I did my first Past Life Regression Therapy with my client on August 31st and September 1st.
Name: Leena (Name Changed), Gender: Female, Age:32, Profession: HR, H:6/10, Eye Roll: ¼, VAK: [4,5,6]
Mrs. Leena has been my client for some time now, before my PLRT course I counseled her on various life and career-related issues. She started getting panic attacks a few months ago, she consulted psychiatrists who prescribed her medicines, which kept the panic attack in check, but she wanted to get the root cause and wanted to have a peaceful life.
She was waiting for me to complete my PLRT course and was eagerly waiting to go through the process, The therapist introduction was not needed for her, she had a good balance of being a spiritual person, yet playing her role in the world. Pre-Talk was done along with her husband ensuring that all myths about hypnosis were cleared in the process.
The contract was signed.
A client assessment was done.
All 3 sessions were done at the client’s place keeping the client’s comfort in mind.
The room was set up to be conducive for the process. Dry fruits, water, and juice were kept keeping the energy of the client at the required level through all 3 sessions. All distractions were removed.
History of the Client
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History was taken for 45 minutes, covering all important moments from childhood to the present day. Because of my former association with the client, I have added all relevant points from her history taking and my earlier facts. I have tried to avoid some facts here to respect client confidentiality.
Mrs. Leena from a very young age was more mature than the other children around her, questioning the purpose of life and things, even though she enjoyed material things in life, she was not that attached to them, she felt alien to this world from the beginning and questioned her reason to be born into the world.
She had to see a lot of conflict in the family as she grew up, she realized that she had a major aversion towards conflicts which turned into a fear of conflicts, and she wanted to shout at her parents to stop arguing when it happened. She feared voicing out her opinions and thoughts in front of her family because of the fear of more conflict.
Most of the focus of dad and mom was on her elder brother, Mrs Leena felt ignored by her family who thought she was mature enough to manage herself. Her relationship with her mother was difficult in childhood but got better as she grew up. She still has a tough time forgiving her father for avoiding taking care of her from childhood. Her relationship with her brother was also strained from the beginning as she felt he had taken away the attention of her parents away from her.
She never trusted her relatives and tried to avoid them; she couldn’t have any deep friendships from childhood. She wanted to avoid people as much as possible.
She chose to be introverted from an early age and became more extroverted from her college days and career life. Even though she was involved with society she was not able to relate to the noisy life. She was drawn towards the peace and solitude of the mountains and beaches. Breaking away from the bondage and chaos of family she chose to move to another city which is extremely far from her hometown.
She craved to be independent, and even though she joined multiple corporate companies, she found them uncomfortable, working only for the money and craving the life of a hermit, she took occasional holidays to go to the mountain areas, beaches, and ashrams. Started following Sadguru of the Isha foundation, practicing spiritual practices, especially after her episode of panic attacks and racing thoughts which were getting uncontrollable.
She had been in a few relationships from her college days, none of them made her feel loved nor did she feel that she was able to fully love anyone from all her heart. She entered a stable relationship a few years ago, and even though their compatibility was high and their friendship very deep, she didn’t feel the soulmate connection she was always craving for. Her husband being very caring and supportive was always there for her. They decided to get married, being of different casts and states, convincing both families was difficult, even the wedding ceremony itself was very stressful, with a lot of conflicts, even to the point of verbal and physical fights and tension.
Her career life has been good in terms of giving her income and, therefore, the freedom to live the way she can be comfortable and self-dependent, yet she always craved to be recognized as someone influential. She always felt she hadn’t reached her full potential yet, this undercurrent of the need to be influential was always there, a feeling to stand out in the crowd and yet be away from the crowd was the conflict she was facing every day in her heart. She fears her racing thoughts, which are dominantly negative and put her into a bad mood eventually, leading to a panic attack. Being a responsible HR/Trainer, it was getting difficult for her to conduct a training session without being struck by anxious thoughts of every possible worst-case scenario.
She had frequent dreams related to water; they were positive. She found that she had a fear of drowning when she joined a swimming class recently.
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Video to relax the cognitive fatigue was shown.
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Multiple themes were coming up, some were interlinked. To ensure the client had total healing all dominant themes were considered.
Anxiety due to racing thoughts – Pain Level: 10
The need to be in control of my life – Pain Level: 9 (Came up after session 1)
Fear of conflict – Pain level: 9
What’s the purpose of my life – Pain level: 7
The need to be influential – Pain Level: 5
Fear of Drowning – Pain Level: 2
The checklist was run through, ensuring the client was comfortable. IMR was discussed.
Session 1: August 31st, 4:45 pm till 7:30 pm
Dave Elman’s technique was done.
Progressive relaxation was done.
A staircase was used to lead her into the Garden of Peace.
[As she is Kinesthetic, I used “Feel, Experience, Travel, move….” words more, and ensured there was action. Auditory and visual words were used in the right blend to make her fully involved with what she can experience.]
She felt very peaceful at Garden of Peace, therefore I let her be there for some time.
C-Client, T-Therapist
Happy Memory 1:
T – Counting down from 3 to 1, when ready, travel to a happy moment in your childhood.
T – Please share with me what you experience.
C – I am at Kanyakumari. Facing the ocean, it’s very peaceful.
T – How old are you?
C – 7–8 Year-old
T – Who is with you?
C- Mother
T – Enjoy the moment, tell me when you are ready to go ahead.
C – Ok, Let’s move on.
T – Ok, let’s come back to the Garden of Peace in 3,2,1. (IMR)
[Present life traumas can be healed I felt and went ahead with Hill Cliff Process]
T – When ready, Let’s Walk on the road next to the garden of peace, towards the hill surrounded by forest. At the top of the hill, you find yourself at the edge of a cliff, the place is safe with railings, and sufficient space to stand and move around if you wish to.
C- Yes
T – Imagine a Big box behind you and a small box in front.
C- Yes
[The process of healing the present life memories to good 20-30 minutes, covering the entire past and worries about the future, EMDR was done at regular intervals, and stress management was done with pyramiding]
T – Do you feel we can go ahead?
C – Yes.
T – When ready, let’s travel back to the Garden of Peace.
C – Yes.
T – Let’s rest here for some time.
T – How do you feel at the Garden of peace?
C – It is peaceful.
T – You might find a guide here who can help you with the answers you are looking for, do you feel anyone there?
C – Yes, a being of light is sitting next to me, I am feeling True Love from him.
T – Wonderful, you can ask him any questions and wait for the answer.
C – Yes, I am asking, he is radiating with love.
T – Are you able to get your answers?
C – He is asking me to move on, it’s been very painful without him. I want to be with him.
T – Alright, take all the time, tell me when you are ready.
[I saw she wanted the time and let her be there for some time till she was ready to move]
After 20 minutes or so
T – How are you now?
C- Much better.
T – Is he still there?
C – He left.
T – Ready to come back?
C – Yes.
[She came out of the trance, ending session 1]
Here is what she experienced in her own words.
{He was a soulmate. But more than a soul mate. He was comforting me. I felt immense love and immensely loved. The love that I imagine in dreams. Most likely the person died in war. I was sad.
The sadness and the cry were stuck like a lump in my throat. It was extremely painful. The separation was sad. I saw him dying in front of me.
I had died with the sadness and sorrow of losing him.
I saw him in the form of light. It was light in the form of a human shape.
However, I didn’t see his face. Didn’t know if I had ever seen this person in this life. Saw this man in the peaceful park, sitting with me on the bench.
He was comforting me and holding me close. I wanted to cry, and I kept telling him that I didn’t want to be born again. It’s painful. Then why was I born again? He kept on telling me that I needed to move on and live a full life. That I have a life and lessons to learn. I was very angry at him.
At the top of the mountain cliff, it was very simple and easy for me to box my distressing thoughts of this life and packing it up. Nothing in this life felt as intense as the pain of separation.
I realized why I don’t feel love in this life. Why I don’t want to be with people and left alone. I also saw myself in my mother’s womb. I wanted to just come out because I wanted independence. I didn’t want an attachment. This explained why my whole life I hated being with people. Because I wanted to live with my sorrow and be left alone. I felt no one would ever understand me and I hated being judged or to explain and answer myself.}
We decided to start the second session early morning. She sent the below message after a few minutes I left her home.
Session 2: September 1st, 2024: 8:15 am to 11:00 am
With some more discussion, we realized that most of her pain level has come down understanding that the loss of someone close had been at the core of some of her issues. Fear of conflict was now her top pain point and was now leading the list. So, we decided to go ahead with "Fear of Conflict "as a theme for this session.
Dave Elman’s technique was done.
Progressive relaxation was done.
A staircase was used to lead her into the Garden of Peace.
T – Now, you may find a tunnel of light manifesting in front of you.
C – Yes.
T – This is a healing tunnel, as you move through it you find yourself drawn to a memory of when you experienced the fear of conflict the most intensely in this life.
C – Yes, my mom is feeding me, I am 3-4 years old.
T – Who else is there?
C – I see Grand Ma and Dad, they are all fighting, I am feeling uncomfortable now.
[Stress management was done]
T – What is happening, can you tell?
C – Mom is scolding Grandma, grandma is also shouting, and Dad is being diplomatic between the two. I don’t like him; my brother is also there. I just want them all to just stop. I wanted Grandma to just leave.
C- I could feel the emotion stuck in my throat, feeling scared and angry, wanting to take things under control.
T – Remember, it’s a memory from the past, you can choose to float above the scene.
C- Yes.
T – Shall we move ahead?
C- Yes.
T- Let’s travel back to a previous time when you felt the fear of conflict intensely.
C- Yes.
[Affect bridge was used, intensified the feeling and propelled her to the past when she felt the emotion]
T- Can you tell me what comes to your experience?
C- I see a stone building.
T- Are you inside or outside?
C- I just entered. An old lady is there, I don’t know if she is a mother or grandmother.
T- What gender are you?
C- Female
T- What could be the age?
C- Adolescent.
T- What are you wearing?
C- I am wearing a blue dress.
T- Your name?
C- I don’t know, I feel it, Alice.
T- How’s your connection with the old lady?
C- Not good, she seems angry, I don’t know why.
T- Alright, it will come to you.
T- Anyone else living in the house?
C- Nobody else.
T- Can you step out of the house and tell me about the surroundings?
C- It’s a green mountain place, Switzerland? Scotland? [Later she realized it was Japan]
T- Ok, Tell me more about the house.
C- The house is grey and made of stones, has two floors, only I and grandma live here.
T- All right let’s go to the most significant moment in this lifetime Alice in 3,2, 1.
C- I see a red and white flag, it is a war scene, people are dying, it’s brutal, and I feel it is World War 2.
C- My soulmate I met in the Garden of Peace has fought in the war and died.
C- He is my lover, he is part of an Asian army fighting the British I feel, this is a place in Asia for sure.
[She was in pain, she was seeing a lot of intense scenes, I continued with stress management]
T- Alright, let’s go to your childhood as Alice 3,2,1.
C- I am playing on the farm, I was a baby girl, and this was much before the war. I had a mother and brother.
T- How was the relationship with them?
The relationship with them was very formal.
C-It’s the same stone house I again see in the distance, there is a marketplace in the area.
T- When ready, can you travel to the next significant moment 3. 2…1
C- Yes, it’s the same scene, was an adolescent, and Grandma is angry.
C- She is angry because I was late, I had just met my lover and had come back with the same soulmate.
C- He had joined the army.
T- Alright, can you scan through your life Alice, and tell me, did you two get married?
C-Yes.
T-Alright, let’s go to the day of your marriage in 3,2,1.
C-Yes, it’s a Christian wedding, He is Asian, I feel I am European.
T- Do you recognize anyone else at the wedding?
C- Only a mother figure is there for me, the rest I don’t really recognize.
C- They didn’t want me to marry the Asian.
C- He was my neighbor; he was into the forces very early and didn’t go to school.
[Client took a washroom and water break]
[Did an Induction to ensure she goes back to the required depth]
T- Alright let’s move to the last moments of your life, 3. 2.1, You can tell me what comes to your experience.
C- I am alone dying of sorrow, same stone house which has multiple bedrooms, In my 30’s.
T- Float above the scene and tell me what your final thoughts were.
C- Angry, why did this happen to me, He died, I feel worthless, I am angry, not being part of the war, not being with him.
T- Can you experience the point when you left the body?
C- I met the same soulmate; I didn’t want to be born again.
T- Please scan through your life as Alice and tell me what the lessons could be you can take from the life.
C- Life must go on, he wants me to have a complete life.
[I saw a significant relief, but she was getting a bit tired]
T- Wonderful, do you want to explore more, or shall we go back to the Garden of Peace?
C- Yes, garden of peace.
[Let her rest at Garden of Peace and Emerged her out]
We discussed some more on the learnings and decided to resume after 30 minutes break.
Following were her thoughts she gathered later.
{I also saw a lifetime where I was in some country most likely Switzerland or Scotland. It was countryside, green hills, and green land. A stone house where I and my grandmother lived. In that lifetime as well I died alone, in that house.
I saw a war scene. Most likely the Vietnam war. Some Asian war was on. I was a woman and again not part of the war. The irritation of always being left out was intense. My soul mate was in the war. I saw him dying in my arms. I saw myself crying and howling. Intense pain and helplessness. I wanted to bring him back to life. I was very angry at him that he left me waiting for him. I was angry that why could I not be part of the war. I should be in action. Others should be waiting for me. Others should feel the pain that I was feeling. Why am I always left on the side, crying and being left alone?}
Session 3: September 1st, 2024: 11:30 am to 1:00 pm
We discussed and found the need to be influential was something that needed to be explored.
Dave Elman’s technique was done.
Progressive relaxation was done.
A staircase was used to lead her into the Garden of Peace.
T- Let’s start to visualize a tunnel of light manifesting again which you can walk through.
C-Yes
T- This is a healing tunnel, as you walk through you will find that you end in the lifetime when you felt the intense desire to be influential.
C-Yes, I feel I am in Greece or Roman times.
T- Do you feel the Gender at this moment?
C- Yes, I have a man’s feet.
T-What are you wearing?
C- I am wearing a brown dress and slippers.
T- Where are you now?
C- I feel it’s a marketplace.
T-Your name?
C-I don’t know.
T- Alright let’s move to the most significant moment in this lifetime.
C-Yes
C- I am in a room, I am sick, doctors or Healers are there.
C- They don’t think much of me, they are kind of disinterested in me.
C- I had a normal death in my 30s, I was feeling suicidal till the end, but nothing mattered.
T-What do you feel?
C- I feel I haven’t achieved anything in life, I feel worthless.
C- I die alone.
T- At what age?
C- 30’s
T- Let’s travel to your teenage in the particular lifetime 3. 2…1
C- Yes.
T- What do you experience?
C- I am filled with curiosity, a lean boy, lot of excitement to achieve something.
C- I want to be powerful and rich, to be in control of my life.
C- I was doing petty work to get money for a living.
T- Do you have anyone with you?
C-Non, I am alone, an orphan.
T- Let’s go to your childhood in 3. 2…1
T- What do you experience?
C- I am in an Orphanage, a very poor place to be, I had a feeling to come out of this place and become important somehow.
T-Alright, Scan through this life and find out how it turned out to be.
C- I was all alone, trying to earn through petty business, selling things, striving to be rich.
C- I was not honest; my business was only for money, and I had no heart in it. I used to cheat. Taking shortcuts to success.
C- I spent my whole life alone, trying to be rich, and became bitter for failing.
T- Alright let’s go to the last moments of this life and tell me, what were your last thoughts?
C- I had a smirk on my face, I was blaming the world. I was Aiming too high but not putting enough effort.
C- Not to feel victimized, no need for competing in life, the desire to be powerful is futile.
C- Most of the fear of failure has stemmed from this lifetime, looking at other’s success, and low self-esteem, I didn’t want to be poor.
C- Most importantly I wanted someone who cared but found no one through this life, and the search carried on.
T- What were the lessons from this lifetime?
C- Value yourself, don’t wait, look up to people but don’t compete.
T- Alright, Let’s continue the journey and see what happens after the death.
C- I continued towards the light… I am inside the light.
C- I see another garden, inside this light, it’s a different garden, Leaves are falling on the ground, dry leaves.
[She found herself at peace, guided her out after some time]
[A small break and resume to clear a few more of the issues]
Following is what she could recollect in her own words.
{In another lifetime I was a Roman man. In that life, I felt very alone and useless. I was worthless. I wanted to become like the influential ministers. I took shortcuts to live my life. I was just envious and never truly tried to do something worthwhile. I tried to kill myself by not taking care of myself. I saw healers around me who were not making enough effort to save me. Through dying eyes, I realized their half-hearted trial. I smirked knowing that I was right. Nobody really cares for me.}
Session 3(contd…): September 1st, 2024: 1:00 pm to 2:00 pm
The Fear of voicing out was dominant in the throat area, so we decided to try again and see if that could be healed.
Went through Induction, Garden of peace
Used effect bridge with throat sensation as an anchor.
T- What do you experience?
C- I see the same traumatic fight in this lifetime, Dad, Mom, and Grand ma fighting.
C- I wanted to shout, but I couldn’t. I also saw my in-laws trying to manipulate me, taking advantage of my silence.
C- I saw the night that I had a panic attack. As a third person seeing the whole scene outside the body.
[I felt significant inner child healing must take place, which is from this lifetime]
T-Shall we go back to the garden of peace for some healing?
C-Yes
T- Let’s go to the Temple of Guidance to find out the best way to heal from these hurts.
C-Ok
T- An elevator shall manifest in the garden of peace, when ready please step into the elevator.
C-Yes
T- The elevator closes and moves towards the clouds away from Earth.
T- The elevator opens to a path leading to a beautiful temple.
C- Yes.
T- You can enter the temple, tell me what you experience.
C- I see Shivalinga, It’s very peaceful.
T- Wonderful, now you can notice a big bowl of water.
T- When I say 3.2…1 the solution to heal from these traumas will manifest thanks to the deity who shall give you the answer.
T- Tell me what you experienced.
C- I see myself; she wants peace, she wants to be calm. It’s a fast-paced life, a rollercoaster.
C-She is crying. Pulling her hair, she wants to shout, she feels like throwing up.
C- She wants to be hugged.
C- I feel like hugging her.
T- Go ahead, hug her.
T- What are the words that can comfort her?
C- Let go and forgive.
C- Surrender, let go.
C- People around her, she feels are stopping her.
C- They are depending on your silence to do what they want to.
T- What can you do then?
C- Need to trust, Not worry, it doesn’t matter who will stay or go. It’s not for me to decide.
C- People are characters, my world is different.
C- I was born to be free from all bonding, I am meant to be enlightened, not to be bound.
Let go of all attachments and be free.
[Guided her out after allowing them to stay some time in the garden of peace]
Following was what she wrote (not as per the chronology of what she spoke)
{In this lifetime I saw sad times of my childhood. The trauma of my parents fighting. The trauma of my grandmother fighting. I felt helpless. I wanted to stop the fight. I was scared seeing them hitting each other and shouting. Alone and helpless. I wanted to shout, but I couldn’t. I also saw my in-laws trying to manipulate me, taking advantage of my calmness.
I saw the night that I had a panic attack. As a third person seeing the whole scene outside the body. I went and hugged myself. Telling her that it’s just imagination and nothing is happening. Held her calmed her down and told her she needed to shout and cry. The sadness and helplessness of over a lifetime had built up to this.
Later I saw a shiva ling in a mountain temple. The temple looked like the Kedarnath temple. Though I have never visited the temple. There I felt peace. I realized I was one with Shiva.}
