was how can the inner child of my client take her to a space she has never seen. She had seen father from same life mother from same life and brother who passed on even before she took birth. She told such minute details that I was shaken but she kept saying my inner child is taking me there…it was little surprising some parts of me as a family said maybe someone from the family had shared these things with this kid because the whole family was still mourning his death even though couple of decades had gone by…I knew certainly that this client needed more sessions. I got a call from her after 3-4 days that she is now able to sleep well, something which had not happened since more than 6 months and she wanted to meet me for the next session.
I happened to go to our native so I thought the next session should be in person. So we started the session and she immediately went into deep trance.
Th : What comes to your awareness.
Cl : A door is opening and it seems to lead far beyond this lifetime.
Th : What are u wearing in ur legs.
Cl : I am bare foot. I can see small legs walking or running in cemented
floor. The house is quite old I am wearing a yellow T shirt with a violet border and the T-shirt is falling to my thighs. No I am not wearing shorts. I am walking continuously everyone loves me there’s so much love and happiness.
(This was ultimately the most expected thing. The girl seemed to be the same kid which lost his life in the fatal accident. I took her to more minute details about her looks house etc)
There are beautiful Anklets adorning my legs, earrings hung from my ears, and a sandal coloured gopi mark U shaped is resting on my forehead.
In my hand, I am holding a banana by its head and happy to the core walking throughout the house mesmerizing everyone around me…it seemed a simple and innocent life, like the life I was living then.
After this scene she felt stuck and I had to take her again to the most painful place and she went back to the accident area but before the incident happened, she saw herself happily singing in the bike and father riding mother listening to her voice and enjoying. She again felt scared and told me to bring her back and she didn’t want me to take her….to the fatal incident.
I did not force her to go to most awaited painful moment the place where the client says I am dead….rather I allowed her to clear what she wanted. But there was deep question inside me…why!!! Why would a soul want to come back to the same family same house same bringing up??? What was the lesson……But all these were unanswered…
After some days I got a message from her…..a small writeup about the session..the following lines were mindblowing.
‘ As I looked closer, my heart understood something my mind had never known. That boy was me. And in this lifetime, that I was same soul returned to the same family,yes my brother. Across births and bodies, we had found each other again. And once more, I had chosen the same souls to be my parents, my mother and my father, returning to them not by chance, but by love.
Some bonds do not break with time or death. They travel with us, quietly waiting, until we come back home again.
The ultimate learning was Don’t attach to the form BOND OF LOVE NEVER BREAKS.
The family kept on crying yearning for the soul which had never ever left them……
