Client’s name- Ann (Name changed to protect privacy)
Age - 18
Focus score - 10/10
Eye roll score - 2/4
V/A/K - 6/5/4
Pain level (before session) - 10
Pain level (after session) - 2
Theme - Feeling of worthlessness
Session 1 (Stages 1-8) on 08/11/24 for 4 hours
History taking:-
Ann, an 18-year-old college student, entered the therapy session with a clear question in mind: Why do I constantly feel unworthy? Her life so far has been a blend of joy, challenges, and personal growth. Born in a small town in Kochi, Kerala, her early years were spent surrounded by the love and warmth of her family, which includes her father, mother, and younger brother.
Ann enjoyed a carefree childhood, having lived abroad from the age of one to fourteen and had a multicultural upbringing but faced bullying in primary school due to her introverted nature and differences in appearance. These early experiences instilled a sense of inadequacy and self-doubt. Although she gradually found friends in middle school and began rebuilding her confidence, remnants of these challenges still lingered, creating barriers to social interaction.
The transition back to India during the COVID-19 pandemic was a defining period. Two years of social isolation heightened her struggles, but once schools reopened, Ann worked hard to adjust to her new environment. Despite her efforts, the persistent feeling of not being enough continued to affect her, making her wonder if its roots extended beyond her current life experiences.
Today, Ann is a college student pursuing her degree. She describes herself as spiritual rather than religious, finding solace in practices like meditation that help her connect with her inner self.
Ann’s strengths — her empathy, openness, and ability to connect deeply with others — are undeniable, but her weaknesses, such as inconsistency, self-isolation, and unassertiveness, seem to stem from this underlying sense of worthlessness. Hoping to uncover the origins of this feeling, Ann turned to past life regression therapy, seeking insights beyond the conscious memories of her current life.
Session 2 (Stages 9-12) on 09/11/24 for 2 hrs 30 min
Induction started with Dave Elman, Progressive Relaxation, Ball of light, Garden of Peace and proceeded with Happy Moments. She retrieved happy memories from her childhood when she was playing with her friends at her ancestral home. She also could recollect memories about her childhood days while abroad.
Session 3 (Stage 12) on 17/11/24 for 2 hrs 15 min
Induction started with Dave Elman, Progressive Relaxation, Ball of light, Garden of Peace and did Reframing of current life traumas.
While in-utero she experienced darkness, warmth and a floating feeling.
Before getting into womb she felt sucked from a light into this scene- a place illuminated with yellow light as if from fire. She was walking through a pathway with red coloured brick walls on both sides. Then later felt like she was watching from above. She saw a big palace like building made of red bricks. Felt like a place in Rajasthan, a desert like atmosphere. In front of the palace was a well structured and beautiful courtyard with a garden and ponds. Saw a little boy running around and playing with his father in the garden. Both father and child wore beige coloured dress. Boy’s hair was combed nicely to the back. Towards the end of this scene she felt a sense of doom, was rushing towards a light and then came back into uterus.
While in the garden she felt the presence of an angelic figure, light and transparent, standing in front of her, felt like it’s watching over her with pride. Its body was bright light with a huge, bright, green halo around it looking like a cloak. She said it was her Guardian Angel and she felt totally safe and protected in its presence.
(All these she described after emerging from the session.)
Session 4 (Stage 12) on 19/11/24 for 3 hrs
Started with Dave Elman, Ball of light, Garden of Peace (Omitted Progressive Relaxation as the client was very deeply relaxed after Dave Elman, and very soon went into a deep trance after Ball of Light and Garden of Peace). Proceeded through Affect bridge which was the “Feeling of worthlessness” and suggested to go back to the time where it first started.
C - Client , T - Therapist
(Key moment flow)
C- I am standing in front of a snowy mountain, a very cold place. There are pine cone trees around.
T- Can you find out which place it is?
C- Russia
T- Can you see the year?
C- No
T- What name do people call you?
C- Freida
T- How old are you now?
C- In my late 20 s
T- Ok Freida, can you look at yourself and see what you are wearing?
C- Brown fur clothing, brown cap, brown coloured thick fur boots
T- Can you describe your features?
C- I’m having red hair, fair skin.
T- Is there anyone with you?
C- Yes, there is an elderly man. Seems like he is my guide/mentor.
T- How does he look like?
C- An angry looking man, but he is not angry. He is tall, has thick eye brows, round face and huge build. He has white stubbles on his face.
T- What is he wearing?
C- A fur robe.
C- He has known me for a long time, he is like a father figure to me.
T- Do you know his name?
C- I can’t find out.
T- Can you describe the surroundings?
C- It’s like a small town, i can see a street nearby. There are houses, shops, there is snow on house tops. Everything is closed. The street is empty. There is a snowstorm going on.
T- What are you doing there?
C- The old man is urging me to do something. Yes, he is asking me to take cover and go inside. He says it’s dangerous now to be outdoors.
T- And what did you do?
C- I am very sure of myself, I’m adamant. He is worried about me.
C- He turned back to one of the shops and went inside. I turned and started walking towards the mountains.
(A short pause follows)
T- Is there anything more that you would like to share from this moment?
C- Nothing
T- Ok, let’s move ahead to another significant moment in this lifetime.
C- I am 13 years old now. My mother is going out to wash clothes, she has a wooden basket full of clothes.
T- Who else is there?
C- I have 2 younger brothers, one is a baby. He is Abhi. (Ann’s younger brother of the current lifetime; name changed to protect privacy)
T- What is your mother wearing?
C- She is wearing a long dress with an apron and coat, she has a head covering, covering her ears.
C- There is a public water basin where everyone washes clothes and she is going there. Its afternoon. The town is full of people.
T- What else do you see?
C- Everyone is running scared. A leopard has come to the town. My mother pushed me inside a building. The leopard attacked her.
C- Now I have come out. The leopard is chasing people.
T- How do you feel now?
C- I feel scared when i see my injured mother.
T- If you are feeling uncomfortable, you may float above and witness the scene.
C- Leopard went inside our house. There is a fireplace, where knives for cutting wood and iron rods are kept. I took an iron rod and stabbed the leopard. It lost a lot of blood, but I don’t know whether it died. It took my baby brother. (Ann was in distress, tears running from her eyes.)
T- I can understand how painful it is for you to lose your brother. This is just a memory that you are experiencing. If you are uncomfortable you can float above and observe. (Did stress management).
(After a few seconds…)
T- Can we now go to your final moments in that lifetime?
C- I am in the same town.
T- How old are you now?
C- I am very old, around 80 years.
T- Can you describe your appearance?
C- I have wrinkled skin, I’m wearing a kind of monkey cap, wearing half gloves and brown fur boots.
C- I am alone. I don’t have any family except my brother, but he’s not here with me now.
I know how to manage on my own, with all my daily routine.
C- I’m at a pub now, drinking beer. The pub is a dark place lit up by fire lamps, there are tables, chairs and a counter.
T- Ok, what happened then?
C- I go back home, my legs are feeling weak and I fall down in the snow. People help me get up and I walk back home and lie down. I passed away in my sleep.
T- What do you experience now?
C- I am floating, feeling peaceful.
(Classic flow starts)
T- Can we go back to any significant moment in Freida’s early childhood?
C- I am 12 years old. My father travels to work for many days. My mother is doing household work. I am playing with crackers outside the house. My brothers don’t play outside. One of my brothers is a baby. He is inside. I’m playing out with friends.
T- Can you look at yourself and tell me what you are wearing?
C- I am wearing a white shirt and pants with brown vest on top.
C- It’s just me and my mother taking care of ourselves when father goes for work. It’s a small town, everyone knows each other.
T- How do you feel now?
C- I am happy.
T- Wonderful. Shall we move ahead to another significant moment?
C- It is my brother’s funeral.
T- How old are you now?
C- I am 13
T- Tell me what you see now.
C- I am in a small room, just below the roof. I have climbed up to it and saved all my brother’s toys there. House is full of people. They have come for the funeral. The old man is there (the one who is her mentor). He is a family friend. I am standing on one side of the room.
T- How do you feel now?
C- I’m feeling angry about what happened. Feeling sad.
(Ann exhibits signs of sadness and distress. Stress management done.)
T- It’s ok to feel this way. You tried to protect your family. You couldn’t have done more than that.
C- Yes… This is a thing that happens often, the tiger comes often.
T- Ok, Can we now move to another significant moment of this lifetime.
C- There is a stream near my house. I am sitting there with the old man now.
T- How old are you now?
C- I am 15 years
C- The old man is telling me stories and about his life. He makes me laugh, takes care of me. I go visit him with food. He is very encouraging. I work around the town, helping to mow lawns, and transport wood and stones. My mother is there at home. Brother has started going to a nearby school. But I’m not going to school, I want to work. I like to help people. The old man has always been supportive, he is my role model, family friend and a father figure to me. He helps to convince my parents and supports whatever I do. He is proud of me.
T- Awesome… Is there anything more to explore from this moment?
C- No
T- Now let’s move on to another important moment of this lifetime.
C- There is a snowstorm going, everyone is inside their houses. The street is empty. I am outside.
T- How old are you?
C- I am in my late 20 s.
T- What are you wearing?
C- I have fur clothing, fur boots, cap and hand wraps.
T- What is happening there?
C- Someone is stuck in the snow. They are far away. I want to go and help them. Everyone else is inside. The old man doesn’t want me to go. He thinks it’s dangerous to go outside at this time.
T- What do you do now?
C- I’m sure that I want to go. The old man goes back inside. I start walking. There are tourists out there. They were on a sledge, they got stuck in the snow, and the dogs ran away. The sledge was stuck, then it was slipping, about to fall, they couldn’t get out. I didn’t bring any tools with me, I only have a rope.
C- I was able to save only two people.
T- How do you feel now?
C- I feel regret.
T- But you stepped out in this dangerous weather and could save two people with the available resources. This is a great show of courage and compassion from your side. You really did your best.
C- Hmm (nods her head)
T- Shall we move to another significant moment in this lifetime?
C- I am 8 or 9 years old. I am outside, at the back of my house, sitting down, doing something. My father is with me.
T- Can you describe how the house looks like?
C- It’s a house made of dark brown wood. Roof is somewhat broken, but it’s a big structure.
T- Can you tell me how your father is like?
C- He is tall, with thick, dark moustache. He is wearing a hat, looking more formal with long black clothes with long sleeves and black shoes.
T- Ok, sitting at the backyard of your house, with your father, can you see what you are doing?
C- I’m trying to write something with crayons. My father is telling me that I’m not doing it right. He is angry, because I’m not able to write properly, tells me to try again.
T- Can you talk to me about your relationship with your father?
C- He has always been absent, busy with work travelling. He doesn’t have any impact on me.
He is frustrated with me as I’m unable to write. I’m sad. He tells me that I can’t do it right. He broke my crayons. I feel like a failure. He is always angry with me.
T- Ok Freida, take deep breaths and feel free to relax… Is there anything more to share from this moment?
C- No
T- Alright, let’s move on to another significant moment of this lifetime.
C- I am in a classroom. The students are talking. They have slate boards to write on.
T- How old are you now?
C- I’m 11
T- Ok, Can you describe what you see around.
C- It’s a small shack. I’m writing. The teacher is standing in the front. She is asking something to the students.
T- What is she asking?
C- She is asking some question. I tried to answer. She shouts at me as I answered wrongly. She is angry with me. She is frustrated. I want to run away. I don’t like to go to school anymore.
T- Look into her eyes and see if she reminds you of anyone from the current lifetime.
C- She is Safiya teacher, my teacher in primary.
T- Ok , are there any other significant moments that you should know from this lifetime as Freida.
C- No. (After a few moments…) The old man is my Guardian Angel. He is protecting me.
T- Amazing! Can we now revisit your final moments in this lifetime?
C- I am floating above my body.
T- How do you feel?
C- I am very happy and content. I feel an angelic presence.
T- Listen for any message from the angelic presence.
C- I’m not getting any.
T- Ok, Feeling happy and protected in this angelic presence, can you review your life as Freida and let me know what you have learned from this life that you could carry forward to the current life.
C- Live for yourself. Be fearless. You are not a failure.
T- Amazing! Shall we now go back to the garden?
C- Yes.
Took her back through the Affect bridge and burned it. Emerged her out of the session gradually.
After the session Ann felt that now she doesn’t need anyone’s validation to prove her worth. She will be able to do things fearlessly. She gained clarity on the fact that her current life feelings of worthlessness was due to her experiences in past life as Freida, which triggered her self worth. But Freida was able to overcome all these and was able to do things with selflessness, compassion and courage. This knowledge brought a renewed sense of hope to Ann.
Post-session review:-
After about 5 days from the last session, Ann reported that she has been feeling many distinct positive changes in her. She is now more courageous and confident and dares to attempt things that she was not willing to do before. Her sleep pattern has improved and she is feeling fresher than before. Her screen time has reduced considerably, and now she finds interest in talking to others and is more outgoing now. Her overthinking nature has come down and she is more carefree now. She feels more in touch with her spiritual nature now, and is more drawn to her meditative practices.
