Excess of anything turns poisonous…When the person who is supposed to be your sanctuary becomes the storm, there is no shelter left.".. I remembered this when I heard my client saying….I hate my mom….(how can someone hate one’s own mother…a mother who is considered to be an epitome of love.)…she takes excess care of me and it becomes suffocating. I hate going to my home. Can’t do what I want to…cant be the way I want to be….don’t know why she interferes in each and everything I do…I have this extreme feeling of fear towards her…I want to know what is it that I am carrying …This came from a young girl who was brought to me for session by her mother.. The mother who was my friend Geetikas client wanted Geetika to take session for her dughter but the daughter was not at all ready for session and Geetika had some intuition and requested me to take the session……. we started the session…and during history taking I understood that the girl was undergoing the trauma of abusive marriage and did not want to continue but the mom was forcing her to continue even after she had returned home for good.…..there appeared a lot of hatred towards her mother since childhood for various reasons…..After relaxation she went into trance easily…
I see 2 sisters in a small cottage….lovely house….2 young girls one is me and another seems to be my mother of this life.…there is one more lady…who is our mother….she is feeding both of us….we are two little girls…..my father is a carpenter….house is so much lovely…..my sister is jealous of me…ill treats me even as a child……
She decides not to go to school but I go she is sitting and sulking I am telling my mom what happened at school…she is sulking…. .
She is doing house work….thats why she gets jealous of me….there is a boy who likes me….father is no longer there….she chases him away….my mother is gone….we both are stuck together….my parents aren’t there….i don’t want to leave her alone … ….
We are now grown up….can see an old lady…..she has wrinkles….black dress….she is wearing scarf she is my sister….. I can see rubber chappals…. ….i am also old I guess….i have covered my hair……we are from a village….its an old cottage where we live….very small….no carpets…no mats…..I am not happy not sad…. just resigned to my fate…..i am walking in the forest…..its really dark….i am walking very fast….l I keep waking as fast as I can since I am old……. keep walking soil is wet seems I am looking for something…..i am trying to find some path…..i can see a big gorilla….i keep walking….he doesn’t trouble me……
Now we both are having food she has cooked she doesn’t like that I don’t know cooking….i go out bring fire wood etc….for cooking but she gets angry that I don’t do the cooking…..i put a thin cloth and now I am going to sleep….she is still sitting with a plate…..she wants me to take off her plate….i wake up in the morning and she is still sitting seems she has not slept all night…
I wake up…..but don’t get up…she gets up starts walking….i want to ask where she’s going but cant because she gives me weird answer….i hope she comes back but also want space for sometime when I can be alone…..
I woke up went out of cottage….have a cup of tea….she is not there….dont know where she is gone….i cleaned the house I tidy it…..feel like its mine….now that she is not there….. She is coming back….slowly…..she is a bully….she went to get firewood so that I cook today….its like I am just stuck with her…..i am so old…..so cant go a way…..
There was a lot of resentment and hatred which was going on in between the sisters. The client wanted me to take her to the moment where they left their bodies…..
She is dying….she is dead….her soul is leaving through her mouth….i wrap her up in a cloth….i don’t know how to take her….i am not even sad…..2 men came to pick her up….they ask if I want to accompany while burying but I don’t……I am seeing them take her…..i take a small utensil and make something which I want to make for myself….i am happy she is dead…..
Feel happy as if someone took all the burden from my shoulders….she didn’t allow me to eat what I wanted…I am getting small animals cooking them the way I want and am installing lights and living the way I want……
I am sleeping and I pass away…while sleeping and I am old….i die alone…..but am very peaceful…..because she is not there
The lesson learnt was that in this life the same resentment hatred is being carried. The client was made to forgive and send lots and lots of love. It took a lot of time….but she did as instructed. A month later I got a message from her…..My relationship has drastically improved and have started feeling the real love of my mother….thanks to you and PLR…….shes now remarried, happily settled and recently blessed with a baby girl