The Burden of Gratitude: A Palace Attendant’s Karmic Journey from Devotion to Liberation

Client Details:

Ms. Prema (Name Changed), MS (IT & M)
Vitals: Female, 48 yrs, HR score: 5/10, ERT score: 1/4, VAK score: 4/6/5
Breathing Pattern: Shallow; Dominant sense: Kinaesthetic; Secondary sense: Auditory

Client History (all the names changed):

Prema was born and raised in Madurai, in a close-knit nuclear family. She shared a deep bond with her father and maternal relatives but had a strained relationship with her mother, which became more pronounced after adolescence. Her childhood was otherwise happy, with positive school experiences and strong friendships that continue to this day.

During her education, Prema performed well academically and pursued various interests such as music, travel, and cooking. Her college life was memorable and included friendships that shaped her personal and emotional growth. She also developed a relationship with her future husband, Ruben, during this time.

Her relationship history has been marked by emotional challenges. Her first relationship ended unsuccessfully after 6 years, and she later married her college friend, Ruben. The marriage began positively but deteriorated after a few years, resulting in long-term conflict, emotional distance, and several serious incidents, including police involvement. Despite many efforts to support her husband and sustain the relationship, she now feels emotionally exhausted and seeks clarity on whether to continue the marriage or move on without guilt.

Prema reports no major physical or mental health issues and has not undergone prior therapy. She copes with stress through music, travel, and focusing on work. Her father, job, and friends form her main support network. Her life values emphasize compassion, sincerity, and resilience, and she is generally viewed as strong and disciplined by others. Currently, she lives with her husband and son, balancing professional and family responsibilities. She identifies evenings as stressful due to long working hours.

Her motivation for PLRT is to achieve emotional healing, gain clarity about her marriage and potential divorce, and move forward without guilt. Having spent years prioritizing her husband’s well-being, she now wishes to focus on her own inner strength, self-compassion, and clarity for the future.

Theme decided: Relationship issues
Pain level: Before sessions 8/10; After PLRT session 3/10

Day 1, Session 1 (Oct 2nd, 2025, 02:00 AM to 6:50 PM - 4:20 hrs)

All Amarantos PLR stages till stage 6 were completed (incl. contract signing). This session went beyond the scheduled time. Emotions related to the current life issues were high during history taking, so I left it to flow as the situation demanded.

Observation at the end of the session: Prema felt light.

Day 2, Session 2 (Oct 4th, 2025, 10:30 PM – 2:45 PM – 4:15 Hrs) – Happy Moments

Theme finalized for Relationship issues resolution. Checklist items were discussed. Then, induction was done with Progressive Relaxation, deepened further with Cosmic Awareness (healing light), taken to the healing garden through the staircase step by step (IMR used for confirmations), deepening further levels along the way, and assuring that Prema can remember everything at this stage.

Happy Moments in Prema’s life (Key ones below):

This session was also longer one, but I anticipated this based on my first session experience. Informed Prema to take her own time and not to rush, and share whatever she feels like sharing during the session.

The experiences were all from current life. The experiences could have been happy at that time, but now it’s all emotional and tough. A summary of the memories shared is given below.

  • SE1: In the opposite house, there was a Govt. School teacher, Nesan & his family. Prema developed a good bond with Nesan’s daughters and with that family. For tuition, students will come to his home. Nesan sir and family will treat the students as their own children. One among them was Parthiv, a friendly boy, liked by that family very much. Prema also became friends with that boy in due course.
  • SE2: A Diwali day, Parthiv and his friends came to Nesan sir’s house, and Prema was also there. All were talking happily and had fun.
  • SE3: Attending marriage at Ramanathapuram, meeting Parthiv at Nesan Sir’s house… Strange feeling this time that she felt committed.
  • SE4: Parthiv’s good life with material success. Relationship broken. Nesan Sir’s family is also not interested in talking to Prema. Prema concluded by saying that she should someday contact them and find out the reason.
  • SE5: Ruben, Current husband’s contact and relationship… Now, experiences turned out to be emotional and disappointing. Tears were rolling
  • … Brought back to the Garden, relaxed.
  • Tried in-utero experiences. No SE or anything carried over to this life.
    …[As Parthiv died, I tried to see whether Prema would be able to meet him. So, guided her to meet departed people. To my surprise, the following happened]
  • SE6: Prema saw her own younger version and both spent time together. Prema was happy. Gained strength and became cheerful.
  • … Returned to Garden…
  • Tried to meet, wise man or anyone who can guide. No success. Emerged.

Day 2, Session 3 (Oct 4th, 2025, 3:30 PM to 6:30 PM - 3:00 hrs) – Clearing Past & Future burdens

The session started with a recap of the last session, the emotional moments, and encouraged Prema to get rid of all burdens in this session. Started with Progressive Induction, Dave Elman deepening, relaxed in the healing garden, and taken to the cliff to throw all the burdens of the past and future.

Integration:

  • After the session, Prema shared during the discussion that she felt like jumping off the cliff as soon as she reached there. Life looked meaningless with all these burdens, it seems.
  • By the end of the session, that feeling has vanished. After our discussions, Prema felt very relaxed and relieved.

Day 3, Session 4 (Oct 5th, 2025, 10:30 AM – 2:50 PM – 4:20 Hrs)

Session started with Progressive relaxation (a shorter version), Dave Elman, Ball of light, then taken to the Garden of healing, then guided her to the Ancient temple. As I count, 3 to 1, I asked her to enter into 1st room she encounters and share what she feels or hears…

[C] : <= This is what client has said
[T]: <= This is what therapist has said

[C]: Very huge room in a palace. Huge bed. Seeing a man dressed like a King, sitting beside that bed…. [Long pause]

[T]: May I know what is happening?
[C]: I feel nervous. I shouldn’t have come here… Like to go back to the garden.
[T]: [… As Prema’s face and voice changed, breathing became fast, as this happened in the beginning itself, I decided to go with the client…]
Yes, certainly. We can always come back after taking rest at the garden.

… [Took some time for breathing to become normal. Relaxed further, guiding her breathing, encouraging her to go the deeper levels… When checking whether we can go back to the ancient temple, the IMR response was negative. So, decided to use Bridge]
[T}: Understood, Prema. Please look around to see if you can find any way leading to a bridge? After some time, the IMR response was “Yes”. Keep going and cross the bridge with the count of 3 to 1. 3…2…1.
[T]: Look around and share what you see, hear, or feel.

[KMF, Engram?]

[C]: Seeing a Tree. Someone sitting under the tree…
[T]: Do you recognize who that person is? What does he look like?
[C]: A shabby man, tired, doesn’t have much energy, hungry? Trying hard to relax, sleep.
[T]: Look at your feet and share what you look like.
[C]: Wearing a saree, Maroon Colour… I look for food… Returning to that tree… Giving something to eat. Giving Fruits… Sunny and hot… Came to the Garden to get water… Feel like lying down on the grass, under a tree… [Pause] I slept off… Waking up. I see rabbits playing before me… Smile :slight_smile:
[T]: Nice…
[C]: It’s getting late… I’m worried about the man… Not sure what to do. If I delay further, it will be too late for me. So, decided to go back home with the satisfaction that at least I could give food.
[T]: It’s wonderful that you could help a hungry person. Are you able to relate this person to any other people known to you?
[C]: This Shabby man and the King look similar… […Long Pause…]
[T]: May I know what’s happening?..[No response] You have gone beyond space and time; every information is unlocked for you to know. You can scan your entire life, just share what you become aware of now…
[C]: Blank… Nothing in front of me…. [Pause]

[… Prema switched to her current life on her own…]

[C]: I see my house where I’m living now… Gathering all the things and moving out of the house.
[T]: Anybody with you now, and what are your feelings?
[C]: I’m relieved. This is the day for which I was waiting. 2-3 packing people are with me…. [Emotions coming out… Started weeping…] I’m happy… Handing over the house key to my son….[Pause…]
[T]: Have a deep breathing… Relax your forehead… Let the relaxation spread to all the muscles and all the nerves in your body… As you relax, allow yourself to get rid of all the tensions and pains… Relax… […I could see that Prema is calm now. ] May I know where you are now?
[C]: Somewhere close to my grandparents place…Kids are playing… Happy…[Pause…]

[… Prema back to past life again…KMF]

[T]: May I know where you are? Can you share your thoughts?
[C]: Shabby man’s thoughts keep coming. Feeling bad for not going back and checking on him… [Pause]
[T]: Nothing to feel bad about, you gave food, and as you can not stay there at night, you came back. You can very well go back and help. [Pause]…
[C]: Early morning. Not seeing the shabby man under the tree… [Pause, no response]
[T]: You can access all your past events, all is open for you know… Keep moving to the next SE in this life… Have a deep breath and relax.

[Prema switched to another SE, KMF]

[C]: I’m at the entrance of the palace. It’s crowded. People from the kingdom are gathered there. I somehow navigate through the crowd, reach inside the palace. Nobody is stopping me or asking anything… Seeing the same bed that I saw earlier, but the king is flying… [Emotions visible… Tears coming.] I go near him and hold his hand… then he starts crying.
[T]: Why is he crying? […I got confused now, so I asked about the shabby man…] Where is the shabby man? Prema started talking without responding to me…
[C]: I’m scared now. Somebody is entering the room now. He checks whether the King is alive and declares the King is dead. That man says, “King was waiting for this moment only…”
[T]: Can you ask for clarification – what he means? …[Pause]
[C]: King wanted to marry me, it seems, but it didn’t happen as I don’t belong to any Royal family. I’m puzzled… I didn’t know that King loved me. I work in the palace garden, sending flowers to the palace. King used to see me in the garden and liked me… All over now. I quietly walked out of the palace through another entrance.
[T]: Are you able to relate the King to anyone in the current life?
[C]: No.
[T]: How about the shabby man?
[C]: He reminds me of my husband (current life)
[T]: … [Checked for Age, year, Prema’s Name in that time, King and Shabby man’s name one by one. Details are below.]

[C]: My age is 25 or somewhere around that age. My name – Arundhathi, Year … Not able to get… It’s around the 17th or 18th century. King’s name is Raja Varman…
… Crossing a river. Trying to go back home. Seeing the Shabby Man now.
[T]: Ok, go to him and talk. Ask for his name
[C]: He is Ravi Varman. King’s Sibling…
[T]: Ask why he is in the forest?
[C]: He says he is not feeling like he belongs to the royal family, as his parents didn’t take care of him properly.
[T]: Tell him his brother is dead.
[C]: He says, “Yes”. Looks like he knew. I ask him to go back to the palace and see his brother. But, he says, he doesn’t belong there. He thanks me for offering food…. [Pause]

… I’m in the Palace Garden. Thinking deeply about what I could have done to save the king. No answer…
[T]: You have done your best by offering help wherever possible. Try and see whether you can get any further clarification to your question [I’m still trying to figure out the connection with the king]… [Pause]
[C]: I see the person whom I met in King’s room.
[T]: Ask him about the king and your relationship to him.
[C]: The King died because of Sickness. He was not a happy person… aloof most of the time. He will see me when he comes to the Palace Garden. As I did not belong to the Royal family, he couldn’t marry … This is the way it had to end… You couldn’t have done anything [Pause]
[T] Have deep breaths… Relax… Move forward in time for next SE…. [Pause]

[KMF]
[C]: I’m discussing with the shabby man. Persuading him to go back to the palace, more time is being spent on that. Advising him to manage the wealth left out properly or at least distribute it to the needy ones, but he is not budging…. [Pause]
[T]: Ok, you are trying your best for everyone’s good. Keep moving forward in time and look for the next SE.
[C]: Discussing with the person whom I talked to in the palace, asking for his help to bring back the King’s sibling to the palace. He was reluctant at first, but then he agreed to come with me. He is talking to King’s sibling, showing different emotions, finally he agreed to go back to the palace…. My purpose with the shabby man is done, and I continued with my life…. [Pause]
[T]: Can you go till the end of this lifetime and look for the next SE?
[C]: Grew old, alone, not married. I could be in 75+… Sick, on a deathbed. Raining heavily. Shabby man, in King’s attire, came to my place; he also looks old now. He sits near me and holds my hands, says – I shouldn’t have left alone, should have taken care of you…
After that, I died… Ravi Varman is crying… Another man says, It’s ok. You will get another opportunity. He is still crying and carries me and does the final rites.
[T]: As you left the body, can you share how you feel now? What thoughts come to you?
[C]: The gratitude of the shabby man is still pending…

[…the root cause of the current life’s problems? Trying to find it out…]

[T]: Complete history is under your disposal to see. Go back in time and see where your current life problems started. In the count of 3 to 1, you might be taken to that time. 3…2… 1. Can you share with me what you are aware of now?..[Pause]
[C]: Seeing the river. I’m sitting on the riverbank. I don’t like to go anywhere from that place. I see the man I met in the palace is coming towards me. He thanks me for bringing back Ravi Verma to the palace.
[T]: Are you able to relate to that man in your current life?
[C]: He reminds me of Nesan Sir (In his house, only Prema met her first boyfriend, Parthiv). He says, King’s association with me is strong, not easy to break that bond. The king will not let me live happily. He met an unhappy death. He will not let me live in peace. Ended up living alone in the previous life with dissatisfaction. It could be some curse or something.
[T]: What could you have done further that would have avoided current life problems?
[C]:… I’m not responsible for whatever happened. He agrees.

[…Tried to find how the current husband is caught in this karmic cycle; KMF to Classic?]

[T]: What binds you and Ruben in this life? Why these problems?
[C]: Looks like more of gratitude that Ravi Varman had towards Arundathi. Ravi Varman was not taken care of properly in his early childhood, felt insecure, not catering emotional needs. Some Trauma and denials.
[…Same problems in the current life, also her husband has faced]
[T]: [Observing exhaustion… ] I understand your pain. We want to get a solution to the problem…. [Pause]. If you want, you can come back and relax for some time in the garden. Take a deep breath and let go of all tensions… Go deeper… Relax….[Pause]
[T] Look for a bridge… IMR positive. You can cross it in the count of 3 to 1. 3…2…1.
[C]: Crossing a bridge… I’m seeing a priest under a tree. He is calling me. I’m going towards him. He touched my head and blessed.
[T]: Convey my Pranams to him…
[C]: He is talking in some other language. Not able to understand… Conveys in some sign language. Telling me… I’m progressing well. This is the direction I should have travelled long ago. I’ve done all I can. Approach life with a day at a time, maintain the status quo. The more I distance myself, the quicker the understanding will be. There will be a day, he will understand what he lost. He has never been attached to his family. His destiny is to live and die alone. I’m not responsible for it. That’s how it’ll end.
[T] As you carry so much pain from your first relationship, get guidance on that…
[C]: Be thankful that it ended. Otherwise, it would have been worse. More would have been there.
[T]: Check any connection with Parthiv in earlier lives?
[C]: No. In relationships, too, he is not very truthful. He liked me and wanted me in his life, but didn’t want to declare it to society. Even if we were together, it wouldn’t have been legal….[Pause]
…He (the priest) tells me… I’ll have a good life. Many could have happened, for which I’m not responsible. Become a better person, heal, and help other people in the same situation…. He went off…
[T]… [Pause]… Could observe peace in Prema’s face… Would you like to share any further thoughts? … [Pause]… If you like to come back to the healing garden, do as you wish…. [Pause]… Where are you?
[C]: In the garden.
[T]: Take a rest in the garden. Have a deep breath and let go of all the tensions. Relax… Let me know once you are ready…

[CO]

[C]: Signal from Prema through IMR (for Yes)
[T]: Being in the healing garden, you can decide how to proceed from here. What are your thoughts now…
[C]: Parthiv didn’t deserve me. I don’t want to carry these memories anymore. He suffered enough before leaving this world. No child, health issues, lost all wealth he built, Friends and family also were not supporting his actions, friends betrayed… the girl he married is happy now through another marriage, having a child. I’m happy about that. I forgive him.
[T]: How do you feel about Ruben?
[C]: Now, I’m feeling very light as if flying in the air. I’m not emotionally bound anymore.
[T]: What do you like to do at this wonderful moment?
[C]: Will work on whatever little left, proceed without guilt. Want to hand over my house to my son legally. Like to disconnect from him (husband), no more guilt, no further steps to correct him… No point in watering the dead flower… I like to go on with my life without any regrets.

[Resolution]

[T]: What’s your learning and understanding you like to carry from this place?
[C]: Beautiful life is there. No point in suffering. Life goes on. It’s ok, life didn’t go well, the choice was not correct. I like to be strong and resilient for a peaceful life. I want to feel happy. I like to protect my son, let him also break the generational trauma… [Pause]
[T]: Very good. Happy about the understanding and positive approach towards a peaceful and happy life. Take time and go inside your heart, cut all the connections that are binding you… fill it with love and see it goes out from you…

… Emerging done at the count of 1 to 10 with all the learnings and healings.

After opening her eyes, there was a smile on Prema’s face. Happy to receive thanks from her with a smile.
[History Search: Not able to find King Raja Varman, but looks like Raja Varma or Ravi Varma are common in some Kerala Dynasties]

Integration & Closure:
In a past life, Prema was a devoted palace attendant — gentle, loyal, and deeply connected to the royal family. The king, moved by her sincerity, wished to marry her, but their union was forbidden due to societal constraints, unaware of his affection until his final days. After King’s death, one day she found King’s Sibling in a forest and helped him out of compassion by giving him food and support. She persuaded the king’s brother to return from the forest. She lived in that life without marrying anyone. During her final moment in that life, King’s brother meets her and expresses his regret for not taking care of her, and does the final rites to her, also earning his lifelong gratitude. In the present life, their souls meet again — she as his wife, burdened with caring for him and the family while he escapes into alcoholism and self-indulgence. Through regression, the karmic thread reveals itself: her past-life compassion became a bond of obligation, replaying as duty and imbalance. The soul’s lesson in this lifetime is to transform service into self-respect, love into healthy boundaries, and release guilt through understanding that true compassion includes oneself.

After the session, Prema became a much relieved person, felt a lot more lightness in her body. Asked to observe her condition at home in the coming week and report after a week.

Pain level after the session: 3/10.

Reports & Recommendations:

  • Seek help from the higher self and take refuge there to resolve the situations
  • Take a good rest and sleep well
  • Suggested to try meditation, which might give more clarity on these Karmic connections and help divert the mind from current issues, and to discover the inner beauty
  • Share observations after a week

Report shared with Prema, capturing the summary of the Sessions and Recommendations over email.

Feedback from Client after a week:

Thank you so much for guiding me through all four sessions. All of them went on well. Now I have insights about the way forward.

Pain level is much less when compared to the prior sessions. I would say it is about 2-3 on a 10-point scale.

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