The harsh reality of the teacher's actions

Venerated Guru,
Thousands of bow downs to you!
My heart is shattered, my soul lost, and my spirit yearns for solace. I beseech you, compassionate mentor, to illuminate the path forward, that I may find healing, redemption, and peace. :pray:t4:

31st of March 2025,
A vision that shook me.

As I closed my eyes, I was transported to a life beyond my own. I found myself standing before a massive wooden door, adorned with intricate carvings, in a 16th-century monastery. With a gentle push, the door creaked open, revealing a serene courtyard. My gaze fell upon a majestic statue of Lord Buddha, radiating peace and tranquility. I wore the simple yet vibrant orange robes of a monk, and as I walked towards the statue, I noticed my students seated on either side of me, their small desks and open books a testament to our daily chanting sessions.

But my heart sank as I realized the kind of teacher I was. I was a man consumed by cruelty, belittling my young students for even the slightest mistakes. The fear in their eyes still haunts me, as they trembled with each harsh word. Among them was one student in particular, a fragile soul who bore the brunt of my wrath. I’d mock him mercilessly, leaving him in tears, begging for mercy. Yet, I showed him none.

The memory of that little boy still haunts me. The weight of my cruelty crushed his fragile spirit, and one fateful day, he couldn’t bear the pain anymore. He rose from his seat, walked out of the monastery, and ran to the edge of the hilltop. With a desperate leap, he plunged off the cliff, sacrificing his young life.

His mother’s anguish still echoes in my mind. “You monster,” she cried, her eyes brimming with tears. “You should have never been allowed near my child.” Her words cut deep, and I couldn’t help but wonder if this was the karma that had brought us together again in this life.

The little boy who took his own life is now my husband, and the woman he’s having an affair with, is his mother from that past life. It’s as if the universe has conspired to make me confront my past mistakes. I’m filled with regret, and all I can do is offer a feeble apology to the mother and son.

As I pray fervently, I hope that my husband will find it in his heart to forgive me and return to me. I yearn for redemption, for a chance to make amends for the pain I inflicted upon an innocent child. The weight of my past actions threatens to consume me, and I’m left with nothing but tears and sorrow.

As I sit in silence, reflecting on my past, I hear the whispers of my conscience. “Can you truly change?” “Yes.” I’ve undergone a profound transformation. I’ve become a beloved and respected teacher, cherished by my students and peers alike. I’ve made a conscious effort to positively impact the lives of those I teach, and I’ve been able to make a meaningful difference.

This transformation wasn’t accidental; it was a promise I made to myself and to the young soul who tragically took his own life. At my own deathbed, I vowed to redeem myself, to use my experiences to become a better, more compassionate person. I’ve kept that promise, and it has brought me a sense of peace and purpose.

My heart aches as I gaze at my husband, once the embodiment of love and care, now estranged from me. The chasm between us seems insurmountable, and I’m left wondering if he’ll ever be able to look beyond the shadows of the past. Can he forgive me for the pain I inflicted in that lifetime? The memory of that life weighs heavily on my conscience, a stark reminder of the harm inflicted by my own hands. a burden I can hardly bear. In that moment, I yearn for forgiveness, not just from my students, but from myself. The weight of my longing to make amends threatens to consume me, but I’m uncertain about the path to redemption.

In desperation, I turn to my Guru, Dr. Venu Murthy, seeking solace and guidance. I yearn for his wisdom to help me navigate this treacherous terrain and find a way to heal the wounds of the past. As I pour out my heart to him, I pray that he’ll lead me to the peace that has eluded me ever since this event was revealed to me.

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By the grace of the Almighty and our blessed Masters and grateful to them for this revelation my blessed @Seema_Ramakrishnan

I can understand the pain you must be going through and my blessed daughter I’m with you don’t worry, we’ll come out of this together.

In our 15-Staged PLRT process you know that getting a past life connection is only one third of the journey, the remainder being the resolution.
Work towards it without having any specific outcome in mind. Try putting yourself in a deep trance after 1.5 hours of meditation and on tapping into delta, do the DT of IDT.
Pray fervently and i too will. Keep me posted

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Dear Venu,
Thank you for your prompt guidance.
I’ll try but i am not very sure of. I’ll surely keep you posted.
Regards

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Dear Seema
For your courage to share such a personal and moving story I bow to you and I thank you, in doing so you give us the space to be vulnerable open and authentically ourselves. A privelege we deprive ourselves of in our pursuit of external validation and wordly entanglements.
I pray that with this insight and revelation you will release karmic debts and be blessed with an awareness that will help you transcend this heartache and sadness. May I offer you my prayers and all the strength courage and resilience to move forward and through this mental state.

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Dear Seema ji,

Thank you for the courage to write it here. What a revelation it is, I was emotional while reading this!! And also I received few answers to the dilemmas I was going through past few weeks.

@venu Thank you once again for creating this holy space in today’s world. While everyone is talking about Karma so baseless, you are an amazing human, who made us understand, how Karma is an opportunity to work on our wrong doings.

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My thoughts and prayers are with you, dear Seema, and I truly believe that better days are ahead. Remember, tough times are temporary, but the strength and resilience you show will stay with you forever.
If there’s anything I can do to help you please don’t hesitate to reach out. You’re not alone in this; we’re all here for you. Sending you love, positivity, and lots of strength. :pray:t2::pray:t2:

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Dear @dechenjamyang,
Thank you dear for your kind words and do keep me in your prayers. I’ll be ever grateful.
Sharing vulnerable moments with my beloved guru and soul family, feels like a sacred sanctuary. I know I’m enveloped in unconditional love and acceptance, free from judgment. This freedom stems from my own heart’s choice to embrace others without critique, recognizing each person’s unique struggles and quiet strengths.

In this space of mutual understanding, burdens become lighter, and challenges more manageable. We need not suffer alone in our battles. We CAN find solace, support, and the courage to heal here.

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Dear Sandhya,
Heartfelt thanks dear Sandhya. Do keep me in your prayers and blessings. May I quickly grasp the teachings and wisdom that will guide me toward my life’s purpose and the inner peace I’ve been searching for.
Loads of Love!

Your support and kindness are a source of strength and inspiration.

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Dear Ramya,
I am so happy you got the answer to your dilemmas through my revelation.
And also dear Ramya this is a space created by our Guru, who has given us the freedom to state anything without being judged. He doesn’t judge!
After all we are his children! We have the same qualities. So don’t be scared.
I want to share something dynamic I read.

Loads of Love.

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