Why i did not get my true love partner, what wrong have i done

Name: Kaushika Bhatt
Age – 44years
Date 21 January 2024, Sunday, First session – 3.30 to 7pm
Client is kinesthetic, eye roll 2
Pain level 10
NOTE: “Master” word indicates the Masters from Heartfulness Organization, Shri Rajagopalachari, called as Chariji in Heartfulness.
Kaushika is close associate of mine.
Though she knows me, I did all the stages, because I must adhere to Venu Sirs instructions of following the 15 steps
I introduced myself giving all the details about myself, my family, my profession, my hobbies.
Stage 2 Non-verbals
What appeals to you, what things make you feel connected for e.g you like nature …what you like ?
I feel good feel safe by hugs, like my children and parents are caring. I have hatred for selfish people. I feel lucky that I have Master, Parents, and my 2 children. THE NON-VERBALS. I like river. I want to go to Rishikesh in a ashram. I like the sound of river, flowing in the river, seeing river makes me feel good. Waterfalls the sound of water, the sound makes me feel so good. (So I chose to play music with water stream sound)
History taking
I wanted person one who respects and cares me. He also feels my pain.
She reveals she has been verbally abused many time, near people also, there is no respect from the husband. Also before marriage she had an affair, that man also forsake her. And now presently too she is getting no love from her husband. Lots of fights at home. Now they both are separated since 2years.
I want to know the reason he hates me and I want to resolve present life karmic account with him.
THEME
WHY I DID NOT GET MY TRUE LOVE PARTNER, WHAT WRONG HAVE I DONE.
We do the Prayers
I did Dave Elman and PR taking her to the HAPPY MEMORIES
AFTER SESSION she reveals
Happy memories
I cud not see, the stairs or the garden.
I cud feel the white light over me. I saw dark maroon light.
Beautiful memories I experienced the time with my boyfriend , the inner happiness.
I cud feel inside mothers womb, I am safe with mama.
Recent happy memories - I am watching movie with my kids.
Before marriage 2003 the time with Master the best time with Master.
In childhood the time with a pet Monkey I am in his lap. He was attached with me, at the age of 6months.
At birth the feeling was not happy, no one was happy and I am feeling not happy about this.
I remembered only good times with my boyfriend, beautiful times.

At school I was having ONLY FEAR, I felt like suicide in 10th, I may fail.
I got lot of respect in college. I felt good about myself, about my looks, yes I am beautiful. I cud remember parents struggle time, they are keeping us but in pain. They did best for us, but there was no happiness.

3 February 2024 11am to 1.20pm, Saturday
Feedback after the earlier session on 21st January
On 23rd January sitting at the office she was Recalling and reliving the experience, the movement of herself in her mothers womb. I cud feel and learn I have chosen this mother to evolve myself from the births for my spiritual growth, I met the Masters Chariji from Sahaj Marg, Heartfulness. I realized I was unhappy at my birth, my parents are also unhappy, but I have chosen this birth to evolve spiritually, this was a very big revelation for me.

Prayers, we start with
Today I take her to Reframing to throw away all bad memories. She seemed very disturbed crying, as I took her from recent to her past bad memories. I assured her that all this of the past, she cud let go, told her to relax, take deep breaths.

C - I am with chariji, I want to be loved by him, I am asking for safety and my love.
He is assuring me that I am safe and loved by him. I want HIM only. Before Master I cud see Nilesh I did not feel love from him, later I saw CHariji , I cud feel safe and loved by HIM.

Post hypnotic Suggestion - I told her to carry with her the secured feelings she has for Chariji at any point in life where she gets disturbed.

Woke up smiling, very happy. I cud feel HIM, I cud not see HIM, he did not talk but with his GESTURES he indicated he loves me and he protects me. I don’t want anything else.
NOW I HAVE NO FEAR, NO THOUGHTS, NO DOUBT, MASTER IS WITH ME. HE IS ALWAYS THERE WITH ME, THERE IS NO NEED TO FEAR. HE IS CARRYING ME SSOO SOO GENTLY AND TAKING ME FORWARD. I WAS IN HEAVEN, THE WHITE BENCH EVERYTHING WAS WHITE, A WHITE CLOUD, I WAS FEELING SOO SAFE AND SOO PYARA FEELING, GHABARAO MAT. IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL FEELING.

I felt very good on THROWING THE BOXES, I FELT SO LIGHT, AJIB SI KHUSHI AUR HALKAPAN. I CUD NOT FEEL MY BODY, I FELT SO KHALI, picking up some memories was very painful.

4 February 4, 2024, 2.45pm
I take her through the Garden
Tunnel of light

C - A big hall, it is dark, yellow orange glasses, it is dark
T - Which time
C - Nobody there
T - What are you doing,
C I don’t know
T How old are you
C Don’t know
T How are you feeling
C Fear

T What is your name
C Don’t know
I take her ahead

C I cannot see, I cannot hear……Khula sky
T Where are you standing
C 2005 MASTER has come in Basant Panchami bhandara I am sitting in front
He asked my age, mera age pucha, mere peeche Hitesh(her husband) ka age puccha, ye tumhare liye hai.
Fear lag raha hai, I am crying, I have to separate from parents, pyar milega ki nahin. Dar. Master ne bola hai toh karna hai. I try to pacify her, it is of the past.

C 1997 she experiences the most beautiful time of her life, being loved and cared by her BF. She was much appreciated for her looks, her work, her speech. She was on top of the world.

T taking her further through the Temple
She experiences her visit to Nakodaji with BF, felt very secured.

T Why did you lose him
C His family did not agree, his father beat him, then he refused me. He married the one chosen by his father, he is very happy with his family, he is very happy with his family. Seeing him happy I am feeling happy.

T Do you want to ask him anything.
C Meri vajah se, useke life mein problem na ho. My life is ruined because of a girl, I should not disturb his life, he is loyal to his wife, I am proud of him. I am feeling to bless him. Crying – he engaged without telling me, he did not have strength, he left me.

T This is past I try to cajole her.

C He left me, he did not look back. Vo aage badh gaya, mein udhar hi rah gayi.

T This is past dear.

C Husband always complained about me, comparing me, making me feel LOW, he is smiling when I am crying, dominating me, feeling powerful, mujhe rula ke powerful feel karta. Threatening me for divorce so many times. So fear, that BF had also left her.Husband toh pyar bhi nahin karta, so he will leave me, uska dar.
Mere saath aisa kyon hua

T Do you want to know
C Yes

T I take her through the pain as a bridge and go futher to the cause.
Break she wants to go for urination. I told her at the word of Bridge you will come back to this state.
Again I take her through DE and PR

It is 1945, She sees a College campus, pink walls, open space, it is Day time, Cirlcel hai, bhij mein flowers hai, College mein boys girls are there, One girl shayad is crying because of me. Uska dil tuta hai, Mujeh nahin pata, She is crying because of me. I have done something, my intention was not there. In circle all girls and boys are laughing. I am feeling bad, she is criying because of me. I cannot see her, She is angry on me. I am feeling guilty (she is moving her hands) I tell her it of past, to take deep breaths. I have not done it intentionally, I don’t know anything. I am alone, She is alone. She is standing backwards, she is blaming me, but maine kuch nahin kiya. I cannot see anything. All boys girls are doing masti, nobody is seeing her or me. I can see she is in pain, I am praying for her.
She is not listening to me. I am not feeling good. I feel like praying for her. She is cursing me, I am telling her please talk to me, I have not done anything, mujhe pata hi nahin ki kya hua hai, mein toh akeli hi hun. I am also crying, I prayed for her, I asked her forgiveness, but she left me, she is not there now, she is gone.
It is Jaipur or jodhpur ( during discussion she says it is Jaipur).

C I am driving a bike, I am enjoying, I am 20years old…There is a lake beside the road, I am very happy, in Rajasthan clean roads. I was very charming and attractive, I refused and she was hurt, she cried and she cursed me.
T What is your name
C Manoj shayad
T What is the name of the girl
C Ritu shayad
T But I had no feelings for her, so I refused her.
T How can you resolve this
C I said sorry…Even then she is cursing me. She is beautiful, I told her she will get someone else. But she wants me, I refused her. I asked forgiveness from her.
(She looks disturbed, moving her hands.) and I again pacify her that it is something of the past.
T What is she telling you
C She wants me as her life partner…I refused because I do not want commitment, I am not interested, I want to become something, my life goal was different, I am scared of relationships, mujhe kuch banana hai, I want to make my parents proud, I am doing something good, I want to grow in my life. She is not ready to listen, she is mad, her goal is only me. She is ready to do anything, mujhe nahin pata baad mein usne kya kiya, She is cursing me, I will also not get love in my life. I am trying to make her understand, but she is not willing to listen.
T Can you connect who is that girl in this lifetime
C Shayad my present husband is that girl.
T Anything else is coming to your awareness
Again composed
She then sees her marriage and that girl comes, she is again cursing me, she said you will not get love, I get scared. Tamasha kar diya.
C (Hands in fist form) now mahol is shaant, my marriage is completed, the girl is gone after doing the tamasha…My wife expired in 4-5 years, then I was alone. She is holding fist, I am feeling all alone, I have no friends. …That girl is happy seeing me sad.
Criying disturbed moving hands, I am not feeling good…I am crying what wrong did I do, I have not done anything wrong,

T Relax, take deep breath
This is of the past
C Crying
I did not get sukh of life partner in that life also

Holding her hands, cajoling her ….Pause

C I am seeing a big city. A big bridge…Maybe Calcutta…A river, a cable bridge…Sunset ho raha hai…Shaant vatavaran…I am at a terrace….period 1927

She is a 12 year old girl, wearing chaniya a shirt, playing in sand, laughing, playing…It is me,same face as mine. It is a very clean village in Calcutta, my dress up is like a south Indian, I have flowers on my hair. My complexion also same like now, dark.
C Mujhe koi bula raha hai, MIRA
T Who is calling you
C My Mother…I am playing , I am very happy

PAUSE

C My mother in that life is same as this life mummy.

Pause

T What is coming to your awareness
C I am doing some work,
T How old are you
C 18years…I am earning by doing some work, there is a girl with me.( this girl is her present life friend Rekha)…I am selling something…It is my first earning. I am also giving money to my parents and that girl is giving money to her parents, our parents are proud of us. …I do all house work also…Village is good , clean…
T What is coming to your awareness
She is getting married, man is very older than me, he is 40years, I am 20years…he has money and house…I don’t like him…I am feeling very bad, I feel like running away, feel like dying. My husband is angry with me, because I don’t love him, I liked someone else. She was in love with a boy her age.
C That husband of mine is the husband of this lifetime…He wanted me to love him, but I did not like him. ,I used to search for boys of my age, I fell in love with a boy my age,( after marriage), he was my neighbor, this life he was her BF. He never spoke to me, mein usko dekhke khush rahne lagi thi.
Pause
C I am feeling bad for my husband, I am asking forgiveness from him…I am feeling bad, I started liking my neighbor, I never had any relation with him, I lived my life looking at him, he made me happy. She is a mother now, two children, I am happy with my kids, but I am not satisfied with my husband and he knows it. The kids are same as in this life, her 2 sons.
C My neighbor boy has gone, I am again alone, children are big now…I am missing him, I am not happy. I want him near me, but he is not there, he is gone. I am very sad. I want to die. My age is around 35-40years…I am in a temple, I have started puja path, I have left everything, ghar ka dhyan rakhna, ghar ko dekhna, maine chhod diya. Mera man sansar se kat gaya hai….It is Lord Krishna temple.
Pause
C That boy has come to the temple, I am happy seeing him, we never spoke, I am happy,…He has gone…I am alone again…Chup chap baith gayi…I am 40 years age
C That boys wife is telling me, that he always liked me. Mera pati tumko pasand karta hai. She knew we did not have any relation. She had tears in her eyes, I felt very bad, thereafter I stopped thinking about her husband, I asked forgiveness from God. Meri vajah se husband wife mein dispute ho gaya, I am very bad. He realized I loved him very much and he told to his wife. Maybe then he started liking me also. I stopped going to the temple. Ghar ke andar rahne lag gayi……There was a fight with my husband.
C My husband was happy I started being at home, but I was not happy, I was doing all work, mere andar pyar nahin tha, I did work just for works sake…My husband always wanted I love him, I felt angry on seeing him, I did not like him at all, mujhe chid aati thi. Because I do not love him…Jisse mein pyar karti hun vo mera hai nahin.
T How to resolve this
C Sorry bolna chahiye
T Did you say sorry to your husband
C No
T Then tell him sorry
C She says Sorry …Mujhe sorry bolna hai mere husband ko…Vo mere sorry ko samajh nahin pa raha hai
T Toh kya karna chahiye
C Bhagwan ko sorry bolna chahiye…I want to say SORRY…She says SORRY again
Maine sorry bol diya
T Good
C I am at temple, cleaning, 55years…Mera life mandir ki seva karna hai, I am at peace.
T Go to the time of death
C I am at home, on bed, I am sick, it is night time, my husband and children are standing, other people are also there, I cannot speak, I have fever.
C Nothing…Mujhe jaldi marna tha, I am ok at death time…Everyone knew I am dying, children are very sad. I did not love my husband, so he was ok with my death, my kids are crying. I am at peace…I am feeling bad seeing kids crying…I was remembering that boy, I was missing him. I knew he will not come.
T Anything you learnt from this death
C It was not painful, I was sick, Bhagwan leke gaye, white color ka tha Bhagwan, there was no form.
T Can you feel who it was, the Bhagwan.
C I was feeling good, but husband ke liye bura lag raha tha, sorry bolna tha…Pyar maine kisi aur se kiya shadi jisse kari use pyar nahin kiya, par maine kuch galat nahin kiya us ladke ke saath, I was asking sorry from God.
T Do you want to explore Manojs life
C No i want to come out now.
C Main mere husband se nafrat karti thi, gusa karti thi, chid chid karti thi, SORRY….Meri shaadi meri marji se nahin hui, mein use pasand nahin karti thi, vo mujse bada tha.
I did not get love in both lives, earlier life Ritu cursed me.
Post hypnotic suggestions
T What realisations you are getting
C I hurt my husband, I have said sorry, now I have no complaint…Now I have to get out of my present life connections. Mafi mangke and mafi karke dono se….If BF has hurt me, I forgive him….Now I want only Krishna Bhagwan, serving him…I want liberation
T Now what do feel for your present life husband
C Mafi
T Kaise milega pyar
C Master loves me….Maine pyar ki kadar nahin ki…
T Toh kya karna chahiye
C Mafi…Meri shaadi jabardasti se hui aur mein nahin apna payi and then Ritu ko mein pyar nahin karti thi….Toh dono Janam mein mere husband aur Ritu ne mujhe se bahot pyar kiya aur maine unke pyar ki izzat nahin kari.
T How are you feeling after this revelation
C I am feeling peaceful.
T Kya dar lag raha hai court jane ka
C Nahin…I have no complaints from present husband.
AFTER SESSION
PAIN LEVEL 1 or 2
Emotional burden is so much relieved…now no fear, no complaints, my goal now is to merge in my Master. NO EXPECTATIONS
CARRY OVERS
Mujhe mila jo maine diya tha.
The cloud I felt my Master is, I realized I want to become and merge in that cloud where my Master is. I feel I am protected and guided now by being engulfed in that cloud of my Master. Now I am signalled by this cloud that you are doing wrong and I correct myself. Now I am above the thought “Why I did not get my love partner now and in my earlier lives” I HAVE COME OUT OF THIS above this now, I want to merge in that cloud…IN 19YEARS I HAVE NOT FELT THIS LIGHT. I AM FEELING SO LIGHT
I AGAIN GOT HER TO REALIZE “IS CUTTING RELATIONS THE SOLUTION”
THEN NOW SHE REPLIED WITH REALISATION WITH A SMILE “I NEED TO DISSOLVE, FORGIVE HIM FORGIVE MYSELF, FORGIVENESS IS THE RESOLUTION.
PLRT EXPEREINCE 19 OCTOBER 2024 at my clinic ( I had called her to run through the case as I had to submit this case)
I realized I have no complaints, complaints khatam ho gayi, ye mere saath kyun ho raha hai, I have learnt my reasons why all this happened, jo kiya woh return hua hai, now I want to go to the white bench and merge, ( she closes her eyes) again now sitting on the chair she gets transported to the time, she is now recalling the scene and actually experiencing here and now that the MASTER CHARIJI (Heartfulness Guide) is in the white cloud.
It’s a Beautiful sunny day, sunlight, flowers in the garden, the white cloud, the white bench, a very very divine, happy peaceful, swarg se sundar scene, the MASTER is hugging me, I am merging in the cloud and I AM SO HAPPY SO GLAD TO EXPEREINCE MASTER with his open arms. And piche jo kuch chuddh raha hai, they all are also happy, master and myself are blessing jo kuch piche chuddh raha hai, mujhe aur kya chahiye tha, JO KUCH BHI HUA, SAB KUCH ACCHE KE LIYE HUA HAI.
( I am amazed how she cud go back to that time and experiencing the divine atmosphere, so here I take this chance to ask for myself )
I ask what can Master guide me, I am confused. What I need to do.
She says Master is standing with open arms to merge into Him, you are on right track, keep doing that, there are hurdles, little thorns, but with HIS grace the thorns are turning to flowers, she cud see my face smilingly approaching towards Master, I am also getting closer to HIM and merging into HIM. We are into the cloud merged into the MASTER, it is a BEAUTIFUL experience. ( I was sitting there with tears in my eyes as she describes this beautiful merging experience.) GRATEFUL TO ALL THE MASTERS.
Client tells in end.
I FEEL COMPLETE NOW TOTALLY LOVED AND HUGGED BY MY MASTER, SAB KO BLESSINGS !!!