Mr G (part 1)
46 yrs
( Person not known to me before this)
Corporate Trainer
I have collapsed in this marriage…
I have not transformed…Life is gone from the time she came into my life…
From day one, loss after loss after loss…Money, job, name, fame…
What has she come into my life for?
No peace of mind…She does not allow me freedom to do even small things…going out…going for a new project…in everything she comes in the way…She behaves like my mom…People throw me out…I am unwanted…I am a burden…
Last child of a family of 4.
3 alive
The difference between his eldest brother and him is 24 years.
Father died when he was 22.
People talked that his father became jobless the moment he was born.
Mother got skin diseases.
Always sick.
Mother didn’t know she was carrying him. He was born 21 years after last brother.
From birth he felt he was not wanted.
Father used to beat mother.
He has Alopecia totalis which is complete loss of hair from all parts of his body…Last 3 years…( not even one hair anywhere on the body…He said people found him scary)
Auto immune disease…
Calf pain, pain joints, heel pain, stomach cramps, took lots of treatments, immune suppressants, now on homeopathy.
Married for 16 years
Arranged marriage.
2 living children.
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Termination in 5 months as baby had congenital kidney anomalies…2005. ( only time I expressed by crying loudly was when I held my dead foetus in my arms …The whole hospital roof must have fallen…I was crying, shouting, wailing so loud)
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Full term normal delivery 13 years old son
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FTND 11 years daughter
Looks like I married to show the world that I could also marry, that I was good enough.
I wanted to build an empire from scratch…I had an urge for sex…Marriage was the only way I could fulfil that.
Life is gone!
At 4 years they took mom to hospital, leaving me alone to fend for myself.
At 8 years parents sent me to Sanskrit pathsala.
Felt lonely left out
I am not wanted
Same feeling…I am a burden…
Elder brother used to always beat me…
May be because of me born after so many years, their resources were diminished.
Hypnosis responsiveness- 8
Assessment of dominant sense:
A 6
V 3
K 6
Method used:
Progressive relaxation .
Staircase… door…light…Awareness…( he was k)
Breathing…5,4,3,2,1…Going deeper and deeper
T: Your mind is now beyond the normal limits of time and space…and you will remember everything that ever happened to you…Allow your subconscious mind to choose…whether from this life or from any other…
…You may be going back to a time your symptoms , your feelings, your troubling relationship first arose, the root cause…
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Emerging into light, first look at your feet…
Deep trance…
C: I am 8 …
I have just hit my cousin with a sharp piece of tile… She’s bleeding in her forehead…I have actually accidentally hit her.
I am very very scared.
I am running and hiding somewhere…
I don’t even know…
I am very scared my brother will beat me…
I don’t know when I get back again…
I screw up things…
I will get punished…
Silence…
T: I can understand that you are feeling that way… where do you think you are feeling this in your body?
C: i am feeling it here ( shows pit of stomach) I am scared…I feel lonely…
T: Having explored your memory of feeling scared and lonely, shall we explore further where it came from…
C: yes…
T: Breathing …Nice and deep…5,4,3,2,1…
T : What are you becoming aware of?
C: I am 4…
They are taking my mom to the hospital…I am running behind…I want to go with mother…My brother shoos me away , wants to beat me, telling if I go with her something bad will happen…
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I can’t understand…
… There’s nobody…
I am alone…
I am without shirt…
No one…
I am alone…
T: who gives you food?
(I can feel my compassion stirring)
C: no food…Something somebody gives…Neighbour…May be…
Nobody wants me…
I am left alone in this world…
(Tears)
T: (wiping)
I understand…
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Processing…
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( I am thinking shall I take him to in utero memories?)
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Breathes by himself long deep breaths…
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T: what are you now becoming aware of?
C : Hmm…
Laughs…
They don’t listen…I have told them so many times…Do this way…
They have lost everything now…(Earlier he was recounting that he as a boy in this lifetime would suggest and advice in family matters and people didn’t listen to him)
T: hmmm…
C: So I’m my grandfather…
I am strong…Very respected…
I am well dressed…
I am in a good position…
I am an authority figure…
In some country…Not India…Looks like Singapore of ooold time…
People respect me…
Except my wife…
She’s K…My wife from this life…
…Silence…
T: Breathing… deeper and deeper…
T: you are doing wonderful…
(Processing…)
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C: My wife is pretty…
She doesn’t trust me…
She is in India…With family…
I work here.
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Oh…Oh…
Vandana …I know you…
(I was taken aback!)
T: what did you say?
C: (smiling)…Hmm…OK…
It’s you, I have known you always…
(Smiling)
(I was quite surprised)
C: You have been there with me…
C: You are a good being…
You are actually mentoring me…
It’s beyond that…You know…
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C: This is a human being to human being connection of a supreme order…
I can’t put a name on this relationship…
C: I cannot do this well ( work) all by myself…
So I take your support…
It is misunderstood…
Oh…Oh…
You and I have this special bond which is spiritual…
(I am almost dumbstruck…
I have met this person for the first time!)
C: Why is she thinking that way…
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Deep trance…
…Wincing…
T: what are you becoming aware of now?
C: Cursing…cursing…
I am being cursed that I become so ugly that no one looks at me…
I am being cursed that I don’t prosper…That I don’t become rich…
I am being cursed that I suffer ill health…Cursing …Cursing…
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(Processing)…
T: hmmm…
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…Deep trance…
T: Hmmm…
What have you carried from that life to your current life?
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T: Are you there? ( I wondered if I said the right thing…But it seemed like it just flowed…)
C: yes…
I can see clearly…
C: The whole thing is clear now…
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She married me in this life to take revenge…She doesn’t trust me…She wants to see me suffer…She gets a thrill…She never let’s me choose my way…She has stopped me from going into so many good things professionally…
I shouldn’t prosper…
It’s all clear…
T: Where are you feeling it in your body…
C: I feel it all over me… That’s why I have all these conditions in my body…
I look ugly…I have sooo many pains…
T: When you look at it from your highest perspective, what comes to your awareness?
(Taking time)
T: Take your time…Understand…You don’t ‘have’ to tell me.( I don’t know how that came!)
C: It’s OK…Now that I have understood, I want to let go, release.
T: How would you like to do that?
C: That I understand itself is giving me so much relief…
It is me…It is not even her…That was her understanding…
…I can forgive her…(he had told me before we started that he just couldn’t forgive her for all that she did to him)
I want to love her… I want to put her in…A wave( not clear)…Of love…
T: You know you do love her…you know you can love her, .Your love can heal her and you…Your heart is so huge that you can love the entire planet…
…Smiles…
C: She did that because she loved me so much…She must have really loved me sooo much to be soo angry…
C takes time…
(I tell him to take his time and tell me when he’s done…)
C: Done.
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T: Is there anything else that is coming to your awareness?
C: no…
T: would you like to go ahead a few years and observe…May be to the end of your life…?
C: I have left my body…Peaceful…
My wife is not seen…She died 7…8…Years back…Of old age…
T: Are you in light?
C: yes…
T: What are your thoughts now…
C: yes…I want to send love and forgive her totally…
T: Take your time…Until you feel complete…
Give me a nod when you are done…
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C: Hmmm…done
I am in light…Peaceful…Happy…
Now I am with my first child… that we had to terminate…
(Laughs, cries…Tears of joy…)
Oh…Oh…
That’s my daughter…
She came back…
Tears…
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T: Our loved ones are always there with us …aren’t they? They never leave us!
C: yes… It’s beautiful…
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T: would you like to explore more?
C: I am done…I feel complete.
Emerging done…Very peaceful…
All the aggression, confusion looked settled…Quiet…
Pain zero…
After session integrating everything…
C So I carried the curse all through…From 1900s…{He said it was as if a big burden has been shifted. Thanked me profusely.
He wanted to ‘work on himself’ now he said.}
6 hours+ 4 hours
【After this, he wasn’t available for sometime…He had told me.】
When he met me after 2 months for the third session, he was a changed man.
He had joined a naturopathy centre, released 8 kgs weight, he was so much in love with life…He said he had improved ‘slightly’ financially…Was comfortable…
Was doing the ‘pourohitya’ ( mandir poojas etc)which he so liked .
( He had told me last time that in childhood when he didn’t have any money even for food he would work in temples and earned some little money)
His body pains were much lesser, his skin felt firmer( used to feel like soft jelly like he had said)…
His personal life with wife was excellent he said…very good sex life he said, wife was letting him be the way he wanted to be he said!
Blessed be all.!